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Edgar Lee Masters

Elenor Murray, daughter of Henry Murray,

The druggist at LeRoy, a village near

The shadow of Starved Rock, this Elenor

But recently returned from France, a heart

Who gave her service in the world at war,

Was found along the river’s shore, a mile

Above Starved Rock, on August 7th, the day

Year 1679, LaSalle set sail

For Michilmackinac to reach Green Bay

In the Griffin, in the winter snow and sleet,

Reaching “Lone Cliff,” Starved Rock its later name,

Also La Vantum, village of the tribe

Called Illini.

This may be taken to speak

The symbol of her life and fate. For first

This Elenor Murray comes into this life,

And lives her youth where the Rock’s shadow falls,

As if to say her life should starve and lie

Beneath a shadow, wandering in the world,

As Cavalier LaSalle did, born at Rouen,

Shot down on Trinity River, Texas. She

Searches for life and conquest of herself

With the same sleepless spirit of LaSalle;

And comes back to the shadow of the Rock,

And dies beneath its shadow. Cause of death?

Was she like Sieur LaSalle shot down, or choked,

Struck, poisoned? Let the coroner decide.

Who, hearing of the matter, takes the body

And brings it to LeRoy, is taking proofs;

Lets doctors cut the body, probe and peer

To find the cause of death.

And so this morning

Of August 7th, as a hunter walks—

Looking for rabbits maybe, aimless hunting—

Over the meadow where the Illini’s

La Vantum stood two hundred years before,

Gun over arm in readiness for game,

Sees some two hundred paces to the south

Bright colors, red and blue; thinks off the bat

A human body lies there, hurries on

And finds the girl’s dead body, hatless head,

The hat some paces off, as if she fell

In such way that the hat dashed off. Her arms

Lying outstretched, the body half on side,

The face upturned to heaven, open eyes

That might have seen Starved Rock until the eyes

Sank down in darkness where no image comes.

This hunter knew the body, bent and looked;

Gave forth a gasp of horror, leaned and touched

The cold hand of the dead: saw in her pocket,

Sticking above the pocket’s edge a banner,

And took it forth, saw it was Joan of Arc

In helmet and cuirass, kneeling in prayer.

And in the banner a paper with these words:

“To be brave, and not to flinch.” And standing there

This hunter knew that Elenor Murray came

Some days before from France, was visiting

An aunt, named Irma Leese beyond LeRoy.

What was she doing by the river’s shore?

He saw no mark upon her, and no blood;

No pistol by her, nothing disarranged

Of hair or clothing, showing struggle—nothing

To indicate the death she met. Who saw her

Before or when she died? How long had death

Been on her eyes? Some hours, or over-night.

The hunter touched her hand, already stiff;

And saw the dew upon her hair and brow,

And a blue deadness in her eyes, like pebbles.

The lips were black, and bottle flies had come

To feed upon her tongue. ’Tis ten o’clock,

The coolness of the August night unchanged

By this spent sun of August. And the moon

Lies dead and wasted there beyond Starved Rock.

The moon was beautiful last night! To walk

Beside the river under the August moon

Took Elenor Murray’s fancy, as he thinks.

Then thinking of the aunt of Elenor Murray,

Who should be notified, the hunter runs

To tell the aunt—but there’s the coroner—

Is there not law the coroner should know?

Should not the body lie, as it was found,

Until the coroner takes charge of it?

Should not he stand on guard? And so he runs,

And from a farmer’s house by telephone

Sends word to Coroner Merival. Then returns

And guards the body.

Here is riffle first:

The coroner sat with his traveling bags,

Was closing up his desk, had planned a trip

With boon companions, they were with him there;

The auto waited at the door to take them

To catch the train for northern Michigan.

He closed the desk and they arose to go.

Just then the telephone began to ring,

The hunter at the other end was talking,

And told of Elenor Murray. Merival

Turned to his friends and said: “The jig is up.

Here is an inquest, and of moment too.

I cannot go, but you jump in the car,

And go—you’ll catch the train if you speed up.”

They begged him to permit his deputy

To hold the inquest. Merival said “no,”

And waived them off. They left. He got a car

And hurried to the place where Eleanor lay....

Now who was Merival the Coroner?

For we shall know of Elenor through him,

And know her better, knowing Merival.

Take any life you choose and study it:

It gladdens, troubles, changes many lives.

The life goes out, how many things result?

Fate drops a stone, and to the utmost shores

The circles spread.

Now, such a book were endless,

If every circle, riffle should be traced

Of any life—and so of Elenor Murray,

Whose life was humble and whose death was tragic.

And yet behold the riffles spread, the lives

That are affected, and the secrets gained

Of lives she never knew of, as for that.

For even the world could not contain the books

That should be written, if all deeds were traced,

Effects, results, gains, losses, of her life,

And of her death.

Concretely said, in brief,

A man and woman have produced this child;

What was the child’s pre-natal circumstance?

How did her birth affect the father, mother?

What did their friends, old women, relatives

Take from the child in feeling, joy or pain?

What of her childhood friends, her days at school,

Her teachers, girlhood sweethearts, lovers later,

When she became a woman? What of these?

And what of those who got effects because

They knew this Elenor Murray?

Then she dies.

Read how the human secrets are exposed

In many lives because she died—not all

Lives, by her death affected, written here.

The reader may trace out such other riffles

As come to him—this book must have an end.

Enough is shown to show what could be told

If we should write a world of books. In brief

One feature of the plot elaborates

The closeness of one life, however humble

With every life upon this globe. In truth

I sit here in Chicago, housed and fed,

And think the world secure, at peace, the clock

Just striking three, in Europe striking eight:

And in some province, in some palace, hut,

Some words are spoken, or a fisticuff

Results between two brawlers, and for that

A blue-eyed boy, my grandson, we may say,

Not even yet in seed, but to be born

A half a century hence, is by those words,

That fisticuff, drawn into war in Europe,

Shrieks from a bullet through the groin, and lies

Under the sod of France.

But to return

To Elenor Murray, I have made a book

Called Domesday Book, a census spiritual

Taken of our America, or in part

Taken, not wholly taken, it may be.

For William Merival, the coroner,

Who probed the death of Elenor Murray goes

As far as may be, and beyond his power,

In diagnosis of America,

While finding out the cause of death. In short

Becomes a William the Conqueror that way

In making up a Domesday Book for us....

Of this a little later. But before

We touch upon the Domesday book of old,

We take up Elenor Murray, show her birth;

Then skip all time between and show her death;

Then take up Coroner Merival—who was he?

Then trace the life of Elenor Murray through

The witnesses at the inquest on the body

Of Elenor Murray;—also letters written,

And essays written, conversations heard,

But all evoked by Elenor Murray’s death.

And by the way trace riffles here and there....

A word now on the Domesday book of old:

Remember not a book of doom, but a book

Of houses; domus, house, so domus book.

And this book of the death of Elenor Murray

Is not a book of doom, though showing too

How fate was woven round her, and the souls

That touched her soul; but is a house book too

Of riches, poverty, and weakness, strength

Of this our country.

If you take St. Luke

You find an angel came to Mary, said:

Hail! thou art highly favored, shalt conceive,

Bring forth a son, a king for David’s throne:—

So tracing life before the life was born.

We do the same for Elenor Murray, though

No man or angel said to Elenor’s mother:

You have found favor, you are blessed of God,

You shall conceive, bring forth a daughter blest,

And blessing you. Quite otherwise the case,

As being blest or blessing, something like

Perhaps, in that desire, or flame of life,

Which gifts new souls with passion, strength and love....

This is the manner of the girl’s conception,

And of her birth:—...

What are the mortal facts

With which we deal? The man is thirty years,

Most vital, in a richness physical,

Of musical heart and feeling; and the woman

Is twenty-eight, a cradle warm and rich

For life to grow in.

And the time is this:

This Henry Murray has a mood of peace,

A splendor as of June, has for the time

Quelled anarchy within him, come to law,

Sees life a thing of beauty, happiness,

And fortune glow before him. And the mother,

Sunning her feathers in his genial light,

Takes longing and has hope. For body’s season

The blood of youth leaps in them like a fountain,

And splashes musically in the crystal pool

Of quiet days and hours. They rise refreshed,

Feel all the sun’s strength flow through muscles, nerves;

Extract from food no poison, only health;

Are sensitive to simple things, the turn

Of leaves on trees, flowers springing, robins’ songs.

Now such a time must prosper love’s desire,

Fed gently, tended wisely, left to mount

In flame and light. A prospering fate occurs

To send this Henry Murray from his wife,

And keep him absent for a month—inspire

A daily letter, written of the joys,

And hopes they have together, and omit,

Forgotten for the time, old aches, despairs,

Forebodings for the future.

What results?

For thirty days her youth, and youthful blood

Under the stimulus of absence, letters,

And growing longing, laves and soothes and feeds,

Like streams that nourish fields, her body’s being.

Enriches cells to plumpness, dim, asleep,

Which stretch, expand and turn, the prototype

Of a baby newly born; which after the cry

At midnight, taking breath an hour before,—

That cry which is of things most tragical,

The tragedy most poignant—sleeps and rests,

And flicks its little fingers, with closed eyes

Senses with visions of unopened leaves

This monstrous and external sphere, the world,

And what moves in it.

So she thinks of him,

And longs for his return, and as she longs

The rivers of her body run and ripple,

Refresh and quicken her. The morning’s light

Flutters upon the ceiling, and she lies

And stretches drowsily in the breaking slumber

Of fluctuant emotion, calls to him

With spirit and flesh, until his very name

Seems like to form in sound, while lips are closed,

And tongue is motionless, beyond herself,

And in the middle spaces of the room

Calls back to her.

And Henry Murray caught,

In letters, which she sent him, all she felt,

Re-kindled it and sped it back to her.

Then came a lover’s fancy in his brain:

He would return unlooked for—who, the god,

Inspired the fancy?—find her in what mood

She might be in his absence, where no blur

Of expectation of his coming changed

Her color, flame of spirit. And he bought

Some chablis and a cake, slipped noiselessly

Into the chamber where she lay asleep,

And had a light upon her face before

She woke and saw him.

How she cried her joy!

And put her arms around him, burned away

In one great moment from a goblet of fire,

Which over-flowed, whatever she had felt

Of shrinking or distaste, or loveless hands

At any time before, and burned it there

Till even the ashes sparkled, blew away

In incense and in light.

She rose and slipped

A robe on and her slippers; drew a stand

Between them for the chablis and the cake.

And drank and ate with him, and showed her teeth,

While laughing, shaking curls, and flinging back

Her head for rapture, and in little crows.

And thus the wine caught up the resting cells,

And flung them in the current, and their blood

Flows silently and swiftly, running deep;

And their two hearts beat like the rhythmic chimes

Of little bells of steel made blue by flame,

Because their lives are ready now, and life

Cries out to life for life to be. The fire,

Lit in the altar of their eyes, is blind

For mysteries that urge, the blood of them

In separate streams would mingle, hurried on

By energy from the heights of ancient mountains;

The God himself, and Life, the Gift of God.

And as result the hurrying microcosms

Out of their beings sweep, seek out, embrace,

Dance for the rapture of freedom, being loosed;

Unite, achieve their destiny, find the cradle

Of sleep and growth, take up the cryptic task

Of maturation and of fashioning;

Where no light is except the light of God

To light the human spirit, which emerges

From nothing that man knows; and where a face,

To be a woman’s or a man’s takes form:

Hands that shall gladden, lips that shall enthrall

With songs or kisses, hands and lips, perhaps,

To hurt and poison. All is with the fates,

And all beyond us.

Now the seed is sown,

The flower must grow and blossom. Something comes,

Perhaps, to whisper something in the ear

That will exert itself against the mass

That grows, proliferates; but for the rest

The task is done. One thing remains alone:

It is a daughter, woman, that you bear,

A whisper says to her—It is her wish—

Her wish materializes in a voice

Which says: the name of Elenor is sweet,

Choose that for her—Elenor, which is light,

The light of Helen, but a lesser light

In this our larger world; a light to shine,

And lure amid the tangled woodland ways

Of this our life; a firefly beating wings

Here, there amid the thickets of hard days.

And to go out at last, as all lights do,

And leave a memory, perhaps, but leave

No meaning to be known of any man....

So Elenor Murray is conceived and born.

————

But now this Elenor Murray being born,

We start not with her life, but with her death,

The finding of her body by the river.

And then as Coroner Merival takes proof

Her life comes forth, until the Coroner

Traces it to the moment of her death.

And thus both life and death of her are known.

This the beginning of the mystery:—

Elenor Murray, daughter of Henry Murray,

The druggist at LeRoy, a village near

The shadow of Starved Rock, this Elenor

But recently returned from France, a heart

Who gave her service in the world at war,

Was found along the river’s shore, a mile

Above Starved Rock, on August 7th, the day

Year 1679, LaSalle set sail

For Michilmackinac to reach Green Bay

In the Griffin, in the winter snow and sleet,

Reaching “Lone Cliff,” Starved Rock its later name,

Also La Vantum, village of the tribe

Called Illini.

This may be taken to speak

The symbol of her life and fate. For first

This Elenor Murray comes into this life,

And lives her youth where the Rock’s shadow falls,

As if to say her life should starve and lie

Beneath a shadow, wandering in the world,

As Cavalier LaSalle did, born at Rouen,

Shot down on Trinity River, Texas. She

Searches for life and conquest of herself

With the same sleepless spirit of LaSalle;

And comes back to the shadow of the Rock,

And dies beneath its shadow. Cause of death?

Was she like Sieur LaSalle shot down, or choked,

Struck, poisoned? Let the coroner decide.

Who, hearing of the matter, takes the body

And brings it to LeRoy, is taking proofs;

Lets doctors cut the body, probe and peer

To find the cause of death.

And so this morning

Of August 7th, as a hunter walks—

Looking for rabbits maybe, aimless hunting—

Over the meadow where the Illini’s

La Vantum stood two hundred years before,

Gun over arm in readiness for game,

Sees some two hundred paces to the south

Bright colors, red and blue; thinks off the bat

A human body lies there, hurries on

And finds the girl’s dead body, hatless head,

The hat some paces off, as if she fell

In such way that the hat dashed off. Her arms

Lying outstretched, the body half on side,

The face upturned to heaven, open eyes

That might have seen Starved Rock until the eyes

Sank down in darkness where no image comes.

This hunter knew the body, bent and looked;

Gave forth a gasp of horror, leaned and touched

The cold hand of the dead: saw in her pocket,

Sticking above the pocket’s edge a banner,

And took it forth, saw it was Joan of Arc

In helmet and cuirass, kneeling in prayer.

And in the banner a paper with these words:

“To be brave, and not to flinch.” And standing there

This hunter knew that Elenor Murray came

Some days before from France, was visiting

An aunt, named Irma Leese beyond LeRoy.

What was she doing by the river’s shore?

He saw no mark upon her, and no blood;

No pistol by her, nothing disarranged

Of hair or clothing, showing struggle—nothing

To indicate the death she met. Who saw her

Before or when she died? How long had death

Been on her eyes? Some hours, or over-night.

The hunter touched her hand, already stiff;

And saw the dew upon her hair and brow,

And a blue deadness in her eyes, like pebbles.

The lips were black, and bottle flies had come

To feed upon her tongue. ’Tis ten o’clock,

The coolness of the August night unchanged

By this spent sun of August. And the moon

Lies dead and wasted there beyond Starved Rock.

The moon was beautiful last night! To walk

Beside the river under the August moon

Took Elenor Murray’s fancy, as he thinks.

Then thinking of the aunt of Elenor Murray,

Who should be notified, the hunter runs

To tell the aunt—but there’s the coroner—

Is there not law the coroner should know?

Should not the body lie, as it was found,

Until the coroner takes charge of it?

Should not he stand on guard? And so he runs,

And from a farmer’s house by telephone

Sends word to Coroner Merival. Then returns

And guards the body.

Here is riffle first:

The coroner sat with his traveling bags,

Was closing up his desk, had planned a trip

With boon companions, they were with him there;

The auto waited at the door to take them

To catch the train for northern Michigan.

He closed the desk and they arose to go.

Just then the telephone began to ring,

The hunter at the other end was talking,

And told of Elenor Murray. Merival

Turned to his friends and said: “The jig is up.

Here is an inquest, and of moment too.

I cannot go, but you jump in the car,

And go—you’ll catch the train if you speed up.”

They begged him to permit his deputy

To hold the inquest. Merival said “no,”

And waived them off. They left. He got a car

And hurried to the place where Eleanor lay....

Now who was Merival the Coroner?

For we shall know of Elenor through him,

And know her better, knowing Merival.

Merival, of a mother fair and good,

A father sound in body and in mind,

Rich through three thousand acres left to him

By that same father dying, mother dead

These many years, a bachelor, lived alone

In the rambling house his father built of stone

Cut from the quarry near at hand, above

The river’s bend, before it meets the island

Where Starved Rock rises.

Here he had returned,

After his Harvard days, took up the task

Of these three thousand acres, while his father

Aging, relaxed his hand. From farm to farm

Rode daily, kept the books, bred cattle, sheep,

Raised seed corn, tried the secrets of DeVries,

And Burbank in plant breeding.

Day by day,

His duties ended, he sat at a window

In a great room of books where lofty shelves

Were packed with cracking covers; newer books

Flowed over on the tables, round the globes

And statuettes of bronze. Upon the wall

The portraits hung of father and of mother,

And two moose heads above the mantel stared,

The trophies of a hunt in youth.

So Merival

At a bay window sat in the great room,

Felt and beheld the stream of life and thought

Flow round and through him, to a sound in key

With his own consciousness, the murmurous voice

Of his own soul.

Along a lawn that sloped

Some hundred feet to the river he would muse.

Or through the oaks and elms and silver birches

Between the plots of flowers and rows of box

Look at the distant scene of hilly woodlands.

And why no woman in his life, no face

Smiling from out the summer house of roses,

Such riotous flames against the distant green?

And why no sons and daughters, strong and fair,

To use these horses, ponies, tramp the fields,

Shout from the tennis court, swim, skate and row?

He asked himself the question many times,

And gave himself the answer. It was this:

At twenty-five a woman crossed his path—

Let’s have the story as the world believes it,

Then have the truth. She was betrothed to him,

But went to France to study, died in France.

And so he mourned her, kept her face enshrined,

Was wedded to her spirit, could not brook

The coming of another face to blur

This face of faces! So the story went

Around the country. But his grief was not

The grief they told. The pang that gnawed his heart,

And took his spirit, dulled his man’s desire

Took root in shame, defeat, rejected love.

He had gone east to meet her and to wed her,

Now turned his thirtieth year; when he arrived

He found his dear bride flown, a note for him,

Left with the mother, saying she had flown,

And could not marry him, it would not do,

She did not love him as a woman should

Who makes a pact for life; her heart was set

For now upon her music, she was off

To France for study, wished him well, in truth—

Some woman waited him who was his mate....

So Merival read over many times

The letter, tried to find a secret hope

Lodged back of words—was this a woman’s way

To lure him further, win him to more depths?

He half resolved to follow her to France;

Then as he thought of what he was himself

In riches, breeding, place, and manliness

His egotism rose, fed by the hurt:

She might stay on in France for aught he cared!

What was she, anyway, that she could lose

Such happiness and love? for he had given

In a great passion out of a passionate heart

All that was in him—who was she to spurn

A gift like this? Yet always in his heart

Stirred something which by him was love and hate.

And when the word came she had died, the word

She loved a maestro, and the word like gas,

Which poisons, creeps and is not known, that death

Came to her somehow through a lawless love,

Or broken love, disaster of some sort,

His spirit withered with its bitterness.

And in the years to come he feared to give

With unreserve his heart, his leaves withheld

From possible frost, dreamed on and drifted on

Afraid to venture, having scarcely strength

To seek and try, endure defeat again.

Thus was his youth unsatisfied, and as hope

Of something yet to be to fill his hope

Died not, but with each dawn awoke to move

Its wings, his youth continued past his years.

The very cry of youth, which would not cease

Kept all the dreams and passions of his youth

Wakeful, expectant—kept his face and frame

Rosy and agile as he neared the mark

Of fifty years.

But every day he sat

As one who waited. What would come to him?

What soul would seek him in this room of books?

But yet no soul he found when he went forth,

Breaking his solitude, to towns.

What waste

Thought Merival, of spirit, but what waste

Of spirit in the lives he knew! What homes

Where children starve for bread, or starve for love,

Half satisfied, half-schooled are driven forth

With aspirations broken, or with hopes

Or talents bent or blasted! O, what wives

Drag through the cheerless days, what marriages

Cling and exhaust to death, and warp and stain

The children! If a business, like this farm,

Were run on like economy, a year

Would see its ruin! But he thought, at last,

Of spiritual economy, so to save

The lives of men and women, use their powers

To ends that suit.

And thus when on a time

A miner lost his life there at LeRoy,

And when the inquest found the man was killed

Through carelessness of self, while full of drink,

Merival, knowing that the drink was caused

By hopeless toil and by a bitter grief

Touching a daughter, who had strayed and died,

First wondered if in cases like to this

Good might result, if there was brought to light

All secret things; and in the course of time,

If many deaths were probed, a store of truth

Might not be gathered which some genius hand

Could use to work out laws, instructions, systems

For saving and for using wasting spirits,

So wasted in the chaos, in the senseless

Turmoil and madness of this reckless life,

Which treats the spirit as the cheapest thing,

Since it is so abundant.

Thoughts like these

Led Merival to run for coroner.

The people wondered why he sought the office.

But when they gave it to him, and he used

His private purse to seek for secret faults,

In lives grown insupportable, for causes

Which prompted suicide, the people wondered,

The people murmured sometimes, and his foes

Mocked or traduced his purpose.

Merival

The coroner is now two years in office

When Henry Murray’s daughter Elenor

Found by the river, gives him work to do

In searching out her life’s fate, cause of death,

How, in what manner, and by whom or what

Said Elenor’s dead body came to death;

And of all things which might concern the same,

With all the circumstances pertinent,

Material or in anywise related,

Or anywise connected with said death.

And as in other cases Merival

Construed the words of law, as written above:

All circumstances material or related,

Or anywise connected with said death,

To give him power as coroner to probe

To ultimate secrets, causes intimate

In birth, environment, crises of the soul,

Grief, disappointment, hopes deferred or ruined.

So now he exercised his power to strip

This woman’s life of vestments, to lay bare

Her soul, though other souls should run and rave

For nakedness and shame.

So Merival

Returning from the river with the body

Of Elenor Murray thought about the woman;

Recalled her school days in LeRoy—the night

When she was graduated at the High School; thought

About her father, mother, girlhood friends;

And stories of her youth came back to him.

The whispers of her leaving home, the trips

She took, her father’s loveless ways. And wonder

For what she did and made of self, possessed

His thinking; and the fancy grew in him

No chance for like appraisal had been his

Of human worth and waste, this man who knew

Both life and books. And lately he had read

The history of King William and his book.

And even the night before this Elenor’s body

Was found beside the river—this he read,

Perhaps, he thought, was reading it when Elenor

Was struck down or was choked. How strange the hour

Whose separate place finds Merival with a book,

And Elenor with death, brings them together,

And for result blends book and death!... He knew

By Domesday Book King William had a record

Of all the crown’s possessions, had the names

Of all land-holders, had the means of knowing

The kingdom’s strength for war; it gave the data

How to increase the kingdom’s revenue.

It was a record in a case of titles,

Disputed or at issue to appeal to.

So Merival could say: My inquests show

The country’s wealth or poverty in souls,

And what the country’s strength is, who by right

May claim his share-ship in the country’s life;

How to increase the country’s glory, power.

Why not a Domesday Book in which are shown

A certain country’s tenures spiritual?

And if great William held great council once

To make inquiry of the nation’s wealth,

Shall not I as a coroner in America,

Inquiring of a woman’s death, make record

Of lives which have touched hers, what lives she touched;

And how her death by surest logic touched

This life or that, was cause of causes, proved

The event that made events?

So Merival

Brought in a jury for the inquest work

As follows: Winthrop Marion, learned and mellow,

A journalist in Chicago, keeping still

His residence at LeRoy. And David Borrow,

A sunny pessimist of varied life,

Ingenious thought, a lawyer widely read.

And Samuel Ritter, owner of the bank,

A classmate of the coroner at Harvard.

Llewellyn George, but lately come from China,

A traveler, intellectual, anti-social

Searcher for life and beauty, devotee

Of such diversities as Nietzsche, Plato.

Also a Reverend Maiworm noted for

Charitable deeds and dreams. And Isaac Newfeldt

Who in his youth had studied Adam Smith,

And since had studied tariffs, lands and money,

Economies of nations.

And because

They were the friends of Merival, and admired

His life and work, they dropped their several tasks

To serve as jurymen.

The hunter came

And told his story: how he found the body,

What hour it was, and how the body lay;

About the banner in the woman’s pocket,

Which Coroner Merival had taken, seen,

And wondered over. For if Elenor

Was not a Joan too, why treasure this?

Did she take Joan’s spirit for her guide?

And write these words: “To be brave and not to flinch”?

She wrote them; for her father said: “It’s true

That is her writing,” when he saw the girl

First brought to Merival’s office.

Merival

Amid this business gets a telegram:

Tom Norman drowned, one of the men with whom

He planned this trip to Michigan. Later word

Tom Norman and the other, Wilbur Horne

Are in a motor-boat. Tom rises up

To get the can of bait and pitches out,

His friend leaps out to help him. But the boat

Goes on, the engine going, there they fight

For life amid the waves. Tom has been hurt,

Somehow in falling, cannot save himself,

And tells his friend to leave him, swim away.

His friend is forced at last to swim away,

And makes the mile to shore by hardest work.

Tom Norman, dead, leaves wife and children caught

In business tangles which he left to build

New strength, to disentangle, on the trip.

The rumor goes that Tom was full of drink,

Thus lost his life. But if our Elenor Murray

Had not been found beside the river, what

Had happened? If the coroner had been there,

And run the engine, steered the boat beside

The drowning man, and Wilbur Horne—what drink

Had caused the death of Norman? Or again,

Perhaps the death of Elenor saved the life

Of Merival, by keeping him at home

And safe from boats and waters.

Anyway,

As Elenor Murray’s body has no marks,

And shows no cause of death, the coroner

Sends out for Dr. Trace and talks to him

Of things that end us, says to Dr. Trace

Perform the autopsy on Elenor Murray.

And while the autopsy was being made

By Dr. Trace, he calls the witnesses

The father first of Elenor Murray, who

Tells Merival this story:

Gregory Wenner’s brother married the mother

Of Alma Bell, the daughter of a marriage

The mother made before. Kinship enough

To justify a call on Wenner’s power

When Alma Bell was face to face with shame.

And Gregory Wenner went to help the girl,

And for a moment looked on Elenor Murray

Who left the school-room passing through the hall,

A girl of seventeen. He left his business

Of massing millions in the city, to help

Poor Alma Bell, and three years afterward

In the Garden of the Gods he saw again

The face of Elenor Murray—what a fate

For Gregory Wenner!

But when Alma Bell

Wrote him for help his mind was roiled with cares:

A money magnate had signed up a loan

For half a million, to which Wenner added

That much beside, earned since his thirtieth year,

Now forty-two, with which to build a block

Of sixteen stories on a piece of ground

Leased in the loop for nine and ninety years.

But now a crabbed miser, much away,

Following the sun, and reached through agents, lawyers,

Owning the land next to the Wenner land,

Refused to have the sixteen story wall

Adjoin his wall, without he might select

His son-in-law as architect to plan

The sixteen-story block of Gregory Wenner.

And Gregory Wenner caught in such a trap,

The loan already bargained for and bound

In a hard money lender’s giant grasp,

Consented to the terms, let son-in-law

Make plans and supervise the work.

Five years

Go by before the evil blossoms fully;

But here’s the bud: Gregory Wenner spent

His half-a-million on the building, also

Four hundred thousand of the promised loan,

Made by the money magnate—then behold

The money magnate said: “You cannot have

Another dollar, for the bonds you give

Are scarcely worth the sum delivered now

Pursuant to the contract. I have learned

Your architect has blundered, in five years

Your building will be leaning, soon enough

It will be wrecked by order of the city.”

And Gregory Wenner found he spoke the truth.

But went ahead to finish up the building,

And raked and scraped, fell back on friends for loans,

Mortgaged his home for money, just to finish

This sixteen-story building, kept a hope

The future would reclaim him.

Gregory Wenner

Who seemed so powerful in his place in life

Had all along this cancer in his life:

He owned the building, but he owed the money,

And all the time the building took a slant,

By just a little every year. And time

Made matters worse for him, increased his foes

As he stood for the city in its warfares

Against the surface railways, telephones;

And earned thereby the wrath of money lenders,

Who made it hard for him to raise a loan,

Who needed loans habitually. Besides

He had the trouble of an invalid wife

Who went from hospitals to sanitariums,

And traveled south, and went in search of health.

Now Gregory Wenner reaches forty-five,

He’s fought a mighty battle, but grows tired.

The building leans a little more each year.

And money, as before, is hard to get.

And yet he lives and keeps a hope.

At last

He does not feel so well, has dizzy spells.

The doctor recommends a change of scene.

And Gregory Wenner starts to see the west.

He visits Denver. Then upon a day

He walks about the Garden of the Gods,

And sees a girl who stands alone and looks

About the Garden’s wonders. Then he sees

The girl is Elenor Murray, who has grown

To twenty-years, who looks that seventeen

When first he saw her. He remembers her,

And speaks of Alma Bell, that Alma Bell

Is kindred to him. Where is Alma Bell,

He has not heard about her in these years?

And Elenor Murray colors, and says: “Look,

There is a white cloud on the mountain top.”

And thus the talk commences.

Elenor Murray

Shows forth the vital spirit that is hers.

She dances on her toes and crows in wonder,

Flings up her arms in rapture. What a world

Of beauty and of hope! For not her life

Of teaching school, a school of Czechs and Poles

There near LeRoy, since she left school and taught,

These two years now, nor arid life at home,

Her father sullen and her mother saddened;

Nor yet that talk of Alma Bell and her

That like a corpse’s gas has scented her,

And made her struggles harder in LeRoy—

Not these have quenched her flame, or made it burn

Less brightly. Though at last she left LeRoy

To fly old things, the dreary home, begin

A new life teaching in Los Angeles.

Gregory Wenner studies her and thinks

That Alma Bell was right to reprimand

Elenor Murray for her reckless ways

Of strolling and of riding. And perhaps

Real things were back of ways to be construed

In innocence or wisdom—for who knows?

His thought ran. Such a pretty face, blue eyes,

And such a buoyant spirit.

So they wandered

About the Garden of the Gods, and took

A meal together at the restaurant.

And as they talked, he told her of himself,

About his wife long ill, this trip for health—

She sensed a music sadness in his soul.

And Gregory Wenner heard her tell her life

Of teaching, of the arid home, the shadow

That fell on her at ten years, when she saw

The hopeless, loveless life of father, mother.

And his great hunger, and his solitude

Reached for the soothing hand of Elenor Murray,

And Elenor Murray having life to give

By her maternal strength and instinct gave.

The man began to laugh, forgot his health,

The leaning building, and the money lenders,

And found his void of spirit growing things—

He loved this girl. And Elenor Murray seeing

This strong man with his love, and seeing too

How she could help him, with that venturesome

And prodigal emotion which was hers

Flung all herself to help him, being a soul

Who tried all things in courage, staked her heart

On good to come.

They took the train together.

They stopped at Santa Cruz, and on the rocks

Heard the Pacific dash himself and watched

The moon upon the water, breathed the scent

Of oriental flowerings. There at last

Under the spell of nature Gregory Wenner

Bowed down his head upon his breast and shook

For those long years of striving and of haggling,

And for this girl, but mostly for a love

That filled him now. And when he spoke again

Of his starved life, his homeless years, the girl,

Her mind resolved through thinking she could serve

This man and bring him happiness, but with heart

Flaming to heaven with the miracle

Of love for him, down looking at her hands

Which fingered nervously her dress’s hem,

Said with that gasp which made her voice so sweet:

“Do what you will with me, to ease your heart

And help your life.”

And Gregory Wenner shaken,

Astonished and made mad with ecstasy

Pressed her brown head against his breast and wept.

And there at Santa Cruz they lived a week,

Till Elenor Murray went to take her school,

He to the north en route for home.

Five years

Had passed since then. And on this day poor Wenner

Looks from a little office at his building

Visibly leaning now, the building lost,

The bonds foreclosed; this is the very day

A court gives a receiver charge of it.

And he, these several months reduced to deals

In casual properties, in trivial trades,

Hard pressed for money, has gone up and down

Pursuing prospects, possibilities,

Scanning each day financial sheets and looking

For clues to lead to money. And he finds

His strength and hope not what they were before.

His wife is living on, no whit restored.

And Gregory Wenner thinks, would they not say

I killed myself because I lost my building,

If I should kill myself, and leave a note

That business worries drove me to the deed,

My building this day taken, a receiver

In charge of what I builded out of my dream.

And yet he said to self, that would be false:

It’s Elenor Murray’s death that makes this life

So hard to bear, and thoughts of Elenor Murray

Make life a torture. First that I had to live

Without her as my wife, and next the fact

That I have taken all her life’s thought, ruined

Her chance for home and marriage; that I have seen

Elenor Murray struggle in the world,

And go forth to the war with just the thought

To serve, if it should kill her.

Then his mind

Ran over these five years when Elenor Murray

Throughout gave such devotion, constant thought,

Filled all his mind and heart, and kept her voice

Singing or talking in his memory’s ear,

In absence with long letters, when together

With passionate utterances of love. The girl

Loved Gregory Wenner, but the girl had found

A comfort for her spiritual solitude,

And got a strength in taking Wenner’s strength.

For at the last one soul lives on another.

And Elenor Murray could not live except

She had a soul to live for, and a soul

On which to pour her passion, taking back

The passion of that soul in recompense.

Gregory Wenner served her power and genius

For giving and for taking so to live,

Achieve and flame; and found them in some moods

Somehow demoniac when his spirits sank,

And drink was all that kept him on his feet.

And so when Elenor Murray came to him

And said this life of teaching was too much,

Could not be longer borne, he thought the time

Had come to end the hopeless love. He raised

The money by the hardest means to pay

Elenor Murray’s training as a nurse,

By this to set her free from teaching school,

And then he set about to crush the girl

Out of his life.

For Gregory Wenner saw

Between this passion and his failing thought,

And gray hairs coming, fortune slip like sand.

And saw his mind diffuse itself in worries,

In longing for her: found himself at times

Too much in need of drink, and shrank to see

What wishes rose that death might take his wife,

And let him marry Elenor Murray, cure

His life with having her beside him, dreaming

That somehow Elenor Murray could restore

His will and vision, by her passion’s touch,

And mother instinct make him whole again.

But if he could not have her for his wife,

And since the girl absorbed him in this life

Of separation which made longing greater,

Just as it lacked the medium to discharge

The great emotion it created, Wenner

Caught up his shreds of strength to crush her out

Of his life, told her so, when he had raised

The money for her training. For he saw

How ruin may overtake a man, and ruin

Pass by the woman, whom the world would judge

As ruined long ago. But look, he thought,

I pity her, not for our sin, if it be,

But that I have absorbed her life; and yet

The girl is mastering life, while I fall down.

She has absorbed me, if the wrong lies here.

And thus his thought went round.

And Elenor Murray

Accepted what he said and went her way

With words like these: “My love and prayers are yours

While life is with us.” Then she turned to study,

And toiled each day till night brought such fatigue

That sleep fell on her. Was it to forget?

And meanwhile she embraced the faith and poured

Her passion driven by a rapturous will

Into religion, trod her path in silence,

Save for a card at Christmas time for him,

Sometimes a little message from some place

Whereto her duty called her.

Gregory Wenner

Stands at the window of his desolate office,

And looks out on his sixteen-story building

Irrevocably lost this day. His mind runs back

To that day in the Garden of the Gods,

That night at Santa Cruz, and then his eyes

Made piercing sharp by sorrow cleave the clay

That lies upon the face of Elenor Murray,

And see the flesh of her the worms have now.

How strange, he thinks, to flit into this life

Singing and radiant, to suffer, toil,

To serve in the war, return to girlhood’s scenes,

To die, to be a memory for a day,

Then be forgotten. O, this life of ours.

Why is not God ashamed for graveyards, why

So thoughtless of our passion he lets play

This tragedy.

And Gregory Wenner thought

About the day he stood here, even as now

And heard a step, a voice, and looked around

Saw Elenor Murray, felt her arms again,

Her kiss upon his cheek, and saw her face

As light was beating on it, heard her gasp

In ecstasy for going to the war,

To which that day she gave her pledge. And heard

Her words of consecration. Heard her say,

As though she were that passionate Heloise

Brought into life again: “All I have done

Was done for love of you, all I have asked

Was only you, not what belonged to you.

I did not hope for marriage or for gifts.

I have not gratified my will, desires,

But yours I sought to gratify. I have longed

To be yours wholly, I have kept for self

Nothing, have lived for you, have lived for you

These years when you thought best to crush me out.

And now though there’s a secret in my heart,

Not wholly known to me, still I can know it

By seeing you again, I think, by touching

Your hand again. Your life has tortured me,

Both for itself, and since I could not give

Out of my heart enough to make your life

A way of peace, a way of happiness.”

Then Gregory Wenner thought how she looked down

And said: “Since I go to the war, would God

Look with disfavor on us if you took me

In your arms wholly once again? My friend,

Not with the thought to leave me soon, but sleeping

Like mates, as birds do, making sleep so sweet

Close to each other as God means we should.

I mingle love of God with love of you,

And in the night-time I can pray for you

With you beside me, find God closer then.

Who knows, you may take strength from such an hour.”

Then Gregory Wenner lived that night again,

And the next morning when she rose and shook,

As it were night gathered dew upon fresh wings,

The vital water from her glowing flesh.

And shook her hair out, laughed and said to him:

“Courage and peace, my friend.” And how they passed

Among the multitude, when he took her hand

And said farewell, and hastened to this room

To seek for chances in another day,

And never saw her more.

And all these thoughts

Coming on Gregory Wenner swept his soul

Till it seemed like a skiff in mid-sea under

A sky unreckoning, where neither bread,

Nor water, save salt water, were for lips.

And over him descended a blank light

Of life’s futility, since now this hour

Life dropped the mask and showed him just a skull.

And a strange fluttering of the nerves came on him,

So that he clutched the window frame, lest he

Spring from the window to the street below.

And he was seized with fear that said to fly,

Go somewhere, find some one, so to draw out

This madness which was one with him and in him,

And which some one in pity must relieve,

Something must cure. And in this sudden horror

Of self, this ebbing of the tides of life,

Leaving his shores to visions, where he saw

Horrible creatures stir amid the slime,

Gregory Wenner hurried from the room

And walked the streets to find his thought again

Wherewith to judge if he should kill himself

Or look to find a path in life once more.

And Gregory Wenner sitting in his club

Wrote to his brother thus: “I cannot live

Now that my business is so tangled up,

Bury my body by my father’s side.”

Next day the papers headlined Gregory Wenner:

“Loss of a building drives to suicide.”

————

Elenor Murray’s death kills Gregory Wenner

And Gregory Wenner dying make a riffle

In Mrs. Wenner’s life—reveals to her

A secret long concealed:—

I cannot tell you, Coroner, the cause

Of death of Elenor Murray, not until

My chemical analysis is finished.

Here is the woman’s heart sealed in this jar,

I weighed it, weight nine ounces, if she had

A hemolysis, cannot tell you now

What caused the hemolysis. Since you say

She took no castor oil, that you can learn

From Irma Leese, or any witness, still

A chemical analysis may show

The presence of ricin,—and that she took

A dose of oil not pure. Her throat betrayed

Slight inflammation; but in brief, I wait

My chemical analysis.

Let’s exclude

The things we know and narrow down the facts.

She lay there by the river, death had come

Some twenty hours before. No stick or stone,

No weapon near her, bottle, poison box,

No bruise upon her, in her mouth no dust,

No foreign bodies in her nostrils, neck

Without a mark, no punctures, cuts or scars

Upon her anywhere, no water in lungs,

No mud, sand, straws or weeds in hands, the nails

Clean, as if freshly manicured.

Again

No evidence of rape. I first examined

The genitals in situ, found them sound.

The girl had lived, was not a virgin, still

Had temperately indulged, and not at all

In recent months, no evidence at all

Of conjugation willingly or not,

The day of death. But still I lifted out

The ovaries, fallopian tubes and uterus,

The vagina and vulvae. Opened up

The mammals, found no milk. No pregnancy

Existed, sealed these organs up to test

For poison later, as we doctors know

Sometimes a poison’s introduced per vaginam.

I sealed the brain up too, shall make a test

Of blood and serum for urea; death

Comes suddenly from that, you find no lesion,

Must take a piece of brain and cut it up,

Pour boiling water on it, break the brain

To finer pieces, pour the water off,

Digest the piece of brain in other water,

Repeat four times, the solutions mix together,

Dry in an oven, treat with ether, at last

The residue put on a slide of glass

With nitric acid, let it stand awhile,

Then take your microscope—if there’s urea

You’ll see the crystals—very beautiful!

A cobra’s beautiful, but scarce can kill

As quick as these.

Likewise I have sealed up

The stomach, liver, kidneys, spleen, intestines,

So many poisons have no microscopic

Appearance that convinces, opium,

Hyoscyamus, belladonna fool us;

But as the stomach had no inflammation,

It was not chloral, ether took her off,

Which we can smell, to boot. But I can find

Strychnia, if it killed her; though you know

That case in England sixty years ago,

Where the analysis did not disclose

Strychnia, though they hung a man for giving

That poison to a fellow.

To recur

I’m down to this: Perhaps a hemolysis—

But what produced it? If I find no ricin

I turn to streptococcus, deadly snake,

Or shall I call him tiger? For I think

The microscopic world of living things

Is just a little jungle, filled with tigers,

Snakes, lions, what you will, with teeth and claws,

The perfect miniatures of these monstrous foes.

Sweet words come from the lips and tender hands

Like Elenor Murray’s, minister, nor know

The jungle has been roused in throat or lungs;

And shapes venene begin to crawl and eat

The ruddy apples of the blood, eject

Their triple venomous excreta in

The channels of the body.

There’s the heart,

Which may be weakened by a streptococcus.

But if she had a syncope and fell

She must have bruised her body or her head.

And if she had a syncope, was held up,

Who held her up? That might have cost her life:

To be held up in syncope. You know

You lay a person down in syncope,

And oftentimes the heart resumes its beat.

Perhaps she was held up until she died,

Then laid there by the river, so no bruise.

So many theories come to me. But again,

I say to you, look for a man. Run down

All clues of Gregory Wenner. He is dead—

Loss of a building drives to suicide—

The papers say, but still it may be true

He was with Elenor Murray when she died,

Pushed her, we’ll say, or struck her in a way

To leave no mark, a tap upon the heart

That shocked the muscles more or less obscure

That bind the auricles and ventricles,

And killed her. Then he flies away in fear,

Aghast at what he does, and kills himself.

Look for a man, I say. It must be true,

She went so secretly to walk that morning

To meet a man—why would she walk alone?

So while you hunt the man, I’ll look for ricin,

And with my chemicals end up the search.

I never saw a heart more beautiful,

Just look at it. We doctors all agreed

This Elenor Murray might have lived to ninety

Except for jungles, poison, sudden shock.

I take my bottle with the heart of Elenor

And go about my way. It beat in France,

It beat for France and for America,

But what is truer, somewhere was a man

For whom it beat!

————

When Irma Leese, the Aunt of Elenor Murray,

Appeared before the coroner she told

Of Elenor Murray’s visit, of the morning

She left to walk, was never seen again.

And brought the coroner some letters sent

By Elenor from France. What follows now

Is what the coroner, or the jury heard

From Irma Leese, from letters drawn—beside

The riffle that the death of Elenor Murray

Sent round the life of Irma Leese, which spread

To Tokio and touched a man, the son

Of Irma Leese’s sister, dead Corinne,

The mother of this man in Tokio.

Elenor Murray landing in New York,

After a weary voyage, none too well,

Staid in the city for a week and then

Upon a telegram from Irma Leese,

Born Irma Fouche, her aunt who lived alone

This summer in the Fouche house near LeRoy,

Came west to visit Irma Leese and rest.

For Elenor Murray had not been herself

Since that hard spring when in the hospital,

Caring for soldiers stricken with the flu,

She took bronchitis, after weeks in bed

Rose weak and shaky, crept to health again

Through egg-nogs, easy strolls about Bordeaux.

And later went to Nice upon a furlough

To get her strength again.

But while she saw

Her vital flame burn brightly, as of old

On favored days, yet for the rest the flame

Sputtered or sank a little. So she thought

How good it might be to go west and stroll

About the lovely country of LeRoy,

And hear the whispering cedars by a window

In the Fouche mansion where this Irma Leese,

Her aunt, was summering. So she telegraphed,

And being welcomed, went.

This stately house,

Built sixty years before by Arthur Fouche,

A brick home with a mansard roof, an oriel

That looked between the cedars, and a porch

With great Ionic columns, from the street

Stood distantly amid ten acres of lawn,

Trees, flower plots—belonged to Irma Leese,

Who had reclaimed it from a chiropractor,

To cleanse the name of Fouche from that indignity,

And bring it in the family again,

Since she had spent her girlhood, womanhood

To twenty years amid its twenty rooms.

For Irma Leese at twenty years had married

And found herself at twenty-five a widow,

With money left her, then had tried again,

And after years dissolved the second pact,

And made a settlement, was rich in fact,

Now forty-two. Five years before had come

And found the house she loved a sanitarium,

A chiropractor’s home. And as she stood

Beside the fence and saw the oriel,

Remembered all her happiness on this lawn

With brothers and with sisters, one of whom

Was Elenor Murray’s mother, then she willed

To buy the place and spend some summers here.

And here she was the summer Elenor Murray

Returned from France.

And Irma Leese had said:

“Here is your room, it has the oriel,

And there’s the river and the hills for you.

Have breakfast in your room what hour you will,

Rise when you will. We’ll drive and walk and rest,

Run to Chicago when we have a mind.

I have a splendid chauffeur now and maids.

You must grow strong and well.”

And Elenor Murray

Gasped out her happiness for the pretty room,

And stood and viewed the river and the hills,

And wept a little on the gentle shoulder

Of Irma Leese.

And so the days had passed

Of walking, driving, resting, many talks;

For Elenor Murray spoke to Irma Leese

Of tragic and of rapturous days in France,

And Irma Leese, though she had lived full years,

Had scarcely lived as much as Elenor Murray,

And could not hear enough from Elenor Murray

Of the war and France, but mostly she would urge

Her niece to tell of what affairs of love

Had come to her. And Elenor Murray told

Of Gregory Wenner, save she did not tell

The final secret, with a gesture touched

The story off by saying: It was hopeless,

I went into religion to forget.

But on a day she said to Irma Leese:

“I almost met my fate at Nice,” then sketched

A hurried picture of a brief romance.

But Elenor Murray told her nothing else

Of loves or men. But all the while the aunt

Weighed Elenor Murray, on a day exclaimed:

“I see myself in you, and you are like

Your Aunt Corinne who died in ninety-two.

I’ll tell you all about your Aunt Corinne

Some day when we are talking, but I see

You have the Fouche blood—we are lovers all.

Your mother is a lover, Elenor,

If you would know it.”

“O, your Aunt Corinne

She was most beautiful, but unfortunate.

Her husband was past sixty when she married,

And she was thirty-two. He was distinguished,

Had money and all that, but youth is all,

Is everything for love, and she was young,

And he was old.”

A week or two had passed

Since Elenor Murray came to Irma Leese,

When on a morning fire broke from the eaves

And menaced all the house; but maids and gardeners

With buckets saved the house, while Elenor Murray

And Irma Leese dipped water from the barrels

That stood along the ell.

A week from that

A carpenter was working at the eaves

Along the ell, and in the garret knelt

To pry up boards and patch. When as he pried

A board up, he beheld between the rafters

A package of old letters stained and frayed,

Tied with a little ribbon almost dust.

And when he went down-stairs, delivered it

To Irma Leese and said: Here are some letters

I found up in the garret under the floor,

I pried up in my work.

Then Irma Leese

Looked at the letters, saw her sister’s hand,

Corinne’s upon the letters, opened, read,

And saw the story which she knew before

Brought back in this uncanny way, the hand

Which wrote the letters six and twenty years

Turned back to dust. And when her niece came in

She showed the letters, said, “I’ll let you read,

I’ll tell you all about them”:

“When Corinne

Was nineteen, very beautiful and vital,

Red-cheeked, a dancer, bubbling like new wine,

A catch, as you may know, you see this house

Was full of laughter then, so many children.

We had our parties, too, and young men thought,

Each one of us would have a dowry splendid—

A young man from Chicago came along,

A lawyer there, but lately come from Pittsburgh

To practice, win his way. I knew this man.

He was a handsome dog with curly hair,

Blue eyes and sturdy figure. Well, Corinne

Quite lost her heart. He came here to a dance,

And so the game commenced. And father thought

The fellow was not right, but all of us,

Your mother and myself said, yes he is,

And we conspired to help Corinne and smooth

The path of confidence. But later on

Corinne was not so buoyant, would not talk

With me, your mother freely. Then at last

Her eyes were sometimes red; we knew she wept.

And, then Corinne was sent away. Well, here

You’ll guess the rest. Her health was breaking down,

That’s true enough; the world could think its thoughts,

And say his love grew cold, or she found out

The black-leg that he was, and he was that.

But Elenor, the truth was more than that,

Corinne had been betrayed, she went away

To right herself—these letters prove the case,

Which all the gossips, busy as they were,

Could not make out. The paper at LeRoy

Had printed that she went to pay a visit

To relatives in the east. Three months or so

She came back well and rosy. But meanwhile

Your grandfather had paid this shabby scoundrel

A sum of money, I forget the sum,

To get these letters of your Aunt Corinne—

These letters here. This matter leaked, of course.

And then we let the story take this form

And moulded it a little to this form:

The fellow was a scoundrel—this was proved

When he took money to return her letters.

They were love letters, they had been engaged,

She thought him worthy, found herself deceived

Proved, too, by taking money, when at first

He looked with honorable eyes to young Corinne,

And won her trust. And so Corinne lived here

Ten years or more, at thirty married the judge,

Her senior thirty years, and went away.

She bore a child and died—look Elenor

Here are the letters which she took and nailed

Beneath the garret floor. We’ll read them through,

And then I’ll burn them.”

Irma Leese rose up

And put the letters in her desk and said:

“Let’s ride along the river.” So they rode,

But as they rode, the day being clear and mild

The fancy took them to Chicago, where

They lunched and spent the afternoon, returning

At ten o’clock that night.

And the next morning

When Irma Leese expected Elenor

To rise and join her, asked for her, a maid

Told Irma Leese that Elenor had gone

To walk somewhere. And all that day she waited.

But as night came, she fancied Elenor

Had gone to see her mother, once rose up

To telephone, then stopped because she felt

Elenor might have plans she would not wish

Her mother to get wind of—let it go.

But when night came, she wondered, fell asleep

With wondering and worry.

But next morning

As she was waiting for the car to come

To motor to LeRoy, and see her sister,

Elenor’s mother, in a casual way,

Learn if her niece was there, and waiting read

The letters of Corinne, the telephone

Rang in an ominous way, and Irma Leese

Sprang up to answer, got the tragic word

Of Elenor Murray found beside the river.

Left all the letters spilled upon her desk

And motored to the river, to LeRoy

Where Coroner Merival took the body.

Just

As Irma Leese departed, in the room

A sullen maid revengeful for the fact

She was discharged, was leaving in a day,

Entered and saw the letters, read a little,

And gathered them, went to her room and packed

Her telescope and left, went to LeRoy,

And gave a letter to this one and that,

Until the servant maids and carpenters

And some lubricous fellows at LeRoy

Who made companions of these serving maids,

Had each a letter of the dead Corinne,

Which showed at last, after some twenty years,

Of silence and oblivion, to LeRoy

With memory to refresh, that poor Corinne

Had given her love, herself, had been betrayed,

Abandoned by a scoundrel.

Merival,

The Coroner, when told about the letters,

For soon the tongues were wagging in LeRoy,

Went here and there to find them, till he learned

What quality of love the dead Corinne

Had given to this man. Then shook his head,

Resolved to see if he could not unearth

In Elenor Murray’s life some faithless lover

Who sought her death.

The letters’ riffle crawled

Through shadows of the waters of LeRoy

Until it looked a snake, was seen as such

In Tokio by Franklin Hollister,

The son of dead Corinne; it seemed a snake:

He heard the coroner through neglect or malice

Had let the letters scatter—not the truth;—

The coroner had gathered up the letters,

Befriending Irma Leese; she got them back

Through Merival. The riffle’s just the same.

And hence this man in Tokio is crazed

For shame and fear—for fear the girl he loves

Will hear his mother’s story and break off

Her marriage promise.

So in reckless rage

He posts a letter off to Lawyer Hood,

Chicago, Illinois—the coroner

Gets all the story through this Lawyer Hood,

Long after Elenor’s inquest is at end.

Meantime he cools, is wiser, thinks it bad

To stir the scandal with a suit at law.

And then when cooled he hears from Lawyer Hood

Who tells him what the truth is. So it ends.

————

These letters and the greenish wave that coiled

At Tokio is beyond the coroner’s eye

Fixed on the water where the pebble fell:—

This death of Elenor, circles close at hand

Engage his interest. Now he seeks to learn

About her training and religious life.

And hears of Miriam Fay, a friend he thinks,

And confidant of her religious life,

Head woman of the school where Elenor

Learned chemistry, materia medica,

Anatomy, to fit her for the work

Of nursing. And he writes this Miriam Fay

And Miriam Fay responds. The letter comes

Before the jury. Here is what she wrote:—

Elenor Murray asked to go in training

And came to see me, but the school was full,

We could not take her. Then she asked to stand

Upon a list and wait, I put her off.

She came back, and she came back, till at last

I took her application; then she came

And pushed herself and asked when she could come,

And start to train. At last I laughed and said:

“Well, come to-morrow.” I had never seen

Such eagerness, persistence. So she came.

She tried to make a friend of me, perhaps

Since it was best, I being in command.

But anyway she wooed me, tried to please me.

And spite of everything I grew to love her,

Though I distrusted her. But yet again

I had belief in her best self, though doubting

The girl somehow. But when I learned the girl

Had never had religious discipline,

Her father without faith, her mother too,

Her want of moral sense, I understood.

She lacked stability of spirit, to-day

She would be one thing, something else the next.

Shot up in fire, which failed and died away

And I began to see her fraternize

With girls who had her traits, too full of life

To be what they should be, unstable too,

Much like herself.

Not long before she came

Into the training school, six months, perhaps,

She had some tragedy, I don’t know what,

Had been quite ill in body and in mind.

When she went into training I could see

Her purpose to wear down herself, forget

In weariness of body, something lived.

She was alert and dutiful and sunny,

Kept all the rules, was studious, led the class,

Excelled, I think, in studies of the nerves,

The mind grown sick.

As we grew better friends,

More intimate, she talked about religion,

And sacred subjects, asked about the church.

I gave her books to read, encouraged her,

Asked her to make her peace with God, and set

Her feet in pious paths. At last she said

She wished to be baptized, confirmed. I made

The plans for her, she was baptized, confirmed,

Went to confessional, and seemed renewed

In spirit by conversion. For at once

Her zeal was like a flame at Pentecost,

She almost took the veil, but missing that,

She followed out the discipline to the letter,

Kept all the feast days, went to mass, communion,

Did works of charity; indeed, I think

She spent her spare hours all in all at sewing

There with the sisters for the poor. She had,

When she came to me, jewelry of value,

A diamond solitaire, some other things.

I missed them, and she said she sold them, gave

The money to a home for friendless children.

And I remember when she said her father

Had wronged, misvalued her; but now her love,

Made more abundant by the love of Christ,

Had brought her to forgiveness. All her mood

Was of humility and sacrifice.

One time I saw her at the convent, sitting

Upon a foot-stool at the gracious feet

Of the Mother Superior, sewing for the poor;

Hair parted in the middle, curls combed out.

Then was it that I missed her jewelry.

She looked just like a poor maid, humble, patient,

Head bent above her sewing, eyes averted.

The room was silent with religious thought.

I loved her then and pitied her. But now

I think she had that in her which at times

Made her a flagellant, at other times

A rioter. She used the church to drag

Her life from something, took it for a bladder

To float her soul when it was perilled. First,

She did not sell her jewelry; this ring,

Too brilliant for forgetting, or to pass

Unnoticed when she wore it, showed again

Upon her finger after she had come

Out of her training, was a graduate.

She had a faculty for getting in

Where elegance and riches were. She went

Among the great ones, when she found a way,

And traveled with them where she learned the life

Of notables, aristocrats. It was there,

Or when from duty free and feasting, gadding

The ring showed on her finger.

In two years

She dropped the church. New friends made in the school,

New interests, work that took her energies

And this religious flare had cured her up

Of what was killing her when first I knew her.

There was another thing that drew her back

To flesh, away from spirit: She saw bodies,

And handled bodies as a nurse, forgot

The body is the spirit’s temple, fell

To some materialism of thought. And now

Avoided me, was much away, of course,

On duty here and there. I tried to hold her,

Protect and guide her, wrote to her at times

To make confession, take communion. She

Ignored these letters. But I heard her say

The body was as natural as the soul,

And just as natural its desires. She kept

Out of the wreck of faith one thing alone,

If she kept that: She could endure to hear

God’s name profaned, but would not stand to hear

The Savior’s spoken in irreverence.

She was afraid, no doubt. Or to be just,

The tender love of Christ, his sacrifice,

Perhaps had won her wholly—let it go,

I’ll say that much for her.

Why am I harsh?

Because I saw the good in her all streaked

With so much evil, evil known and lived

In knowledge of it, clung to none the less,

Unstable as water, how could she succeed?

Untruthful, how could confidence be hers?

I sometimes think she joined the church to mask

A secret life, renewed forgiven sins.

After she cloaked herself with piety.

Perhaps, at least, when she saw what to do,

And how to do it, using these detours

Of piety to throw us off, who else

Had seen what doors she entered, whence she came.

She wronged the church, I think, made it a screen

To stand behind for kisses, to look from

Inviting kisses. Then, as I have said,

She took materialism from her work,

And so renewed her sins. She drank, I think,

And smoked and feasted; but as for the rest,

The smoke obscured the flame, but there is flame

Or fire at least where there is smoke.

You ask

What took her to the war? Why only this:

Adventure, chance of marriage, amorous conquests—

The girl was mad for men, although I saw

Her smoke obscured the flame, I never saw her

Except with robins far too tame or lame

To interest her, and robins prove to me

The hawk is somewhere, waits for night to join

His playmate when the robins are at rest.

You see the girl has madness in her, flies

From exaltation up to ecstasy.

Feeds on emotion, never has enough.

Tries all things, states of spirit, even beliefs.

Passes from lust (I think) to celibacy,

Feasts, fasts, eats, starves, has raptures then inflicts

The whip upon her back, is penitent,

Then proud, is humble, then is arrogant,

Looks down demurely, stares you out of face,

But runs the world around. For in point of fact,

She traveled much, knew cities and their ways;

And when I used to see her at the convent

So meek, clothed like a sewing maid, at once

The pictures that she showed me of herself

At seaside places or on boulevards,

Her beauty clothed in linen or in silk,

Came back to mind, and I would resurrect

The fragments of our talks in which I saw

How she knew foods and drinks and restaurants,

And fashionable shops. This girl could fool the elect—

She fooled me for a time. I found her out.

Did she aspire? Perhaps, if you believe

It’s aspiration to seek out the rich,

And ape them. Not for me. Of course she went

To get adventure in the war, perhaps

She got too much. But as to waste of life,

She might have been a quiet, noble woman

Keeping her place in life, not trying to rise

Out of her class—too useless—in her class

Making herself all worthy, serviceable.

You’ll find ’twas pride that slew her. Very like

She found a rich man, tried to hold him, lost

Her honor and her life in consequence.

————

When Merival showed this letter to the jury,

Marion the juryman spoke up:

“You know that type of woman—saintly hag!

I wouldn’t take her word about a thing

By way of inference, or analysis.

They had some trouble, she and Elenor

You may be sure.” And Merival replied:

“Take it for what it’s worth. I leave you now

To see the man who owns the Daily Times.

He’s turned upon our inquest, did you see

The jab he gives me? I can jab as well.”

So Merival went out and took with him

A riffle in the waters of circumstance

Set up by Elenor Murray’s death to one

Remote, secure in greatness—to the man

Who ran the Times.

Archibald Lowell, owner of the Times

Lived six months of the year at Sunnyside,

His Gothic castle near LeRoy, so named

Because no sun was in him, it may be.

His wife was much away when on this earth

At cures, in travel, fighting psychic ills,

Approaching madness, dying nerves. They said

Her heart was starved for living with a man

So cold and silent. Thirty years she lived

Bound to this man, in restless agony,

And as she could not free her life from his,

Nor keep it living with him, on a day

She stuck a gas hose in her mouth and drank

Her lungs full of the lethal stuff and died.

That was the very day the hunter found

Elenor Murray’s body near the river.

A servant saw this Mrs. Lowell lying

A copy of the Times clutched in her hand,

Which published that a slip of paper found

In Elenor Murray’s pocket had these words

“To be brave and not to flinch.” And was she brave,

And nerved to end it by these words of Elenor?

But Archibald, the husband, could not bear

To have the death by suicide made known.

He laid the body out, as if his wife

Had gone to bed as usual, turned a jet

And left it, just as if his wife had failed

To fully turn it, then went in the room;

Then called the servants, did not know that one

Had seen her with the Times clutched in her hand.

He thought the matter hidden. Merival,

All occupied with Elenor Murray’s death

Gave to a deputy the Lowell inquest.

But later what this servant saw was told

To Merival.

And now no more alone

Than when his wife lived, Lowell passed the days

At Sunnyside, as he had done for years.

He sat alone, and paced the rooms alone,

With hands behind him clasped, in fear and wonder

Of life and what life is. He rode about,

And viewed his blooded cattle on the hills.

But what were all these rooms and acres to him

With no face near him but the servants, gardeners?

Sometimes he wished he had a child to draw

Upon his fabulous income, growing more

Since all his life was centered in the Times

To swell its revenues, and in the process

His spirit was more fully in the Times

Than in his body. There were eyes who saw

How deftly was his spirit woven in it

Until it was a scarf to bind and choke

The public throat, or stifle honest thought

Like a soft pillow offered for the head,

But used to smother. There were eyes who saw

The working of its ways emasculate,

Its tones of gray, where flame had been the thing,

Its timorous steps, while spying on the public,

To learn the public’s thought. Its cautious pauses,

With foot uplifted, ears pricked up to hear

A step fall, twig break. Platitudes in progress—

With sugar coat of righteousness and order,

Respectability.

Did the public make it?

Or did it make the public, that it fitted

With such exactness in the communal life?

Some thousands thought it fair—what should they think

When it played neutral in the matter of news

To both sides of the question, though at last

It turned the judge, and chose the better side,

Determined from the first, a secret plan,

And cunning way to turn the public scale?

Some thousands liked the kind of news it printed

Where no sensation flourished—smallest type

That fixed attention for the staring eyes

Needed for type so small. But others knew

It led the people by its fair pretensions,

And used them in the end. In any case

This editor played hand-ball in this way:

The advertisers tossed the ball, the readers

Caught it and tossed it to the advertisers:

And as the readers multiplied, the columns

Of advertising grew, and Lowell’s thought

Was how to play the one against the other,

And fill his purse.

It was an ingrown mind,

And growing more ingrown with time. Afraid

Of crowds and streets, uncomfortable in clubs,

No warmth in hands to touch his fellows’ hands,

Keeping aloof from politicians, loathing

The human alderman who bails the thief;

The little scamp who pares a little profit,

And grafts upon a branch that takes no harm.

He loved the active spirit, if it worked,

And feared the active spirit, if it played.

This Lowell hid himself from favor seekers,

Such letters filtered to him through a sieve

Of secretaries. If he had a friend,

Who was a mind to him as well, perhaps

It was a certain lawyer, but who knew?

And cursed with monophobia, none the less

This Lowell lived alone there near LeRoy,

Surrounded by his servants, at his desk

A secretary named McGill, who took

Such letters, editorials as he spoke.

His life was nearly waste. A peanut stand

Should be as much remembered as the Times,

When fifty years are passed.

And every month

The circulation manager came down

To tell the great man of the gain or loss

The paper made that month in circulation,

In advertising, chiefly. Lowell took

The audit sheets and studied them, and gave

Steel bullet words of order this or that.

He took the dividends, and put them—where?

God knew alone.

He went to church sometimes,

On certain Sundays, for a pious mother

Had reared him so, and sat there like a corpse,

A desiccated soul, so dry the moss

Upon his teeth was dry.

And on a day,

His wife now in the earth a week or so,

Himself not well, the doctor there to quiet

His fears of sudden death, pains in the chest,

His manager had come—was made to wait

Until the doctor finished—brought the sheets

Which showed the advertising, circulation.

And Lowell studied them and said at last:

“That new reporter makes the Murray inquest

A thing of interest, does the public like it?”

To which the manager: “It sells the paper.”

And then the great man: “It has served its use.

Now being nearly over, print these words:

The Murray inquest shows to what a length

Fantastic wit can go, it should be stopped.”

An editorial later might be well:

Comment upon a father and a mother

Invaded in their privacy, and life

In intimate relations dragged to view

To sate the curious eye.

Next day the Times

Rebuked the coroner in these words. And then

Merival sent word: “I come to see you,

Or else you come to see me, or by process

If you refuse.” And so the editor

Invited Merival to Sunnyside

To talk the matter out. This was the talk:

First Merival went over all the ground

In mild locution, what he sought to do.

How as departments in the war had studied

Disease and what not, tabulated facts,

He wished to make a start for knowing lives,

And finding remedies for lives. It’s true

Not much might be accomplished, also true

The poet and the novelist gave thought,

Analysis to lives, yet who could tell

What system might grow up to find the fault

In marriage as it is, in rearing children

In motherhood, in homes; for Merival

By way of wit said to this dullest man:

“I know of mother and of home, of heaven

I’ve yet to learn.” Whereat the great man winced,

To hear the home and motherhood so slurred,

And briefly said the Times would go its way

To serve the public interests, and to foster

American ideals as he conceived them.

Then Merival who knew the great man’s nature,

How small it was and barren, cold and dull,

And wedded to small things, to gold, and fear

Of change, and knew the life the woman lived,—

These seven days in the earth—with such a man,

Just by a zephyr of intangible thought

Veered round the talk to her, to voice a wonder

About the jet left turned, his deputy

Had overlooked a hose which she could drink

Gas from a jet. “You needn’t touch the jet.

Just leave it as she left it—hide the hose,

And leave the gas on, put the woman in bed.”

“This deputy,” said Merival, “was slack

And let a verdict pass of accident.”

“Oh yes” said Merival, “your servant told

About the hose, the Times clutched in her hand.

And may I test this jet, while I am here?

Go up to see and test it?”

Whereupon

The great man with wide eyes stared in the eyes

Of Merival, was speechless for a moment,

Not knowing what to say, while Merival

Read something in his eyes, saw in his eyes

The secret beat to cover, saw the man

Turn head away which shook a little, saw

His chest expand for breath, and heard at last

The editor in four steel bullet words,

“It is not necessary.”

Merival

Had trapped the solitary fox—arose

And going said: “If it was suicide

The inquest must be changed.”

The editor

Looked through the window at the coroner

Walking the gravel walk, and saw his hand

Unlatch the iron gate, and saw him pass

From view behind the trees.

Then horror rose

Within his brain, a nameless horror took

The heart of him, for fear this coroner

Would dig this secret up, and show the world

The dead face of the woman self-destroyed,

And of the talk, which would not come to him,

To poison air he breathed no less, of why

This woman took her life; if for ill health

Then why ill health? O, well he knew at heart

What he had done to break her, starve her life.

And now accused himself too much for words,

Ways, temperament of him that murdered her,

For lovelessness, and for deliberate hands

That pushed her off and down.

He rode that day

To see his cattle, overlook the work,

But when night came with silence and the cry

Of night-hawks, and the elegy of leaves

Beneath the stars that looked so cold at him

As he turned seeking sleep, the dreaded pain

Grew stronger in his breast. Dawn came at last

And then the stir and voices of the maids.

And after breakfast in the carven room

Archibald Lowell standing by the mantel

In his great library, felt sudden pain;

Saw sudden darkness, nothing saw at once,

Lying upon the marble of the hearth;

His great head cut which struck the post of brass

In the hearth’s railing—only a little blood!

Archibald Lowell being dead at last;

The Times left to the holders of the stock

Who kept his policy, and kept the Times

As if the great man lived.

And Merival

Taking the doctor’s word that death was caused

By angina pectoris, let it drop.

And went his way with Elenor Murray’s case.

————

So Lowell’s dead and buried; had to die,

But not through Elenor Murray. That’s the Fate

That laughs at greatness, little things that sneak

From alien neighborhoods of life and kill.

And Lowell leaves a will, to which a boy—

Who sold the Times once, afterward the Star—

Is alien as this Elenor to the man

Who owned the Times. But still is brought in touch

With Lowell’s will, because this Lowell died

Before he died. And Merival learns the facts

And brings them to the jury in these words:—

Marie Fortelka, widow, mother of Josef,

Now seventeen, an invalid at home

In a house, in Halstead Street, his running side

Aching with broken ribs, read in the Times

Of Lowell’s death the editor, dressed herself

To call on William Rummler, legal mind

For Lowell and the Times.

It was a day

When fog hung over the city, and she thought

Of fogs in Germany whence she came, and thought

Of hard conditions there when she was young.

Then as her boy, this Josef, coughed, she looked

And felt a pang at heart, a rise of wrath,

And heard him moan for broken ribs and lungs

That had been bruised or mashed. America,

Oh yes, America, she said to self,

How is it different from the land I left?

And then her husband’s memory came to mind:

How he had fled his country to be free,

And come to Philadelphia, with the thrill

Of new life found, looked at the famous Hall

Which gave the Declaration, cried and laughed

And said: “The country’s free, and I am here,

I am free now, a man, no more a slave.”

What did he find? A job, but prices high.

Wages decreased in winter, then a strike.

He joined the union, found himself in jail

For passing hand-bills which announced the strike,

And asked the public to take note, and punish

The corporation, not to trade with it,

For its injustice toward the laborers.

And in the court he heard the judge decide:

“Free speech cannot be used to gain the ends

Of ruin by conspiracy like this

Against a business. Men from foreign lands,

Of despot rule and poverty, who come

For liberty and means of life among us

Must learn that liberty is ordered liberty,

And is not license, freedom to commit

Injury to another.”

So in jail

He lay his thirty days out, went to work

Where he could find it, found the union smashed,

Himself compelled to take what job he could,

What wages he was offered. And his children

Kept coming year by year till there were eight,

And Josef was but ten. And then he died

And left this helpless family, and the boy

Sold papers on the street, ten years of age,

The widow washed.

And first he sold the Times

And helped to spread the doctrines of the Times

Of ordered liberty and epicene

Reforms of this or that. But when the Star

With millions back of it broke in the field

He changed and sold the Star, too bad for him—

Discovered something:

Josef did not know

The corners of the street are free to all,

Or free to none, where newsboys stood and sold,

And kept their stands, or rather where the powers

That kept the great conspiracy of the press

Controlled the stands, and to prevent the Star

From gaining foot-hold. Not upon this corner

Nor on that corner, any corner in short

Shall newsboys sell the Star. But Josef felt,

Being a boy, indifferent to the rules,

Well founded, true or false, that all the corners

Were free to all, and for his daring, strength

Had been selected, picked to sell the Star,

And break the ground, gain place upon the stands.

He had been warned from corners, chased and boxed

By heavy fists from corners more than once

Before the day they felled him. On that day

A monster bully, once a pugilist,

Came on him selling the Star and knocked him down,

Kicked in his ribs and broke a leg and cracked

His little skull.

And so they took him home

To Widow Fortelka and the sisters, brothers,

Whose bread he earned. And there he lay and moaned,

And when he sat up had a little cough,

Was short of breath.

And on this foggy day

When Widow Fortelka reads in the Times

That Lowell, the editor, is dead, he sits

With feet wrapped in a quilt and gets his breath

With open mouth, his face is brightly flushed;

A fetid sweetness fills the air of the room

That from his open mouth comes. Josef lingers

A few weeks yet—he has tuberculosis.

And so his mother looks at him, resolves

To call this day on William Rummler, see

If Lowell’s death has changed the state of things;

And if the legal mind will not relent

Now that the mind that fed it lies in death.

It’s true enough, she thinks, I was dismissed,

And sent away for good, but never mind.

It can’t be true this pugilist went farther

Than the authority of his hiring, that’s

The talk this lawyer gave her, used a word

She could not keep in mind—the lawyer said

Respondeat superior in this case

Was not in point—and if it could be proved

This pugilist was hired by the Times,

No one could prove the Times had hired him

To beat a boy, commit a crime. Well, then

“What was he hired for?” the widow asked.

And then she talked with newsboys, and they said

The papers had their sluggers, all of them,

Even the Star, and that was just a move

In getting circulation, keeping it.

And all these sluggers watched the stands and drove

The newsboys selling Stars away.

No matter,

She could not argue with this lawyer Rummler,

Who said: “You must excuse me, go away,

I’m sorry, but there’s nothing I can do.”

Now Widow Fortelka had never heard

Of Elenor Murray, had not read a line

Of Elenor Murray’s death beside the river.

She was as ignorant of the interview

Between the coroner and this editor

Who died next morning fearing Merival

Would dig up Mrs. Lowell and expose

Her suicide, as conferences of spirits

Directing matters in another world.

Her thought was moulded no less by the riffles

That spread from Elenor Murray and her death.

And she resolved to see this lawyer Rummler,

And try again to get a settlement

To help her dying boy. And so she went.

That morning Rummler coming into town

Had met a cynic friend upon the train

Who used his tongue as freely as his mood

Moved him to use it. So he said to Rummler:

“I see your client died—a hell of a life

That fellow lived, a critic in our midst

Both hated and caressed. And I suppose

You drew his will and know it, I will bet,

If he left anything to charity,

Or to the city, it is some narcotic

To keep things as they are, the ailing body

To dull and bring forgetfulness of pain.

He was a fine albino of the soul,

No pigment in his genesis to give

Color to hair or eyes, he had no gonads.”

And William Rummler laughed and said, “You’ll see

What Lowell did when I probate the will.”

Then William Rummler thought that very moment

Of plans whereby his legal mind could thrive

Upon the building of the big hotel

To Lowell’s memory, for perpetual use

Of the Y. M. C. A., the seminary, too,

In Moody’s memory for an orthodox

Instruction in the bible.

With such things

In mind, this William Rummler opened the door,

And stepped into his office, got a shock

From seeing Widow Fortelka on the bench,

Where clients waited, waiting there for him.

She rose and greeted him, and William Rummler

Who in a stronger moment might have said:

“You must excuse me, I have told you, madam,

I can do nothing for you,” let her follow

Into his private office and sit down

And there renew her suit.

She said to him:

“My boy is dying now, I think his ribs

Were driven in his lungs and punctured them.

He coughs the worst stuff up you ever saw.

And has an awful fever, sweats his clothes

Right through, is breathless, cannot live a month.

And I know you can help me. Mr. Lowell,

So you told me, refused a settlement,

Because this pugilist was never hired

To beat my boy, or any boy; for fear

It would be an admission, and be talked of,

And lead another to demand some money.

But now he’s dead, and surely you are free

To help me some, so that this month or two,

While my boy Joe is dying he can have

What milk he wants and food, and when he dies,

A decent coffin, burial. Then perhaps

There will be something left to help me with—

I wash to feed the children, as you know.”

And William Rummler looked at her and thought

For one brief moment with his lawyer mind

About this horror, while the widow wept,

And as she wept a culprit mood was his

For thinking of the truth, for well he knew

This slugger had been hired for such deeds,

And here was one result. And in his pain

The cynic words his friend had said to him

Upon the train began to stir, and then

He felt a rush of feeling, blood, and thought

Of clause thirteen in Lowell’s will, which gave

The trustees power, and he was chief trustee,

To give some worthy charity once a year,

Not to exceed a thousand dollars. So

He thought to self, “This is a charity.

I will advance the money, get it back

As soon as I probate the will.”

At last

He broke this moment’s musing and spoke up:

“Your case appeals to me. You may step out,

And wait till I prepare the papers, then

I’ll have a check made for a thousand dollars.”

Widow Fortelka rose up and took

The crucifix she wore and kissed it, wept

And left the room.

————

Now here’s the case of Percy Ferguson

You’d think his life was safe from Elenor Murray.

No preacher ever ran a prettier boat

Than Percy Ferguson, all painted white

With polished railings, flying at the fore

The red and white and blue. Such little waves

Set dancing by the death of Elenor Murray

To sink so fine a boat, and leave the Reverend

To swim to shore! he couldn’t walk the waves!

The Rev. Percy Ferguson, patrician

Vicar of Christ, companion of the strong,

And member of the inner shrine, where men

Observe the rituals of the golden calf;

A dilettante, and writer for the press

Upon such themes as optimism, order,

Obedience, beauty, law, while Elenor Murray’s

Life was being weighed by Merival

Preached in disparagement of Merival

Upon a fatal Sunday, as it chanced,

Too near to doom’s day for the clergyman.

For, as the word had gone about that waste

In lives preoccupied this Merival,

And many talked of waste, and spoke a life

Where waste had been in whole or part—the pulpit

Should take a hand, thought Ferguson. And so

The Reverend Percy Ferguson preached thus

To a great audience and fashionable:

“The hour’s need is a firmer faith in Christ,

A closer hold on God, belief again

In sin’s reality; the age’s vice

Is laughter over sin, the attitude

That sin is not!” And then to prove that sin

Is something real, he spoke of money sins

That bring the money panics, of the beauty

That lust corrupts, wound up with Athen’s story,

Which sin decayed. And touching on this waste,

Which was the current talk, what is this waste

Except a sin in life, the moral law

Transgressed, God mocked, the order of man’s life,

And God’s will disobeyed? Show me a life

That lives through Christ and none shall find a waste.

This clergyman some fifteen years before

Went on a hunt for Alma Bell, who taught

The art department of the school, and found

Enough to scare the school directors that

She burned with lawless love for Elenor Murray.

And made it seem the teacher’s reprimand

In school of Elenor Murray for her ways

Of strolling, riding with young men at night,

Was moved by jealousy of Elenor Murray,

Being herself in love with Elenor Murray.

This clergyman laid what he found before

The school directors, Alma Bell was sent

Out of the school her way, and disappeared....

But now, though fifteen years had passed, the story

Of Alma Bell and Elenor Murray crept

Like poisonous mist, scarce seen, around LeRoy.

It had been so always. And all these years

No one would touch or talk in open words

The loathsome matter, since girls grown to women,

And married in the town might have their names

Relinked to Alma Bell’s. And was it true

That Elenor Murray strayed as a young girl

In those far days of strolls and buggy rides?

But after Percy Ferguson had thundered

Against the inquest, Warren Henderson,

A banker of the city, who had dealt

In paper of the clergyman, and knew

The clergyman had interests near Victoria,

Was playing at the money game, and knew

He tottered on the brink, and held to hands

That feared to hold him longer—Henderson,

A wise man, cynical, contemptuous

Of frocks so sure of ways to avoid the waste,

So unforgiving of the tangled moods

And baffled eyes of men; contemptuous

Of frocks so avid for the downy beds,

Place, honors, money, admiration, praise,

Much wished to see the clergyman come down

And lay his life beside the other sinners.

But more he knew, admired this Alma Bell,

Did not believe she burned with guilty love

For Elenor Murray, thought the moral hunt

Or Alma Bell had made a waste of life,

As ignorance might pluck a flower for thinking

It was a weed; on Elenor Murray too

Had brought a waste, by scenting up her life

With something faint but ineradicable.

And Warren Henderson would have revenge,

And waited till old Jacob Bangs should fix

His name to paper once again of Ferguson’s

To tell old Jacob Bangs he should be wary,

Since banks and agencies were tremulous

With hints of failure at Victoria.

So meeting Jacob Bangs the banker told him

What things were bruited, and warned the man

To fix his name no more to Ferguson’s paper.

It was the very day the clergyman

Sought Jacob Bangs to get his signature

Upon a note for money at the bank.

And Jacob Bangs was silent and evasive,

Demurred a little and refused at last.

Which sent the anxious clergyman adrift

To look for other help. He looked and looked,

And found no other help. Associates

Depending more on men than God, fell down,

And in a day the bubble burst. The Times

Had columns of the story.

In a week,

At Sunday service Percy Ferguson

Stood in the pulpit to confess his sin,

The Murray jury sat and fed their joy

For hearing Ferguson confess his sin.

This is the way he did it:

“First, my friends,

I do not say I have betrayed the trust

My friends have given me. Some years ago

I thought to make provision for my wife,

I wished to start some certain young men right.

I had another plan I can’t disclose,

Not selfish, you’ll believe me. So I took

My savings made as lecturer and writer

And put them in this venture. I’m ashamed

To say how great those savings were, in view

Of what the poor earn, those who work with hands!

Ashamed too, when I think these savings grew

Because I spoke the things the rich desired.

And squared my words with what the strong would have—

Therein Christ was betrayed. The end has come.

I too have been betrayed, my confidence

Wronged by my fellows in the enterprise.

I hope to pay my debts. Hard poverty

Has come to me to bring me back to Christ.”

“But listen now: These years I lived perturbed,

Lest this life which I grew into would mould

Young men and ministers, lead them astray

To public life, sensation, lecture platforms,

Prosperity, away from Christ-like service,

Obscure and gentle. To those souls I owe

My heart’s confession: I have loved my books

More than the poor, position more than service,

Office and honor over love of men;

Lived thus when all my strength belonged to thought,

To work for schools, the sick, the poor, the friendless,

To boys and girls with hungry minds. My friends,

Here I abase my soul before God’s throne,

And ask forgiveness for the pious zeal

With which I smote the soul of Alma Bell,

And smudged the robe of Elenor Murray. God,

Thou, who has taken Elenor Murray home,

After great service in the war, O grant

Thy servant yet to kneel before the soul

Of Elenor Murray. For who am I to judge?

What was I then to judge? who coveted honors,

When solitude, where I might dwell apart,

And listen to the voice of God was mine,

By calling and for seeking. I have broken

The oath I took to take no purse or scrip.

I have loved money, even while I knew

No servant of Christ can work for Christ and strive

For money. And if anywhere there be

A noble boy who would become a minister,

Who has heard me, or read my books, and grown

Thereby to cherish secular ideas

Of Christ’s work in the world, to him I say:

Repent the thought, reject me; there are men

And women missionaries, here, abroad,

And nameless workers in poor settlements

Whose latchets to stoop down and to unloose

I am unworthy.”

“Gift of life too short!

O, beautiful gift of God, too brief at best,

For all a man can do, how have I wasted

This precious gift! How wasted it in pride,

In seeking out the powerful, the great,

The hands with honors, gold to give—when nothing

Is profitable to a servant of the Christ

Except to shepherd Christ’s poor. O, young men,

Interpret not your ministry in terms

Of intellect alone, forefront the heart,

That at the end of life you may look up

And say to God: Behind these are the sheep

Thou gavest me, and not a one is lost.”

“As to my enemies, for enemies

A clergyman must have whose fault is mine,

Plato would have us harden hearts to sorrow.

And Zeno roofs of slate for souls to slide

The storm of evil—Christ in sorrow did

For evil good. For me, my prayer is this,

My faith as well, that I may be perfected

Through suffering.”

That ended the confession.

Then “Love Divine, All Love Excelling” sounded.

The congregation rose, and some went up

To take the pastor’s hand, but others left

To think the matter over.

For some said:

“He married fortunate.” And others said:

“We know through Jacob Bangs he has investments

In wheat lands, what’s the truth? In any case

What avarice is this that made him anxious

About the comfort of his wife and family?

The thing won’t work. He’s only middle way

In solving his soul’s problem. This confession

Is just a poor beginning.” Others said:

“He drove out Alma Bell, let’s drive him out.”

And others said: “you note we never heard

About this speculation till it failed,

And he was brought to grief. If it had prospered

The man had never told, what do you think?”

But in a year as health failed, Ferguson

Took leave of absence, and the silence of life

Which closes over men, however noisy

With sermons, lectures, covered him. His riffle

Died out in distant waters.

There was a Doctor Burke lived at LeRoy,

Neurologist and student. On a night

When Merival had the jury at his house,

Llewellyn George was telling of his travels

In China and Japan, had mutual friends

With Franklin Hollister, the cousin of Elenor,

And son of dead Corinne, who hid her letters

Under the eaves. The talk went wide and far.

For David Borrow, sunny pessimist,

Thrust logic words at Maiworm, the juryman;

And said our life was bad, and must be so,

While Maiworm trusted God, said life was good.

And Winthrop Marion let play his wit,

The riches of his reading over all.

Thus as they talked this Doctor Burke came in.

“You’ll pardon this intrusion, I’ll go on

If this is secret business. Let me say

This inquest holds my interest and I’ve come

To tell of Elenor’s ancestry.” Thus he spoke.

“There’ll be another time if I must go.”

And Merival spoke up and said: “why stay

And tell us what you know, or think,” and so

The coroner and jury sat and heard:—

I have seen twenty men hanged, hung myself

Two in this jail, with whom I talked the night

Before they had the rope, knotted behind

The ear to break the neck. These two I hanged,

One guilty and defiant, taking chops,

Four cups of coffee just an hour before

We swung him off; the other trembling, pale,

Protesting innocence, but guilty too—

Both wore the same look in the middle watch.

I tell you what it is: You take a steer,

And windlass him to where the butcher stands

With hammer ready for the blow and knife

To slit the throat after the hammer falls,

Well, there’s a moment when the steer is standing

Head, neck strained side-ways, eyes rolled side-ways too,

Fixed, bright seen this way, but another way

A film seems spreading on them. That’s the look.

They wear a corpse-like pallor, and their tongues

Are loose, sprawl in their mouths, lie paralyzed

Against their teeth, or fall back in their throats

Which make them cough and stop for words and close

Dry lips with little pops.

There’s something else:

Their minds are out of them, like a rubber band

Stretched from the place it’s pinned, about to break.

And all the time they try to draw it back,

And give it utterance with that sprawling tongue,

And lips too dry for words. They hold it tight

As a woman giving birth holds to the sheet

Tied to the bed’s head, pulls the sheet to end

The agony and the reluctance of the child

That pauses, dreads to enter in this world.

So was it with Fred Taylor. But before

The high Court shook his hope, he talked to me

Freely and fully, saying many times

What could the world expect of him beside

Some violence or murder? He had borrowed

The books his lawyers used to fight for him,

And read for hours and days about heredity.

And in our talks he said: mix red and violet,

You have the color purple. Strike two notes,

You have a certain chord, and nature made me

By rules as mathematical as they use

In mixing drugs or gases. Then he’d say:

Look at this table, and he’d show to me

A diagram of chickens, how blue fowls

Come from a cross of black with one of white

With black splashed feathers. Look at the blues, he’d say.

They mate, and of four chickens, two are blue,

And one is black and one is white. These blues

Produce in that proportion. But the black

And white have chickens white and black, you see

In equal numbers. Don’t you see that I

Was caught in mathematics, jotted down

Upon a slate before I came to earth?

They could have picked my forbears; on a slate

Forecast my soul, its tendencies, if they

Had been that devilish. And so he talked.

Well, then he heard that Elenor Murray died,

And told me that her grandmother, that woman

Known for her queerness and her lively soul

To eighty years and more, was grandmother

To his father, and this Elenor Murray cousin

To his father. There you have it, he exclaimed,

She killed herself, and I know why, he said

She loved someone. This love is in our blood,

And overflows, or spurts between the logs

You dam it with, or fully stayed grows green

With summer scum, breeds frogs and spotted snakes.

He was a study and I studied him.

I’d sit beside his cell and read some words

From his confession, ask why did you this?

His crime was monstrous, but he won me over.

I wished to help the boy, for boy he was

Just nineteen, and I pitied him. At last

His story seemed as clear as when you see

The truth behind poor words that say as much

As words can say—you see, you get the truth

And know it, even if you never pass

The truth to others.

Lord! This girl he killed

Knew not the power she played with. Why she sat

Like a child upon the asp’s nest picking flowers.

Or as a child will pet a mad dog. Look

You come into my life, what do you bring?

Why, everything that made your life, all pains,

All raptures, disappointments, wisdom learned

You bring to me. But do you show them, no!

You hide them maybe, some of them, and leave

Myself to learn you by the hardest means,

And bing! A something in you, or in me,

Out of a past explodes, or better still

Extends a claw from out the buttoned coat

And rips a face.

So this poor girl was killed,

And by an innocent coquetry evoked

The claw that tore her breast away.

One day

As I passed by his cell I stopped and sat.

What was the first thing entering in your mind

From which you trace your act? And he said: “Well

Almost from the beginning all my mind

Was on her from the moment I awaked

Until I slept, and often I awoke

At two or three o’clock with thoughts of her.

And through the day I thought of nothing else;

Sometimes I could not eat. At school my thought

Stretched out of me to her, could not be pulled

Back to the lesson. I could read a page

As it were Greek, not understand a word.

But just the moment I was with her then

My soul re-entered me, I was at peace,

And happy, oh so happy! In the days

When we were separated my unrest

Took this form: that I must be with her, or

If that could not be, then some other place

Was better than the place I was—I strained,

Lived in a constant strain, found no content

With anything or place, could find no peace

Except with her.”

“Right from the first I had

Two minds, two hearts concerning her, and one

Was confidence, and one was doubt, one love,

One hatred. And one purpose was to serve her,

Guard her and care for her, one said destroy,

Ruin or kill her. Sitting by her side,

Except as I shall say I loved her, trusted her,

Away from her, I doubted her and hated her.

But at the dances when I saw her smile

Up at another man, the storming blood

Roared in my brain for wondering about

The words they said. He might be holding her

Too close to him; or as I watched I saw

His knee indent her skirt between her knees,

That might be when she smiled. Then going home

I’d ask her what he said. She’d only smile

And keep a silence that I could not open

With any pry of questions.”

“Well, we quarreled,

About this boy she danced with. So I said:

I’ll leave her, never see her, I’ll go find

Another girl, forget her. Sunday next

I saw her driving with this fellow. I

Was walking in the road, they passed me laughing,

She turned about and waved her hand at me.

That night I lay awake and tossed and thought:

Where are they now? What are they doing now?

He’s kissing her upon the lips I’ve kissed,

Or worse, perhaps, I have been fooled, she lies

Within his arms and gives him what for love

I never asked her, never dared to ask.”

This brought Fred Taylor’s story to the murder,

In point of madness, anyway. Some business

Broke in our visit here. Another time

I sat with him and questioned him again

About the night he killed her.

“Well,” he said,

“I told you that we quarreled. So I fought

To free myself of thought of her—no use.

I tried another girl, it wouldn’t work.

For at the dance I took this girl to, I

Saw Gertrude with this fellow, and the madness

Came over me in blackness, hurricanes,

Until I found myself in front of her,

Where she was seated, asking for a dance.

She smiled and rose and danced with me. And then

As the dance ended, May I come to see you,

I’m sorry for my words, came from my tongue,

In spite of will. She laughed and said to me:

‘If you’ll behave yourself.’”

“I went to see her,

But came away more wretched than I went.

She seemed to have sweet secrets, in her silence

And eyes too calm the secrets hid themselves.

At first I could not summon up the strength

To ask her questions, but at last I did.

And then she only shook her head and laughed,

And spoke of something else. She had a way

Of mixing up the subjects, till my mind

Forgot the very thing I wished to know,

Or dulled its edges so, if I remembered

I could not ask it so to bring the answer

I wished from her. I came away so weak

I scarce could walk, fell into sleep at once,

But woke at three o’clock, and could not sleep.”

“Before this quarrel we had been engaged

And at this evening’s end I brought it up:

‘What shall we do? Are you engaged to me?

Will you renew it?’ And she said to me:

‘We still are young, it’s better to be free.

Let’s play and dance. Be gay, for if you will

I’ll go with you, but when you’re gloomy, dear,

You are not company for a girl.’”

“Dear me!

Here was I five feet nine, and could have crushed

Her little body with my giant arms.

And yet in strength that counts, the mind that moves

The body, but much more can move itself,

And other minds, she was a spirit power,

And I but just a derrick slowly swung

By an engine smaller, noisy with its chug,

And cloudy with its smoke bituminous.

That night, however, she engaged to go

To dance with me a week hence. But meanwhile

The hellish thing comes, on the morning after.

Thus chum of mine, who testified, John Luce

Came to me with the story that this man

That Gertrude danced with, told him—O my God—

That Gertrude hinted she would come across,

Give him the final bliss. That was the proof

They brought out in the trial, as you know.

The fellow said it, damn him—whether she

Made such a promise, who knows? Would to God

I knew before you hang me. There I stood

And heard this story, felt my arteries

Lock as you’d let canal gates down, my heart

Beat for deliverance from the bolted streams.

That night I could not sleep, but found a book,

Just think of this for fate! Under my eyes

There comes an ancient story out of Egypt:

Thyamis fearing he would die and lose

The lovely Chariclea, strikes her dead,

Then kills himself, some thousands of years ago.

It’s all forgotten now, I say to self,

Who cares, what matters it, the thing was done

And served its end. The story stuck with me.

But the next night and the next night I stole out

To spy on Gertrude, by the path in the grass

Lay for long hours. And on the third night saw

At half-past eight or nine this fellow come

And take her walking in the darkness—where?

I could have touched them as they walked the path,

But could not follow for the moon which rose.

Besides I lost them.”

“Well, the time approached

Of the dance, and still I brooded, then resolved.

My hatred now was level with the cauldron,

With bubbles crackling. So the spade I took,

Hidden beneath the seat may show forethought,

They caught the jury with that argument,

And forethought does it show, but who made me

To have such forethought?”

“Then I called for her

And took her to the dance. I was most gay,

Because the load was lifted from my mind,

And I had found relief. And so we danced.

And she danced with this fellow. I was calm,

Believed somehow he had not had her yet.

And if his knee touched hers—why let it go.

Nothing beyond shall happen, even this

Shall not be any more.”

“We started home.

Before we reached that clump of woods I asked her

If she would marry me. She laughed at me.

I asked her if she loved that other man.

She said you are a silly boy, and laughed.

And then I asked her if she’d marry me,

And if she would not, why she would not do it.

We came up to the woods and she was silent,

I could not make her speak. I stopped the horse.

She sat all quiet, I could see her face

Under the brilliance of the moon. I saw

A thin smile on her face—and then I struck her,

And from the floor grabbed up the iron wrench,

And struck her, took her out and laid her down,

And did what was too horrible, they say,

To do and keep my life. To finish up

I reached back for the iron wrench, first felt

Her breast to find her heart, no use of wrench,

She was already dead. I took the spade,

Scraped off the leaves between two trees and dug,

And buried her and said: ‘My Chariclea

No man shall have you.’ Then I drove till morning,

And after some days reached Missouri, where

They caught me.”

So Fred Taylor told me all,

Filled in the full confession that he made,

And which they used in court, with looks and words,

Scarce to be reproduced; but to the last

He said the mathematics of his birth

Accounted for his deed.

Is it not true?

If you resolved the question that the jury

Resolved, did he know right from wrong, did he

Know what he did, the jury answered truly

To give the rope to him. Or if you say

These mathematics may be true, and still

A man like that is better out of way,

And saying so become the very spirit,

And reason which slew Gertrude, disregarding

The devil of heredity which clutched him,

As he put by the reason we obey,

It may be well enough, I do not know.

Now for last night before this morning fixed

To swing him off. His lawyers went to see

The governor to win reprieval, perhaps

A commutation. I could see his eyes

Had two lights in them; one was like a lantern

With the globe greased, which showed he could not see

Himself in death tomorrow—what is that

In the soul that cannot see itself in death?

No to-morrow, continuation, the wall, the end!

And yet this very smear upon the globe

Was death’s half fleshless hand which rubbed across

His senses and his hope. The other light

Was weirdly bright for terror, expectation

Of good news from the governor.

For his lawyers

Were in these hours petitioning. He would ask:

“No news? No word? What is the time?” His tongue

Would fall back in his throat, we saw the strain

Of his stretched soul. He’d sit upon his couch

Hands clasped, head down. Arise and hold the bars,

Himself fling on the couch face down and shake.

But when he heard the hammers ring that nail

The scaffold into shape, he whirled around

Like a rat in a cage. And when the sand bag fell,

That tested out the rope, a muffled thug,

And the rope creaked, he started up and moaned

“You’re getting ready,” and his body shivered,

His white hands could not hold the bars, he reeled

And fell upon the couch again.

Suppose

There was no whiskey and no morphia,

Except for what the parsons think fit use,

A poor weak fellow—not a Socrates—

Must march the gallows, walk with every nerve

Up-bristled like a hair in fright. This night

Was much too horrible for me. At last

I had the doctor dope him unaware,

And for a time he slept.

But when the dawn

Looked through the little windows near the ceiling

Cob-webbed and grimed, with light like sanded water,

And echoes started in the corridors

Of feet and objects moved, then all at once

He sprang up from his sleep, and gave a groan,

Half yell, that shook us all.

A clergyman

Came soon to pray with him, and he grew calmer,

And said: “O pray for her, but pray for me

That I may see her, when this riddle-world

No longer stands between us, slipped from her

And soon from me.”

For breakfast he took coffee,

A piece of toast, no more. The sickening hour

Approaches—he is sitting on his couch,

Bent over, head in hands, dazed, or in prayer.

My deputy reads the warrant—while I stand

At one side so to hear, but not to see.

And then my clerk comes quickly through the door

That opens from the office in the jail;

Runs up the iron steps, all out of breath,

And almost shouts: “The governor telephones

To stop; the sentence is commuted.” Then

I grew as weak as the culprit—took the warrant,

And stepped up to the cell’s door, coughed, inhaled,

And after getting breath I said: “Good news,

The governor has saved you.”

Then he laughed,

Half fell against the bars, and like a rag

Sank in a heap.

I don’t know to this day

What moved the governor. For crazy men

Are hanged sometimes. To-day he leaves the jail.

We take him where the criminal insane

Are housed at our expense.

————

So Merival heard the sheriff. As he knew

The governor’s mind, and how the governor

Gave heed to public thought, or what is deemed

The public thought, what’s printed in the press,

He wondered at the governor. For no crime

Had stirred the county like this crime. And if

A jury and the courts adjudged this boy

Of nineteen in his mind, what was the right

Of interference by the governor?

So Merival was puzzled. They were chums,

The governor and Merival in old days.

Had known club-life together, ate and drank

Together in the days when Merival

Came to Chicago living down the hurt

He took from her who left him. In those days

The governor was struggling, Merival

Had helped with friends and purse—and later helped

The governor’s ambition from the time

He went to congress. So the two were friends

With memories and secrets for the stuff

Of friendship, glad renewal of the surge

Of lasting friendship when they met.

And now

He sensed a secret, meant to bring it forth.

And telegraphed the governor, who said:

“I’ll see you in Chicago.” Merival

Went up to see the governor and talk.

They had not met for months for leisured talk.

And now the governor said: “I’ll tell you all,

And make it like a drama. I’ll bring in

My wife who figured in this murder case.

It was this way: It’s nearly one o’clock,

I’m back from hearing lawyers plead. I wish

To make this vivid so you’ll get my mind.

I tell you what I said to her. It’s this:”

I’m home at last. How long were you asleep?

I startled you. The time? It’s midnight past.

Put on your slippers and your robe, my dear,

And make some coffee for me—what a night!

Yes, tell you? I shall tell you everything.

I must tell someone, and a wife should know

The workings of a governor’s mind—no one

Could guess what turned the scale to save this man

Who would have died to-morrow, but for me.

That’s fine. This coffee helps me. As I said

This night has been a trial. Well, you know

I told these lawyers they could come at eight,

And so they came. A seasoned lawyer one,

The other young and radical, both full

Of sentiment of some sort. And there you sit,

And do not say a word of disapproval.

You smile, which means you sun yourself within

The power I have, and yet do you approve?

This man committed brutal murder, did

A nameless horror; now he’s saved from death.

The father and the mother of the girl,

The neighborhood, perhaps, in which she lived

Will roar against me, think that I was bought,

Or used by someone I’m indebted to

In politics. Oh no! It’s really funny,

Since it is simpler than such things as these.

And no one, saving you, shall know the secret.

For there I sat and didn’t say a word

To indicate, betray my thought; not when

The thing came out that moved me. Let them read

The doctor’s affidavits, that this man

Was crazy when he killed the girl, and read

The transcript of the evidence on the trial.

They read and talked. At last the younger lawyer,

For sometime still, kept silent by the other,

Pops out with something, reads an affidavit,

As foreign to the matter as a story

Of melodrama color on the screen,

Which still contained a sentence that went home;

I felt my mind turn like a turn-table,

And click as when the switchman kicks the tongue

Of steel into the slot that holds the table.

And from my mind the engine, that’s the problem,

Puffed, puffed and moved away, out on the track,

And disappeared upon its business. How

Is that for metaphor? Your coffee, dear,

Stirs up my fancy. But to tell the rest,

If my face changed expression, or my eye

Betrayed my thought, then I have no control

Of outward seeming. For they argued on

An hour or so thereafter. And I asked

Re-reading of the transcript where this man

Told of his maniac passion, of the night

He killed the girl, the doctors’ testimony

I had re-read, and let these lawyers think

My interest centered there, and my decision

Was based upon such matters, and at last

The penalty commuted. When in truth

I tell you I had let the fellow hang

For all of this, except that I took fire

Because of something in this affidavit

Irrelevant to the issue, reaching me

In something only relevant to me.

O, well, all life is such. Our great decisions

Flame out of sparks, where roaring fires before,

Not touching our combustibles wholly failed

To flame or light us.

Now the secret hear.

Do you remember all the books I read

Two years ago upon heredity,

Foot-notes to evolution, the dynamics

Of living matter? Well, it wasn’t that

That made me save this fellow. There you smile

For knowing how and when I got these books,

Who woke my interest in them. Never mind,

You don’t know yet my reasons.

But I’ll tell you:

And let you see a governor’s mind at work.

When this young lawyer in this affidavit

Read to a certain place my mind strayed off

And lived a time past, you were present too.

It was that morning when I passed my crisis,

Had just dodged death, could scarcely speak, too weak

To lift a hand to feed myself, but needed

Vital replenishment of strength, and then

I got it in a bowl of oyster soup,

Rich cream at that. And as I live, my dear,

As this young lawyer read, I felt myself

In bed as I lay then, re-lived the weakness,

Could see the spoon that carried to my mouth

The appetizing soup, imagined there

The feelings I had then of getting fingers

Upon the rail of life again, how faint,

But with such clear degrees. Could see the hand

That held the spoon, the eyes that looked at me

In triumph for the victory of my strength,

Which battled, almost lost the prize of life.

It all came over me when this lawyer read:

Elenor Murray lately come from France

Found dead beside the river, was the cousin

Of this Fred Taylor, and had planned to come

To see the governor, death prevented her—

Suppose it had?

That affidavit, doubtless

Was read to me to move me for the fact

This man was kindred to a woman who

Served in the war, this lawyer was that cheap!

And isn’t it as cheap to think that I

Could be persuaded by the circumstance

That Elenor Murray, she who nursed me once,

Was cousin to this fellow, if this lawyer

Knew this, and did he know it? I don’t know.

Had Elenor Murray lived she would have come

To ask her cousin’s life—I know her heart.

And at the last, I think this was the thing:

I thought I’d do exactly what I’d do

If she had lived and asked me, disregard

Her death, and act as if she lived, repay

Her dead hands, which in life had saved my life.

Now, dear, your eyes have tears—I know—believe me,

I had no romance with this Elenor Murray.

Good Lord, it’s one o’clock, I must to bed....

You get my story Merival? Do you think,

A softness in the heart went to the brain

And softened that? Well now I stress two things:

I can’t endure defeat, nor bear to see

An ardent spirit thwarted. What I’ve achieved

Has been through will that would not bend, and so

To see that in another wins my love,

And my support. Now take this Elenor Murray

She had a will like mine, she worked her way

As I have done. And just to hear that she

Had planned to see me, ask for clemency

For this condemned degenerate, made me say

Shall I let death defeat her? Take the breach

And make her death no matter in my course?

For as I live if she had come to me

I had done that I did. And why was that?

No romance! Never that! Yet human love

As friend can keep for friend in this our life

I felt for Elenor Murray—and for this:

It was her will that would not take defeat,

Devotion to her work, and in my case

This depth of friendship welling in her heart

For human beings, that I shared in—there

Gave tireless healing to her nursing hands

And saved my life. And for a life a life.

This criminal will live some years, we’ll say,

Were better dead. All right. He’ll cost the state

Say twenty thousand dollars. What is that

Contrasted with the cost to me, if I

Had let him hang? There is a bank account,

Economies in the realm of thought to watch.

And don’t you think the souls—let’s call them souls—

Of these avenging, law abiding folk,

These souls of the community all in all

Will be improved for hearing that I did

A human thing, and profit more therefrom

Than though that sense of balance in their souls

Struck for the thought of crime avenged, the law

Fulfilled and vindicated? Yes, it’s true.

And Merival spoke up and said: “It’s true,

I understand your story, and I’m glad.

It’s like you and I’ll tell my jury first,

And they will scatter it, what moved in you

And how this Elenor Murray saved a life.”

————

The talk of waste in human life was constant

As Coroner Merival took evidence

At Elenor Murray’s inquest. Everyone

Could think of waste in some one’s life as well

As in his own.

John Scofield knew the girl,

Had worked for Arthur Fouche, her grandfather,

And knew what course his life took, how his fortune

Was wasted, dwindled down.

Remembering

A talk he heard between this Elenor Murray

And Arthur Fouche, her grandfather, he spoke

To Coroner Merival on the street one day:

You see I worked for Arthur Fouche, he said,

Until the year before he died; I knew

That worthless son of his who lived with him,

Born when his mother was past bearing time,

So born a weakling. When he came from college

He married soon and came to mother’s hearth,

And brought his bride. I heard the old man say:

“A man should have his own place when he marries,

Not settle in the family nest”; I heard

The old man offer him a place, or offer

To buy a place for him. This baby boy

Ran quick to mother, cried and asked to stay.

What happened then? What always happens. Soon

This son began to edge upon the father,

And take the reins a little, Arthur Fouche

Was growing old. And at the last the son

Controlled the bank account and ran the farms;

And Mrs. Fouche gave up her place at table

To daughter-in-law, no longer served or poured

The coffee—so you see how humble beggars

Become the masters, it is always so.

Now this I know: When this boy came from school

And brought his wife back to the family place,

Old Arthur Fouche had twenty thousand dollars

On saving in the bank, and lots of money

Loaned out on mortgages. But when he died

He owed two thousand dollars at the bank.

Where did the money go? Why, for ten years

When Arthur Fouche and son were partners, I

Saw what went on, and saw this boy buy cattle

When beef was high, sell cattle when it was low,

And lose each year a little. And I saw

This boy buy buggies, autos and machinery,

And lose the money trading. So it was,

This worthless boy had nothing in his head

To run a business, which used up the fortune

Of Arthur Fouche, and strangled Arthur Fouche,

As vines destroy an oak tree. Well, you know

When Arthur Fouche’s will was opened up

They found this son was willed most everything—

It’s always so. The children who go out,

And make their way get nothing, and the son

Who stays at home by mother gets the swag.

And so this son was willed the family place

And sold it to that chiropractor—left

For California to remake his life,

And died there, after wasting all his life,

His father’s fortune, too.

So, now to show you

How age breaks down a mind and dulls a heart,

I’ll tell you what I heard:

This Elenor Murray

Was eighteen, just from High School, and one day

She came to see her grandfather and talked.

The old man always said he loved her most

Of all the grandchildren, and Mrs. Fouche

Told me a dozen times she thought as much

Of Elenor Murray as she did of any

Child of her own. Too bad they didn’t show

Their love for her.

I was in and out the room

Where Elenor Murray and her grandfather

Were talking on that day, was planing doors

That swelled and wouldn’t close. There was no secret

About this talk of theirs that I could see,

And so I listened.

Elenor began:

“If you can help me, grandpa, just a little

I can go through the university.

I can teach school in summer and can save

A little money by denying self.

If you can let me have two hundred dollars,

When school begins each year, divide it up,

If you prefer, and give me half in the fall,

And half in March, perhaps, I can get through.

And when I finish I shall go to work

And pay you back, I want it as a loan,

And do not ask it for a gift.” She sat,

And fingered at her dress while asking him,

And Arthur Fouche looked at her. Come to think

He was toward eighty then. At last he said:

“I wish I could do what you ask me, Elenor,

But there are several things. You see, my child,

I have been through this thing of educating

A family of children, lived my life

In that regard, and so have done my part.

I sent your mother to St. Mary’s, sent

The rest of them wherever they desired.

And that’s what every father owes his children.

And when he does it, he has done his duty.

I’m sorry that your father cannot help you,

And I would help you, though I’ve done my duty

By those to whom I owed it; but you see

Your uncle and myself are partners buying

And selling cattle, and the business lags.

We do not profit much, and all the money

I have in bank is needed for this business.

We buy the cattle, and we buy the corn,

Then we run short of corn; and now and then

I have to ask the bank to lend us money,

And give my note. Last month I borrowed money!”

And so the old man talked. And as I looked

I saw the tears run down her cheeks. She sat

And looked as if she didn’t believe him.

No,

Why should she? For I do not understand

Why in a case like this, a man who’s worth,

Say fifty thousand dollars couldn’t spare

Two hundred dollars by the year. Let’s see:

He might have bought less corn or cattle, gambled

On lucky sales of cattle—there’s a way

To do a big thing when you have the eyes

To see how big it is; and as for me,

If money must be lost, I’d rather lose it

On Elenor Murray than on cattle. In fact,

That’s where the money went, as I have said.

And Elenor Murray went away and earned

Two terms at college, and this worthless son

Ate up and spent the money. All of them,

The son and Arthur Fouche and Elenor Murray

Are gone to dust, now, like the garden things

That sprout up, fall and rot.

At times it seems

All waste to me, no matter what you do

For self or others, unless you think of turnips

Which can’t be much to turnips, but are good

For us who raise them. Here’s my story then,

Good wishes to you, Coroner Merival.

————

Coroner Merival heard that Gottlieb Gerald

Knew Elenor Murray and her family life;

And knew her love for music, how she tried

To play on the piano. On an evening

He went with Winthrop Marion to the place,—

Llewellyn George dropped in to hear, as well—

Where Gottlieb Gerald sold pianos—dreamed,

Read Kant at times, a scholar, but a failure,

His life a waste in business. Gottlieb Gerald

Spoke to them in these words:—

I knew her, why of course. And you want me?

What can I say? I don’t know how she died.

I know what people say. But if you want

To hear about her, as I knew the girl,

Sit down a minute. Wait, a customer!...

It was a fellow with a bill, these fellows

Who come for money make me smile. Good God!

Where shall I get the money, when pianos,

Such as I make, are devilish hard to sell?

Now listen to this tune! Dumm, dumm, dumm, dumm,

How’s that for quality, sweet clear and pure?

Now listen to these chords I take from Bach!

Oh no, I never played much, just for self.

Well, you might say my passion for this work

Is due to this: I pick the wire strings,

The spruce boards and all that for instruments

That suit my ear at last. When I have built

A piano, then I sit and play upon it,

And find forgetfulness and rapture through it.

And well I need forgetfulness, for the bills

Are never paid, collectors always come.

I keep a little lawyer almost busy,

Lest some one get a judgment, levy a writ

Upon my prizes here, this one in chief.

Oh, well, I pay at last, I always pay,

But I must have my time. And in the days

When these collectors swarm too much I find

Oblivion in music, run my hands

Over the keys I’ve tuned. I wish I had

Some life of Cristofori, just to see

If he was dodging bills when tuning strings.

Perhaps that Silberman who made pianos

For Frederick the Great had money enough,

And needed no oblivion from bills.

You see I’m getting old now, sixty-eight;

And this I say, that life is far too short

For man to use his conquests and his wisdoms.

This spirit, mind, is a machine, piano,

And has its laws of harmony and use.

Well, it seems funny that a man just learns

The secrets of his being, how to love,

How to forget, what to select, what life

Is natural to him, and only living

According to one’s nature is increase—

All else is waste—when wind blows on your back,

Just as I sit sometimes when these collectors

Come in on me—and so you find it’s Death,

Who levies on your life; no little lawyer

Can keep him off with stays of execution,

Or supersedeas, I think it is.

Well, as I said, a man must live his nature,

And dump the rules; this Christianity

Makes people wear steel corsets to grow straight,

And they don’t grow so, for they scarcely breathe,

They’re laced so tight; and all their vital organs

Are piled up and repressed until they groan.

Then what? They lace up tighter, till the blood

Stops in the veins and numbness comes upon them.

Oblivion it may be—but give me music!

Oh yes, this girl, Elenor Murray, well

This talk about her home is half and half,

Part true, part false. Her daddy nips a little,

Has always done so. Like myself, the bills

Have always deviled him. But just the same

That home was not so bad. Some years ago,

She was a little girl of thirteen maybe,

Her father rented one of my pianos

For Elenor to learn on, and of course

The rent was always back, I didn’t care,

Except for my collectors, and besides

She was so nice. So music hungry, practiced

So hard to learn, I used to let the rent

Run just as long as I could let it run.

And even then I used to feel ashamed

To ask her father for it.

As I said

She was thirteen, and one Thanksgiving day

They asked me there to dinner, and I went,

Brushed off my other coat and shaved myself,

I looked all right, my shoes were polished too.

You’d never think I polished them to look

At these to-day. And now I tell you what

I saw myself: nice linen on the table,

And pretty silver, plated, I suppose;

Good glass-ware, and a dinner that was splendid,

Wine made from wild grapes spiced with cinnamon,

It had a kick, too. And the home was furnished

Like what you’d think: good carpets, chairs, a lounge,

Some pictures on the wall—all good enough.

And this girl was as lively as a cricket,

She was the liveliest thing I ever saw;

And that’s what ailed her, if you want my word.

She had more life than she knew how to use,

And had not learned her own machine.

And after

We had the dinner we came in the parlor.

And then her mother asked her to play something,

And she sat down and played tra-la; tra-la,

One of these waltzes, I remember now

As pretty as these verses in the paper

On love, or something sentimental. Yes,

She played it well. For I had rented them

One of my pets. They asked me then to play

And I tried out some Bach and other things,

And improvised. And Elenor stood by,

And asked what’s that when I was improvising.

I laughed and said, Sonata of Starved Rock,

Or Deer Park Glen in Winter, anything—

She looked at me with eyes as big as that.

Well, as I said, the home was good enough.

Still like myself with these collectors, Elenor

Was bothered, drawn aside, and scratched no doubt

From walking through the briars. Just the same

The trouble with her life, if it was trouble,

And no musician would regard it trouble,

The trouble was her nature strove to be

All fire, and subtilize to the essence of fire,

Which was her nature’s law, and Nature’s law,

The only normal law, as I have found;

For so Canudo says, as I read lately,

Who gave me words for what I knew from life.

Now if you want my theories I go on.

You do? All right. What was this Elenor Murray?

She was the lover, do you understand?

She had her lovers maybe, I don’t know,

That’s not the point with lovers, any more,

Than it’s the point to have pianos—no!

Lovers, pianos are the self-same thing;

Instruments for the soul, the source of fire,

The crucible for flames that turn from red

To blue, then white, then fierce transparencies.

Then if the lover be not known by lovers

How is she known? Why think of Elenor Murray,

Who tries all things and educates herself,

Goes traveling, would sing and play, becomes

A member of a church with ritual, music,

Incense and color, things that steal the senses,

And bring oblivion. Don’t you see the girl

Moving her soul to find her soul, and passing

Through loves and hatreds, seeking everywhere

Herself she loved, in others, agonizing

For hate of father, so they tell me now?

But first because she hated in herself

What lineaments of her father she saw in self.

And all the while, I think, she strove to conquer

This hatred, every hatred, sensing freedom

For her own soul through liberating self

From hatreds. So, you see how someone near,

Repugnant, disesteemed, may furnish strength

And vision, too, by gazing on that one

From day to day, not to be like that one:

And so our hatreds help us, those we hate

Become our saviors.

Here’s the problem now

In finding self, the soul—it’s with ourselves,

Within ourselves throughout the ticklish quest

From first to last, and lovers and pianos

Are instruments of salvation, yet they take

The self but to the self, and say now find,

Explore and know. And then, as all before,

The problem is how much of mind to use,

How much of instinct, phototropic sense,

That turns instinctively to light—green worms

More plant than animal are eyes all over

Because their bodies know the light, no eyes

Where sight is centralized. I’ve found it now:

What is the intellect but eyes, where sight

Is gathered in two spheres? The more they’re used

The darker is the body of the soul.

Now to digress, that’s why the Germans lost,

They used the intellect too much; they took

The sea of life and tried to dam it in,

Or use it for canals or water power,

Or make a card-case system of it, maybe,

To keep collectors off, have all run smoothly,

And make a sure thing of it.

To return

How much did Elenor Murray use her mind,

How much her instincts, leave herself alone

Let nature have its way? I think I know:

But first you have the artist soul; and next

The soul half artist, prisoned usually

In limitations where the soul, half artist

Between depressions and discouragements

Rises in hope and knocks. Why, I can tell them

The moment they touch keys or talk to me.

I hear their knuckles knocking on the walls,

Insuperable partitions made of wood,

When seeking tones or words; they have the hint,

But cannot open, manifest themselves.

So was it with this girl, she was all lover,

Half artist, what a torture for a soul,

And what escape for her! She could not play,

Had never played, no matter what the chance.

I think there is no curse like being dumb

When every waking moment, every dream

Keeps crying to speak out. This is her case:

The girl was dumb, like that dumb woman here

Whose dress caught fire, and in the dining room

Was burned to death while all her family

Were in the house, to whom she could not cry!

You asked about her going to the war,

Her sacrifice in that, and if I think

She found expression there—yes, of a kind,

But not the kind she hungered for, not music.

She found adventure there, excitement too.

That uses up the soul’s power, takes the place

Of better self-expression. But you see

I do not think self-immolation life,

I know it to be death. Now, look a minute:

Why did she join the church? why to forget!

Why did she go to war? why to forget.

And at the last, this thing called sacrifice

Rose up with meaning in her eyes. You see

They tell around here now she often said:

“I’m going to the war to be swept under.”

Now comes your Christian idea: Let me die,

But die in service of the race, in giving

I waste myself for others, give myself!

Let God take notice, and reward the gift!

This is the failure’s recourse often-times,

A prodigal flinging of the self—let God

Find what He can of good, or find all good.

I have abandoned all control, all thought

Of finding my soul otherwise, if here

I find my soul, a doubt that makes the gift

Not less abandoned.

This is foolish talk

I know you think, I think it is myself,

At least in part. I know I’m right, however,

In guessing off the reason of her failure,

If failure it is. But pshaw, why talk of failure

About a woman born to live the life

She lived, which could not have been different,

Much different under any circumstance?

She might have married, had a home and children,

What of it? As it is she makes a story,

A flute sound in our symphony—all right!

And I confess, in spite of all I’ve said,

The profit, the success, may not be known

To any but one’s self. Now look at me,

By all accounts I am a failure—look!

For forty years just making poor ends meet,

My love all spent in making good pianos.

I thrill all over picking spruce and wires,

And putting them together—all my love

Gone into this, no head at all for business.

I keep no books, they cheat me out of rent.

I don’t know how to sell pianos, when

I sell one I have trouble oftentimes

In getting pay for it. But just the same

I sit here with myself, I know myself,

I’ve found myself, and when collectors come

I can say come to-morrow, turn about,

And run the scale, or improvise, and smile,

Forget the world!

————

The three arose and left.

Llewellyn George said: “That’s a rarity,

That man is like a precious flower you find

Way off among the weeds and rocky soil,

Grown from a seed blown out of paradise;

I want to call again.”

So thus they knew

This much of Elenor Murray’s music life.

But on a day a party talk at tea,

Of Elenor Murray and her singing voice

And how she tried to train it—just a riffle

Which passed unknown of Merival. For you know

Your name may come up in a thousand places

At earth’s ends, though you live, and do not die

And make a great sensation for a day.

And all unknown to Merival for good

This talk of Lilli Alm and Ludwig Haibt:

Looking like Raphael’s Perugino, eyes

So slightly, subtly aquiline, as brown

As a buck-eye, amorous, flamed, but lightly dimmed

Through thought of self while sitting for the artist;

A nose well bridged with bone for will, the nostrils

Distended as if sniffing diaphanous fire;

A very bow for lips, the under lip

Rich, kissable like a woman’s; heavy cheeks

Propped with a rounded tower of flesh for neck:

Thus Perugino looked, says Raphael,

And thus looked Father Whimsett at his desk,

With vertical creases, where the nose and brow

Together come, between the eye-brows slanting

Unequally, half clown-wise, half Mephisto,

With just a touch of that abandoned humor,

And laughter at the world, the race of men,

Mephisto had for mischief, which the priest

Has for a sense which looks upon the dream

And smiles, yet pities those who move in it.

And Father Whimsett smokes and reads and smiles.

He soon will hold confessional. For days

he has heard nothing but complaints of lovers,

And searched for nullities, impediments,

Through which to give sore stricken hearts relief:

There was the youth too drunk to know he married

A woman never baptized. Now the youth

Has found another—oh this is the one!

And comes and says: Oh, holy father, help me,

May I be free to marry her I love,

And get the church’s blessing when a court

Dissolves the civil contract? Holy Father,

I knew not what I did, cannot remember

Where I was married, when, my mind’s a blank—

It was the drink, you know.

And so it goes,

The will is eyeless through concupiscence,

And that absolves the soul that’s penitent.

And Father Whimsett reads his Latin books,

Searches for subtleties for faithful souls,

Whereby the faithful souls may have their wish,

Yet keep the gospel, too.

These Latin books

Leave him fatigued, but not fatigued to turn

Plotinus, Xenophon, Boccacio,

Ars Amatoria and Remedia Amoris.

And just this moment Father Whimsett reads

Catullus, killing time, before he hears

Confession, gets the music of Catullus

Along the light that enters at the eye:

Etherial strings plucked by the intellect

To vibrate to the inner ear. At times

He must re-light his half-forgot cigar.

And while the music of the Latin verse,

Which is an echo, as he stops to light

His half-forgot cigar, is wafted through

His meditation, as a tune is heard

After the keys are stayed, it blends, becomes

The soul, interpretation of these stories,

Which lovers tell him in these later days.

And now the clock upon the mantel chimes

The quarter of the hour. Up goes Catullus

By Ovid on the shelf. The dead cigar

Is thrown away. He rises from the chair—

When Father Conway enters, just to visit

Some idle moments, smoke and have a talk.

And Father Whimsett takes his seat again,

Waves Father Conway to a comfort chair,

Says “Have a smoke,” and Father Conway smokes,

And sees Catullus, says you read Catullus,

And lays the morning Times upon the table,

And says to Father Whimsett: “Every day

The Times has stories better than Catullus,

And episodes which Horace would have used.

I wish we had a poet who would take

This city of Chicago, write it up,

The old Chicago, and the new Chicago,

The race track, old cafés and gambling places,

The prize fights, wrestling matches, sporting houses,

As Horace wrote up Rome. Or if we had

A Virgil he would find an epic theme

In this American matter, typical

Of our America, one phase or more

Concerning Elenor Murray. Here to-day

There is a story, of some letters found

In Arthur Fouche’s mansion, under the floor,

Sensational, dramatic.

Father Whimsett

Looked steadily at Father Conway, blew

A funnel of tobacco smoke and said:

I scarcely read the Times these days, too busy—

I’ve had a run of rich confessionals.

The war is ended, but they still come on,

And most are lovers in the coils of love.

I had one yesterday that made me think

Of one I had a year ago last spring,

The point was this: they say forgive me father,

For I have sinned, then as the case proceeds

A greater sin comes forth, I mean the sin

Of saying sin is good, cannot be sin:

I loved the man, or how can love be sin?

Well, as a human soul I see the point,

But have no option, must lay to and say

Acknowledgment, contrition and the promise

To sin no more, is necessary to

Win absolution. Now to show the matter,

Here comes a woman, says I leave for France

To serve, to die. I have a premonition

That I shall die abroad; or if I live,

I have had fears, I shall be taken, wronged,

So driven by this honor to destroy

Myself, goes on and says, I tell you all

These fears of mine that you may search my heart,

More gladly may absolve me. Then she says,

These fears worked in my soul until I took

The step which I confess, before I leave.

I wait and she proceeds:

“O, holy father,

There is a man whom I have loved for years,

These five years past, such hopeless, happy years.

I love him and he loves me, holy father.

He holds me sacred as his wife, he loves me

With the most holy love. It cannot be

That any love like ours is guilty love,

Can have no other quality than good,

If it be love.”

Well, here’s a pretty soul

To sit in the confessional! So I say,

Why do you come to me? Loving your sin,

Confessing it, denying it in one breath,

Leaves you in sin without forgiveness.

Well, then she tacks about and says “I sinned,

And I am sorry. Wait a minute, father,

And see the flesh and spirit mixed again.”

She wants to tell me all, I let her go.

And so she says: “His wife’s an invalid,

Has been no wife to him. Besides,” she says—

Now watch this thrust to pierce my holy shield—

“She is not in the church’s eye his wife,

She never was baptized”—I almost laughed,

But answered her, You think adultery

Is less adultery in a case like this?

“Well, no,” she says, “but could he be divorced

The church would marry us.” Go on, I said,

And then she paused a little and went on:

“I said I loved this man, and it is true,

And years ago I gave myself to him,

And then his wife found out there was a woman—

But not that I was the woman—years ago

At confirmation I confessed it all,

Need only say this time I gave him up,

And crushed him out with work—was chaste for years.

And then I met a man, a different man

Who stirred me otherwise, kept after me.

At last I weakened, sinned three months ago,

And suffered for it. For he took me, left me.

As if he wanted body of me alone,

And was not pleased with that. And after that,

I think that I was mad, a furious passion

Was kindled by this second man, and left

With nothing to employ its flame. Two weeks

Went by, he did not seek me out, none knew

The hour of our departure. Then I thought

How little I had been to this first lover,

And of the years when I denied him—so

To recompense his love, to serve him, father,

Yes, to allay this passion newly raised

By this new lover, whom I thought I loved,

I went to my old lover, free of will,

And took his lips and said to him, O take me,

I am yours to do with as you choose to-night.

He turned as pale as snow and shook with fear,

His heart beat in his throat. I terrified him

With this great will of mine in this small body.

I went on while he stood there by the window,

His back toward me. Make me wholly yours,

Take no precaution, prudence throw away

As mean, unworthy. Let your life precede,

Forestall the intruder’s, if one be. And if

A child must be, yours shall it be.”

“He turned,

And took me in his arms....”

“And so to make

As nearly as might be a marriage, father,

I took—but let me tell you: I had thought

His wife might die at any time, so thinking

During these years I had bought bridal things;

A veil, embroideries, silk lingerie.

And I took to our room my negligee,

Boudoir cap, satin slippers, so to make

All beautiful as we were married, father.

How have I sinned? I cannot deem it wrong.

Do I not soil my soul with penitence,

And smut this loveliness with penitence?

Can I regret my work, nor take a hurt

Upon my very soul? How keep it clean

Confessing what I did (if I thought so)

As evil and unclean?”

The devil again

Entered with casuistry, as you perceive.

And so to make an end, I said to her,

You must bring to this sacrament a heart

Contrite and humble, promise me beside

To sin no more. The case is in your hands,

You can confess with lips, deny with heart,

God only knows, I don’t, it’s on your soul

To speak the truth or lie to me. Confess

And I’ll absolve you.—For in truth my heart

Was touched by what she said, her lovely voice.

But now the story deepened. For she said,

I have not told you all. And she renewed:

“Suppose you pack your trunk and have your lunch,

Go to the station, but no train arrives,

And there you wait and wait, until you’re hungry,

And nothing to do but wait, no place to lunch,

You cannot leave the station, lest the train

Should come while you are gone. Well, so it was,

The weeks went by, and still we were not called.

And I had closed my old life, sat and waited

The time of leaving to begin new life.

And after I had sinned with my first lover,

Parted from him, said farewell, ended it,

Could not go back to him, at least could think

Of no way to return that would not dull

The hour we lived together, look, this man,

This second lover looks me up again

And overwhelms me with a flaming passion.

It seemed he had thought over what I was,

Become all fire for me. He came to me,

And said, I love you, love you, looked at me,

And I could see the love-light in his eyes,

The light that woman knows. Well, I was weak,

Lonely and bored. He stirred my love besides;

And then a curious thought came in my brain:

The spirit is not found save through the flesh,

O holy father, and I thought to self,

Bring, as you may, these trials close together

In point of time and see where spirit is,

Where flesh directs to spirit most. And so

I went with him again, and found in truth

I loved him, he was mine and I was his,

We two were for each other, my old lover

Was just my love’s beginning, not my love

Fully and wholly, rapturously, this man

Body and spirit harmonized with me.

I found him through the love of my old lover,

And knew by contrast, memory of the two

And this immediate comparison

Of spirits and of bodies, that this man

Who left me, whom I turned from to the first,

As I have tried to tell you, was the one.

O holy father, he is married, too.

And as I leave for France this ends as well;

No child in me from either. I confess

That I have sinned most grievously, I repent

And promise I shall sin no more.”

And so,

I gave her absolution. Well, you see

The church was dark, but I knew who it was,

I knew the voice. She left. Another penitent

Entered with a story. What is this?

Here is a woman who’s promiscuous.

Tried number one and then tries number two,

And comes and tells me, she has taken proof,

Weighed evidence of spirit and of body,

And thinks she knows at last, affirms as much.

Such conduct will not do, that’s plain enough,

Not even if the truth of love is known

This way, no other way.

Then Father Conway

Began as follows: “I’ve a case like that,

A woman married, but she found her husband

Was just the cup of Tantulus and so....”

But Father Whimsett said, “Why, look at that,

I’m over-due a quarter of an hour.

Come in to-morrow, father, tell me then.”

The two priests rose and left the room together.

Carl Eaton and John Campbell both were raised

With Elenor Murray in LeRoy. The mother

Of Eaton lived there; but these boys had gone,

Now grown to manhood to Chicago, where

They kept the old days of companionship.

And Mrs. Eaton saw the coroner,

And told him how she saved her son from Elenor,

And broke their troth—because upon a time

Elenor Murray, though betrothed, to Carl

Went riding with John Campbell, and returned

At two o’clock in the morning, drunk, and stood

Helpless and weary, holding to the gate.

For which she broke the engagement of her son

To Elenor Murray. That was truth to her,

And truth to Merival, for the time, at least.

But this John Campbell and Carl Eaton meet

One evening at a table drinking beer,

And talk about the inquest, Elenor;

Since much is published in the Times to stir

Their memories of her. And John speaks up:

“Well, Carl, now Elenor Murray is no more,

And we are friends so long, I’d like to know

What do you think of her?”

“About the time,

That May before she finished High School, Elenor

Broke loose, ran wild, do you remember, Carl?

She had some trouble in her home, I heard—

She told me so. That Alma Bell affair

Made all the fellows wonder, as you know,

What kind of game she was, if she was game

For me, or you, or anyone. Besides

She had flirting eye, a winning laugh,

And she was eighteen, and a cherry ripe.

This Alma Bell affair and ills at home

Made her spurt up and dart out like a fuse

Which burns to powder wet and powder heated

Until it burns; she burned, you see, and stopped

When principles or something quenched the flame.

I walked with her from school a time or two,

When she was hinting, flirting with her eyes,

I know it now, but what a dunce I was,

As most men when they’re twenty.”

“Well, now listen!

A little later on an evening,

I see her buggy riding with Roy Green,

That rake, do you remember him, deadbeat,

Half drunkard then, corrupted piece of flesh?

She sat up in defiance by his side,

Her chin stuck out to tell the staring ones:

Go talk or censure to your heart’s content.

And people stood and stared to see her pass

And shook their heads and wondered.”

“Afterward

I learned from her this was the night at home

Her father and her mother had a quarrel.

Her mother asked her father to buy Elenor

A new dress for commencement, and the father

Was drinking and rebuffed her, so they quarreled.

And rode with him to shame her father, coming

After a long ride in the country home

At ten o’clock or so.”

“Well, then I thought,

If she will ride with Roy Green, I go back

To hinting and to flirting eyes and guess

The girl will ride with me, or something more.

So I begin to circle round the girl,

And walk with her, and take her riding too.

She drops Roy Green for me—what does he care?

He’s had enough of her or never cared—

Which is it? there’s the secret for a man

As long as women interest him—who knows

What the precedent fellow was to her?

Roy Green takes to another and another.

He died a year ago, as you’ll remember,

What were his secrets, agony? he seemed

A man to me who lived and never thought.”

“So Elenor Murray went with me. Oh, well,

She gave me kisses, let me hold her tight,

We used to stop along the country ways

And kiss as long as we had breath to kiss,

And she would gasp and tremble.”

“Then, at last

A chum I had began to laugh at me,

For, I was now in love with Elenor Murray.

Don’t let her make a fool of you, he said,

No girl who ever traveled with Roy Green

Was not what he desired her, nor, before

The kind of girl he wanted. Don’t you know

Roy Green is laughing at you in his sleeve,

And boasts that Elenor Murray was all his?

You see that stung me, for I thought at twenty

Girls do not go so far, that only women

Who sell themselves do so, or now and then

A girl who is betrayed by hopes of marriage.

And here was thrust upon me something devilish:

The fair girl that I loved was wise already,

And fooling me, and drinking in my love

In mockery of me. This was my first

Heart sickness, jaundice of the soul—dear me!

And how I suffered, lay awake of nights,

And wondered, doubted, hoped, or cursed myself,

And cursed the girl as well. And I would think

Of flirting eyes and hints and how she came

To me before she went with this Roy Green.

And I would hear the older men give hints

About their conquests, speak of ways and signs

From which to tell a woman. On the train

Hear drummers boast and drop apothogems;

The woman who drinks with you will be yours;

Or she who gives herself to you will give

To someone else; you know the kind of talk?

Where wisdom of the sort is averaged up,

But misses finer instances, the beauties

Among the million phases of the thing.

And, so at last I thought the girl was game.

And had been snared, already. Why should I

Be just a cooing dove, why not a hawk?

We were out riding on a summer’s night,

A moon and all the rest, the scent of flowers,

And many kisses, as on other times.

At last with this sole object in my mind

Long concentrated, purposed, all at once

I found myself turned violent, with hands

At grapple, twisting, forcing, and this girl

In terror pleading with me. In a moment

When I took time for breath, she said to me:

‘I will not ride with you—you let me out.’

To which I said: ‘You’ll do what I desire

Or you can walk ten miles back to LeRoy,

And find Roy Green, you like him better, maybe.’

And she said: ‘Let me out,’ and she jumped out,

And would not ride with me another step,

Though I repented saying, come and ride.

I think it was a mile or more I drove

The horse slowed up to keep her company,

And then I cracked the whip and hurried on,

And left her walking, looked from time to time

To see her in the roadway, then drove on

And reached LeRoy, which Elenor reached that morning

At one or two.”

“Well, then what was the riddle?

Was she in love with Roy Green yet, was she

But playing with me, was I crude, left handed,

Had she changed over, was she trying me

To fasten in the hook of matrimony,

Or was she good, and all this corner talk

Of Roy Green just the dirt of dirty minds?

You know the speculations, and you know

How they befuddle one at twenty years.

And sometimes I would grieve for what I did;

Then harden and laugh down my softness. But

At last I wrote a note to Elenor Murray

And sent it with a bouquet—but no word

Came back from Elenor Murray. Then I thought:

Here is a girl who rides with that Roy Green

And what would he be with her for, I ask?

And if she wants to make a cause of war

Out of an attitude she half provoked,

Why let her—and moreover let her go.

And so I dropped the matter, since she dropped

My friendship from that night.”

“But later on,

Two years ago, when she came back to town

From somewhere, I don’t know, gone many months,

Grown prettier, more desirable, I sent

Some roses to her in a tender mood

As if to say: We’re grown up since that night,

Have you forgotten it, as I remember

How womanly you were, have grown to be?

She wrote me just a little note of thanks,

And what is strange that very day I learned

About your interest in her, learned besides

It prospered for some months before. I turned

My heart away for good, as a man might

Who plunges and beholds the woman smile

And take another’s arm and walk away.”

“So, that’s your story, is it?” said Carl Eaton.

“Well, I had married her except for you!

That bunch of roses spoiled the girl for me.

You had Roy Green, dog-fennel, I had roses,

And I am glad you sent them, otherwise

I might have married her, to find at last

A wife just like her mother is, myself

Living her father’s life, for something missed

Or hated in me—not the want of money.

She liked me as the banker’s son, be sure,

And let me go unwillingly.”

“But listen:

I called on her the night you sent the roses,

And there she had them on the center table,

And twinkled with her eyes, and spoke of them,

And said, I can remember it, you sent

Such lovely roses to her, you and she

Had been good friends for years—and now it seems

You were not friends—I didn’t know it then.

But think about it, John! What was this woman?

It’s clear her fate, found dead there by the river,

Is just the outward mirror of herself,

And had to be. There’s not a thing in life

That is not first enacted in the heart.

Our fate is the reflection of the life

Which goes on in the heart. That girl was doomed,

Lived in her heart a life that found a birth,

Grew up, committed matricide at last,

Not that my love had saved her. But explain

Why would she over-stress the roses, give

Me understandings foreign to the truth?

For truth to tell, we were affianced then,

There were your roses! But above it all

Something she said pricked like a rose’s thorn,

Something that grew to thought she cherished you,

Kept memories sweet of you. If that were true,

What was the past? What was I after all?

A second choice, as if I bought a car,

But thought about a car I wanted more.

So I retired that night in serious thought.”

“Yet if you’ll credit me, I had not heard

About this Alma Bell affair, or heard

About her riding through the public streets

With this Roy Green. I think I was away,

I never heard it anyway, I know

Until my mother told me, and she told me

Next morning after I had found your roses.

I hadn’t told my mother, nor a soul

Before, that time that we two were engaged—

I didn’t tell her then—I merely asked

Would Elenor Murray please you as a daughter?

You should have seen my mother—how she gasped,

And gestured losing breath, to say at last:

‘Why, Carl, my boy, what are you thinking of?

You have not promised marriage to that girl?

Now tell me, have you?’ Then I lied to her;

And laughed a little, answered no, and asked,

‘What do you know about her?’”

“Here’s a joke,

With terror in it, John, if you have told

The truth to me—my mother tells me there

That on a time John Campbell—that is you,

And Elenor Murray rode into the country,

And that at two o’clock, or so, the girl

Is seen beside the gate post holding on,

And reeling up the side-walk to her door.

The girl was tired, if you have told the truth.

My mother warms up to this scoundrel Green,

And tops the matter off with Alma Bell.

And all the love I had for Elenor Murray

Sours in my heart. And then I tell my mother

The truth—of our engagement—promise her

To break it off. I did so on that day.

Got back the solitaire—but Elenor

Hung to me, asked my reasons, kept the ring

Until I wrote so sternly she gave up

Her hope and me.”

“But worst of all, John Campbell—

If this be worst—this early episode

So nipped my leaves and browned and curled them up

To whisper sharply with their bitter edges,

No one has seen a bridal wreath in me;

Nor have I ever known a woman since

That some analysis did not blow cool

A rising admiration.”

“Now to think

This girl lies dead, and while we drink a beer

You tell me that the story is a lie,

The girl was good, walked ten miles through the dark

To save her honor from a ruffian—

That’s what you were, as you confess it now.

And if she did that, what is all this talk

Of such a rat as Green, of Alma Bell?—

It isn’t true.”

“The only truth is this:

I took a lasting poison from a lie,

Which built the very cells of me to resist

The thought of marriage—poison which remains.

I wonder should I tell the coroner?

No good in that—you might as well describe

A cancer to prevent the malady

In people yet to be. Let’s have a beer.

John Campbell said: I learned from Elenor Murray

The kind of woman I should take to wife,

I married just the woman made for me.”

“If you can say so on your death bed, John,

Then Elenor Murray did one man a good,

Whatever ill she did to other men.

See, I keep rapping for that waiter—I

Would like another beer, and so would you.”

————

So now it’s clear the story is not true

Which Mrs. Eaton told the coroner.

And when the coroner told the jurymen

What Mrs. Eaton told him, Winthrop Marion

Skilled in the work of running down a tale

Said: “I can look up Eaton, Campbell too,

And verify or contradict this thing.

We have departed far afield in this,

It has no bearing on the cause of death.

But none of us have liked to see, the girl’s

Good name, integrity of spirit lie

In shadow by this story.” Merival

Was glad to have these two men interviewed

By Winthrop Marion; so he found them, talked,

And brought their stories back, as told above

Which made the soul of Elenor Murray clear....

————

Paul Roberts was a man of sixty years,

Who lived and ran a magazine at LeRoy.

The Dawn he called it; financed by a fund

Left Roberts by a millionaire, who believed

The fund would widen knowledge through the use

Of Roberts, student of the Eastern wisdom.

This Roberts loathed the war, but kept his peace

Because the law compelled it. Took this time

To fight the Christian faith, and show the age

Submerged in Christian ethics, weak and false.

He knew this Elenor Murray from a child,

And knew her rearing, schooling, knew the air

She breathed in at LeRoy. And in The Dawn

Printed this essay:—

“We have seen,” he writes,

“Astonishing revealments, inventories

Taken of souls, all coming from the death

Of Elenor Murray, and the inquest held

To ascertain her death. Perhaps fantastic

This thing may be, but scarcely more fantastic

Than rubbing amber, watching frogs’ legs twitch,

From which the light of cities came, the power

That hauls the coaches over mountain tops.

We would do well to laugh at nothing, watch

With interested eye the capering souls

Too moved to walk straight. If a wire grounds

And interpenetrates the granite blocks

With viewless fire, horses shod with steel,

Walking along the granite blocks will leap

Like mad things in the air. Well, so we leap

Before we know the cause. Let sound minds laugh.

First you agree no man has looked on God;

And I contend the souls who found God, told

Too little of their triumph. But I hold

Man shall find God and know, shall see at last

What man’s soul is, and where it tends, the use

It was made for. And after that? Forever

There’s progress while there’s life, all devolution

Returns to progress.

As to worship, God

They had their amber days, days of frogs’ legs.

And yet before I trace the Christian growth

From seed to blossom, let me prophesy:

The light upon the lotus blossom pauses,

Has paused these centuries and waits to move

Westward and mingle with the light that shines

Upon the Occident. What did Christ do

But carry the Hebraic thrift and prudence

Of matter and of spirit, half-corrupted

By wisdom of the market to these races

That crowd in Europe, in the Western World?

Now you have seen such things as chemistry,

And mongering in steel, the use of fire

Made perfect in swift wheels, and swifter wings,

Until the realm of matter seems subdued,

Thought with her foot upon the dragon’s head,

And using him to serve. This western world

Massing its powers these centuries to bring

Comfort and happiness and length of days,

And pushing commerce, trade to pile up gold,

Knows not its soul as yet, nor God. But here

I prophesy: Suppose the Hindu lore,

Which has gone farther with the soul of man

Than we have gone with business, has card cased

The soul’s addresses, introduced a system

In the soul’s business, just suppose this lore

And great perfection in things spiritual

Should by some process wed the great perfection

Of this our western world, and we should have

Mastery of spirit and of matter, too?

Might not that progress start as one result

Of this great war?

Let’s see from whence we came.

I take the Hebrew faith, the very frog legs

Of our theology—no use to say

It has no place with us. Your ministers

Preach from the Pentateuch, its decalogue

Is all our ethic nearly; and our life

Is suckled by the Hebrews; don’t the Jews

Control our business, while our business rules

Our spirits far too much?

Now let us see

What food our spirits feed on. Palestine

Is just a little country, fights for life

Against a greater prowess, skill in arms.

So as the will does not give up, but hopes

For vengeance and for wiping out of wrongs

The Jews conceive a God who will dry up

His people’s tears and let them laugh again!

Hence in Jehovah’s mouth they put these words:

My word shall stand forever, you shall eat

The riches of the Gentiles, suck their milk.

Your ploughman shall the alien be, the stranger

Shall feed your flock, and I will make you fat

With milk and honey. I will give you power,

Dominion, leadership, glory forever.

My wrath is on all nations to avenge

Israel’s sorrow and humiliation.

My sword is bathed in heaven, filled with blood

To come upon Idumea, to stretch out

Upon it stones of emptiness, confusion.

Her fortresses shall be the habitation

Of dragons and a court for owls. I smite

The proud Assyrian and make them dead.

In fury, and in anger do I tread

On Zion’s enemies, their worm shall die not,

Nor shall their fire be quenched. I shall stir up

Jealousy like a man of war, put on

The garments of my vengeance, and repay

To adversaries fury. For my word

Shall stand to preach good tidings to the meek,

And liberty to captives, and to chains

The opening of prisons.

Don’t you see

Our western culture in such words as these?

Your proselytes, and business man, reformer

Nourished upon them, using them in life?

But then you say Christ came with final truth,

And put away Jehovah. Let us see.

What shall become of those who turn from Christ,

Not that their souls failed, only that they turned,

Did not believe, accept, found in him little

To live by, grow by? This is what Christ said:

Ye vipers in the last day ye shall see

The sun turned dark, the moon made blood. Behold!

I come in clouds of glory and of power

To judge the quick and judge the dead. Mine own

Shall enter into blessedness. But to those

Evil who scorned me, I shall say, depart

Accursed into everlasting fire.

And quick the gates of heaven shall be shut,

And I shall reign in heaven with mine own

And let my fire of wrath consume the world.

But then you say, what of his love and doctrine?

Not the old decalogue by him renewed,

But new wine to the Jews, if not in the world

Unknown before. Look close and you shall see

A book of double entries, balanced columns,

Business in matters spiritual, prudential

Rules for life’s conduct. Yes, be merciful

But to obtain your mercy; yes, forgive

That you may be forgiven; honor your parents

That your days may be long. Blest are the meek

For they shall inherit the earth. Rejoice, for great

Is your reward in heaven if they say

All manner of evil of you, persecute you.

Do you not see the rule of compensation

Shot through it all? And if you love your neighbor,

And all men do so, then you have the state

Composed to such a level of peace, no man

Need fear the breaker in, unless you keep

This mood of love for preaching, for a rule

While business in the Occident goes on

Under Jehovah’s Hebrew manual.

What is it all? The meek inherit the earth

For being meek; you turn the other cheek

And fill your enemy with shame to strike

A cheek that does not harden to return

The blow received. But too much in our life

The cheek is turned, the hand not made a fist,

But opened out to pick a pocket with,

While the other cheek is turned. Now, at the last

Has not this war put by resist not evil?

Which was the way of Jesus to the end,

Even to buffetings and the crown of thorns;

Even the cross and death?—we put it by:

We would not let protagonists thereof

So much as hint the doctrine, which is to say,

Though it be written over Jesus’ life,

And be his spirit’s essence, we see through

The fallacy of that preachment, cannot live

In this world by it.

Well, let me be plain.

Races like men find truth in living life,

Find thereby what is food and what is poison.

These are the phylogenetics spiritual.

But meanwhile there’s the light upon the lotus

Which waits to mingle with the light that shines

Upon the Occident, take Jesus’ light

Where it is bright enough to mix with it

And show no duller splendor?

I look back

Upon the Jew and Jesus, on the Thora

The gospel, dogmatism, poetry,

The Messianic hope and will and grace,

Jesus the Son of God, and one with God.

The outer theocracy, the Kingdom of God within you,

St. Paul with metaphysics, St. Augustine

Babbling of sin in Cicero’s rhetoric,

The popes with their intrigues and millions slain

O ghastly waste, if not O ghastly failure,

Beside which all the tragedies of time

To set up doctrines, rulerships, and say:

Are not a finger scratched. O monstrous hate

Born of enfolding love! O martyrdom

Of our poor world for ages, incurable madness

Bred in the blood, and mixed in the forms of thought,

Still maddening, maiming, crucifying, killing

The fast appearing sons of men. Go ask

What man you will who has lived up to forty

And see if you find not the Christian creed

Has not in some way gyved his life and bolted

Body or spirit to a wall, to make

The man live not by nature, but a doctrine

Evolved from thought that disregards man’s life.

But oh this hunger of the mind for answers

And hunger of the heart for life, the heart

Thrown to the dogs of thought. What shall we do?

I see a way, have hope.

The blessed Lord

Says, ye deluded by unwisdom say:

This day is won, this purpose gained, this wealth

Made mine, to-morrow safe—behold

My enemy is slain, I am well-born—

O ye deluded ones, slaves of desire,

Self-satisfied and stubborn, filled with pride,

Power, lust and wrath—haters of me, the gate

Of hell is triple, bitter is the womb

In which ye sink deluded, birth on birth,

These not renouncing. But O soul attend,

Yield not to impotence, shake off your fears,

Be steadfast, balanced, free from hate and anger,

Balanced in pleasure and pain, and active,

Yet disregarding action’s fruits—be friendly,

Compassionate, forgiving, self-controlled,

Resolute, not shrinking from the world,

But mixing in its toils as fate may say;

Pure, expert, passionless, desire in leash,

Renouncing good and evil, to friend and foe,

In fame and ignominy destitute

Of that attachment which disturbs the vision

And labor of the soul. By these to fix

Eyes undistracted on me, the supreme

And Sole Reality. And O remember

Thou soul, thou shalt not sin who workest through

Thy Karma as its nature may command.

Strive with thy sin and it shall make the muscles,

And strength to take thee to another height.

But cleave to the practice of thy soul forever,

Also to wisdom better still than practice,

To meditation, better still than wisdom,

To renunciation, better than meditation,

Beholding Me in all things, in all things

Me who would have you peace of soul attain,

And soul’s perfection.

Well, I say here lies

Profounder truth and purer than the words

That Jesus spoke. Let’s take forgiveness:

Forgive your enemies, he said, and bless

Them even that hate you. What did Jesus do?

Did he forgive the thief upon the cross,

Who railed at him? He did forgive the hands

Who crucified him, but he had a reason:

They knew not what they did; well, as for that

Who knows the thing he does? Did he forgive

Judas Iscariot? Did he forgive

Poor Peter by specific words? You see

In instances like these the idealist,

Passionate and inexorable who sets up

His soul against the world, but do you see

The esoteric wisdom which takes note

Of the soul’s health, just for the sake of health,

And leaves the outward recompense alone?

Yes, what has Jesus done but make a realm

Of outward law and force to strain and bind

The sons of men to this thing and to that,

Bring the fanatic and the dogmatist

In every neighborhood in America.

And radical with axes after trees,

And clergymen with curses on the fig trees?

And even bring this Kaiser and his dream

Of God’s will in him to destroy his foes,

And launch the war therefor, to make his realm

And Christian culture paramount in time.

When all the while ’tis clear life does not yield

Proof positive of exoteric things.

Why the great truth of life is this, I think:

The soul has freedom to create its world

Of beauty, truth, to make the world as truth

Or beauty, build philosophies, religions,

And live by them, through them. It does not matter

Whether they’re true, the significant thing is this:

The soul has freedom to create, to take

The void of unintelligible air, or thought

The world at large, and of it make the food,

Impulse and meaning for its life. I say

Life is for nothing else, truth is not ours;

That only ours which we create, by which

We live and grow, and so we come again

By this path of my own to India.

What shall we do, you ask, if business dies,

If the western world, the world for socialism

Lops off its leaves and branches, and the sap

Is thrown back in the trunk unused, or if

This light upon the lotus quiets us

And makes us mind entirely? Well, I say,

Men have not lived, enjoyed enough before.

Our strength has gone to get the means for strength.

We roll the rock of business up, and see

The rock roll down, and roll it up again.

And if the new day does not give us work

In finding what our minds are, how to use them,

And how to live more beautifully, I miss

A guess I often make.

But now to close:

Only the blind have failed to see how truly

This Elenor Murray worked her Karma out.

And how she put forth strength to cure her weakness,

And went her vital way, and toiled and died.

Peace to all worlds, and peace to Elenor Murray.

————

The coroner had heard that Elenor Murray

Once crossed the Arctic Circle. What of that?

She traveled, it was proved. What happened there?

What hunter after secrets could find out?

But on a day the name of Elenor Murray

Is handled by two men who sit and talk

In Fairbanks, and the talk is in these words:

Bill, look here! Here’s the Times. You see this picture,

Read if you like a little later. You never

Heard how I came to Fairbanks, chanced to stay.

It’s eight years now. You see in nineteen eleven

I lived in Hammond, Indiana, thought

I’d like a trip, see mountains, see Alaska,

Perhaps find fortune or a woman—well

You know from your experience how it is.

It was July and from the train I saw

The Canadian Rockies, stopped at Banff a day,

At Lake Louise, and so forth. At Vancouver

Found travelers feasting, Englishmen in drink,

Flirtations budding, coming into flower;

And eager spirits waiting for the boat.

Up to this time I hadn’t made a friend,

Stalked silently about along the streets,

Drank Scotch like all the rest, as much besides.

Well, then we took the steamship Princess Alice

And started up the Inland Channel—great!

Got on our cheeks the breezes from the crystal

Cradles of the north, began at once

To find the mystery, silence, see clear stars,

The whites and blacks and greens along the shores.

And still I had no friend, was quite alone.

Just as I came on deck I saw a face,

Looked, stared perhaps. Her eyes went over me,

Would not look at me. At the dinner table

She sat far down from me, I could not see her,

But made a point to rise when she arose,

Did all I could to catch her eye—no use.

So things went and I gave up—still I wondered

Why she had no companion. Was she married?

Was husband waiting her, at Skagway?—well

I fancied something of the sort, at last,

And as I said, gave up.

But on a morning

I rose to see the sun rise, all the sky

First as a giant pansy, petals flung

In violet toward the zenith streaked with fire;

The silver of the snows change under light,

Mottled with shadows of the mountain tops

Like leaves that shadow, flutter on a lawn.

At last the topaz splendors shoot to heaven,

The sun just peeks and gilds the porcelain

Of snow with purest gold. And in the valleys

Darkness remains, Orician ebony

Is not more black. You’ve seen this too, I know,

And recognize my picture. There I stood,

Believed I was alone, then heard a voice,

“Is it not beautiful?” and looked around,

And saw my girl, who had avoided me,

Would not make friends before. This is her picture,

Name, Elenor Murray. So the matter started.

I had my seat at table changed and sat

Next to my girl to talk with her. We walked

The deck together. Then she said to me

Her home was in Chicago, so it is

Travelers abroad discover they are neighbors

When they are home. She had been teaching school,

And saved her money for this trip, had planned

To go as far as Fairbanks. As for me,

I thought I’d stop with Skagway—Oh this life!

Your hat blows off, you chase it, bump a woman,

Then beg her pardon, laugh and get acquainted,

And marry later.

As we steamed along

She was the happiest spirit on the deck.

The Wrangell Narrows almost drove her wild,

There where the mountains are like circus tents,

Big show, menagerie and all the rest,

But white as cotton with perennial snow.

We swum past aisles of pine trees where a stream

Rushed down in terraces of hoary foam.

The nights were glorious. We drank and ate

And danced when there was dancing.

Well, at first,

She seemed a little school ma’am, quaint, demure,

Meticulous and puritanical.

And then she seemed a school ma’am out to have

A time, so far away, where none would know,

And like a woman who had heard of life

And had a teasing interest in its wonder,

Too long caged up. At last my vision blurred:

I did not know her, lost my first impressions

Amid succeeding phases which she showed.

But when we came to Skagway, then I saw

Another Elenor Murray. How she danced

And tripped from place to place—such energy!

She almost wore me out with seeing sights.

But now behold! The White Pass she must see

Upon the principle of missing nothing—

But oh the grave of “Soapy” Smith, the outlaw,

The gambler and the heeler, that for her!

We went four miles and found the cemetery,

The grave of “Soapy” Smith.—Came back to town

Where she would see the buildings where they played

Stud poker, Keno, in the riotous days.

Time came for her to go. She looked at me

And said “Come on to Fairbanks.” As for that,

I’d had enough, was ready to return,

But sensed an honorarium, so I said,

“You might induce me,” with a pregnant tone.

That moment we were walking ’cross the street,

She stopped a moment, shook from head to heels,

And said, “No man has talked to me that way.”

I dropped the matter. She renewed it—said,

“Why do you hurry back? What calls you back?

Come on to Fairbanks, see the gardens there,

That tag the blizzards with their rosy hands

And romp amid the snows.” She smiled at me.

Well, then I thought—why not? And smiled her back,

And on we went to Fairbanks, where my hat

Blows off, as I shall tell you.

For a day

We did the town together, and that night

I thought to win her. First we dined together,

Had many drinks, my little school ma’am drank

Of everything I ordered, had a place

For more than I could drink. And truth to tell

At bed time I was woozy, ten o’clock.

We had not registered. And so I said,

“I’m Mr. Kelly and you’re Mrs. Kelly.”

She shook her head. And so to make an end

I could not win her, signed my name in full;

She did the same, we said good night and parted.

Next morning when I woke, felt none too good,

Got up at last and met her down at breakfast;

Tried eggs and toast, could only drink some coffee;

Got worse; in short, she saw it, put her hand

Upon my head and said, “Your head is hot,

You have a fever.” Well, I lolled around

And tried to fight it off till noon—no good.

By this time I was sick, lay down to rest.

By night I could not lift my head—in short,

I lay there for a month, and all the time

She cared for me just like a mother would.

They moved me to a suite, she took the room

That opened into mine, by night and day

She nursed me, cheered me, read to me. At last

When I sat up, was soon to be about,

She said to me, “I’m going on to Nome,

St. Michael first. They tell me that you cross

The Arctic Circle going to St. Michael,

And I must cross the Arctic Circle—think

To come this far and miss it. I must see

The Indian villages.” And there again

I saw, but clearer than before, the spirit

Adventuresome and restless, what you call

The heart American. I said to her,

“I’m not too well, I’m lonely,—yes, and more—

I’m fond of you, you have been good to me,

Stay with me here.—She darted in and out

The room where I was lying, doing things,

And broke my pleadings just like icicles

You shoot against a wall.

But here she was,

A month in Fairbanks, living at expense,

Said “I am short of money—lend me some,

I’ll go to Nome, return to you and then

We’ll ship together for the States.”

You see

I really owed her money for her care,

Her loss in staying—then I loved the girl,

Had played all cards but one—I played it now:

“Come back and marry me.” Her eyes looked down.

“I will be fair with you,” she said, “and think.

Away from you I can make up my mind

If I have love enough to marry you.”

I gave her money and she went away,

And for some weeks I had a splendid hell

Of loneliness and longing, you might know,

A stranger in Alaska, here in Fairbanks,

In love besides, and mulling in my mind

Our days and nights upon the steamer Alice,

Our ramblings in the Northland.

Weeks went by,

No letter and no girl. I found my health

Was vigorous again. One morning walking

I kicked a twenty dollar gold piece up

Right on the side-walk. Picked it up and said:

“An omen of good luck, a letter soon!

Perhaps this town has something for me!” Well,

I thought I’d get a job to pass the time

While waiting for my girl. I got the job

And here I am to-day; I’ve flourished here,

Worked to the top in Fairbanks in eight years,

And thus my hat blew off.

What of the girl?

Six weeks or more a letter came from her,

She crossed the Arctic Circle, went to Nome,

Sailed back to ’Frisco where she wrote to me.

Sent all the money back I loaned to her,

And thanked me for the honor I had done her

In asking her in marriage, but had thought

The matter over, could not marry me,

Thought in the circumstances it was useless

To come to Fairbanks, see me, tell me so.

Now, Bill, I’m egotist enough to think

This girl could do no better. Now it seems

She’s dead and never married—why not me?

Why did she ditch me? So I thought about it,

Was piqued of course, concluded in the end

There was another man. A woman’s no

Means she has someone else, expects to have,

More suited to her fancy. Then one morning

As I awoke with thoughts of her as usual

Right in my mind there plumped an incident

On shipboard when she asked me if I knew

A certain man in Chicago. At the time

The question passed amid our running talk,

And made no memory. But you watch and see

A woman when she asks you if you know

A certain man, the chances are the man

Is something in her life. So now I lay

And thought there is a man, and that’s the man;

His name is stored away, I’ll dig it up

Out of the cells subliminal—so I thought

But could not bring it back.

I found at last

The telephone directory of Chicago,

And searched and searched the names from A to Z.

Some mornings would pronounce a name and think

That is the name, then throw the name away—

It did not fit the echo in my brain.

But now at last—look here! Eight years are gone,

I’m healed of Elenor Murray, married too;

And read about her death here in the Times,

And turn the pages over—column five—

Chicago startled by a suicide—

Gregory Wenner kills himself—behold

The name, at last, she spoke!

————

So much for waters in Alaska. Now

Turn eyes upon the waters nearer home.

Anton Sosnowski has a fateful day

And Winthrop Marion runs the story down,

And learns Sosnowski read the Times the day,

He broke from brooding to a dreadful deed;

Sosnowski saw the face of Elenor Murray

And Rufus Fox upon the self-same page,

And afterwards was known to show a clipping

Concerning Elenor Murray and the banner

Of Joan of Arc, the words she wrote and folded

Within the banner: to be brave, nor flinch.

Anton Sosnowski, from the Shakspeare School

Where he assists the janitor, sweeps and dusts,

The day now done, sits by a smeared up table

Munching coarse bread and drinking beer; before him

The evening paper spread, held down or turned

By claw-like hands, covered with shiny scars.

He broods upon the war news, and his fate

Which keeps him from the war, looks up and sees

His scarred face in the mirror over the wainscot;

His lashless eyes and browless brows and head

With patches of thin hair. And then he mutters

Hot curses to himself and turns the paper

And curses Germany, and asks revenge

For Poland’s wrongs.

And what is this he sees?

The picture of his ruin and his hate,

Wert Rufus Fox! This leader of the bar

Is made the counselor of the city, now

The city takes gas, cars and telephones

And runs them for the people. So this man

Grown rich through machinations against the people,

Who fought the people all his life before,

Abettor, aider, thinker for the slickers

Regraters and forestallers and engrossers,

Is now the friend, adviser of the city,

Which he so balked and thwarted, growing rich,

Feared, noted, bowed to for the very treason

For which he is so hated, yet deferred to.

And Anton looks upon the picture, reads

About the great man’s ancestry here printed,

And all the great achievements of his life;

Once president of the bar association,

And member of this club and of that club.

Contributor to charities and art,

A founder of a library, a vestryman.

And Anton looks upon the picture, trembles

Before the picture’s eyes. They are the eyes

Of Innocent the Tenth, with cruelty

And cunning added—eyes that see all things

And boulder jaws that crush all things—the jaws

That place themselves at front of drifts, are placed

By that world irony which mocks the good,

And gives the glory and the victory

To strength and greed.

Anton Sosnowski looks

Long at the picture, then at his own hands,

And laughs maniacally as he takes the mug

With both hands like a bird with frozen claws,

These broken, burned off hands which handle bread

As they were wooden rakes. And in a mirror

Beside the table in the wall, smeared over

With steam from red-hots, kraut and cookery,

Of smoking fats, fixed by the dust in blurs,

And streaks, he sees his own face, horrible

For scars and splotches as of leprosy;

The eyes that have no lashes and no brows;

The bullet head that has no hair, the ears

Burnt off at top.

So comes it to this Pole

Who sees beside the picture of the lawyer

The clear cut face of Elenor Murray—yes,

She gave her spirit to the war, is dead,

Her life is being sifted now. But Fox

Lives for more honors, and by honors covers

His days of evil.

Thus Sosnowski broods,

And lives again that moment of hell when fire

Burst like a geyser from a vat where gas

Had gathered in his ignorance; being sent

To light a drying stove within the vat,

A work not his, who was the engineer.

The gas exploded as he struck the match,

And like an insect fixed upon a pin

And held before a flame, hands, face and body

Were burned and broken as his body shot

Up and against the brewery wall. What next?

The wearisome and tangled ways of courts

With Rufus Fox for foe, four trials in all

Where juries disagreed who heard the law

Erroneously given by the court.

At last a verdict favorable, and a court

Sitting above the forum where he won

To say, as there’s no evidence to show

Just how the gas got in the vat, Sosnowski

Must go for life with broken hands unhelped.

And that the fact alone of gas therein

Though naught to show his fault had brought it there,

The mere explosion did not speak a fault

Against the brewery.

Out from court he went

To use a broom with crumpled hands, and look

For life in mirrors at his ghastly face.

And brood until suspicion grew to truth

That Rufus Fox had compassed juries, courts;

And read of Rufus Fox, who day by day

Was featured in the press for noble deeds,

For Art or Charity, for notable dinners,

Guests, travels and what not.

So now the Pole

Reading of Elenor Murray, cursed himself

That he could brood and wait—for what?—and grow

More weak of will for brooding, while this woman

Had gone to war and served and ended it,

Yet he lived on, and could not go to war;

Saw only days of sweeping with these hands,

And every day his face within the mirror,

And every afternoon this glass of beer,

And coarse bread, and these thoughts.

And every day some story to arouse

His sense of justice; how the generous

Give and pass on, and how the selfish live

And gather honors. But Sosnowski thought

If I could do a flaming thing to show

What courts are ours, what matter if I die?

What if they took their quick-lime and erased

My flesh and bones, expunged my very name,

And made its syllables forbidden?—still

If I brought in a new day for the courts,

Have I not served? he thought. Sosnowski rose

And to the bar, drank whiskey, then went out.

That afternoon Elihu Rufus Fox

Came home to dress for a dinner to be given

For English notables in town—to rest

After a bath, and found himself alone,

His wife at Red Cross work. And there alone,

Collarless, lounging, in a comfort chair,

Poring on Wordsworth’s poems—all at once

Before he hears the door turned, rather feels

A foot-fall and a presence, hears too soon

A pistol shot, looks up and sees Sosnowski,

Who fires again, but misses; grabs the man,

Disarms him, flings him down, and finding blood

Upon his shirt sleeve, sees his hand is hit,

No other damage—then the pistol takes,

And covering Sosnowski, looks at him.

And after several seconds gets the face

Which gradually comes forth from memories

Of many cases, knows the man at last.

And studying Sosnowski, Rufus Fox

Divines what drove the fellow to this deed.

And in these moments Rufus Fox beholds

His life and work, and how he made the law

A thing to use, how he had builded friendships

In clubs and churches, courted politicians,

And played with secret powers, and compromised

Causes and truths for power and capital

To draw on as a lawyer, so to win

Favorable judgments when his skill was hired

By those who wished to win, who had to win

To keep the social order undisturbed

And wealth where it was wrenched to.

And Rufus Fox

Knew that this trembling wreck before him knew

About this course of life at making law

And using law, and using those who sit

To administer the law. And then he said:

“Why did you do this?”

And Sosnowski spoke:

“I meant to kill you—where’s your right to live

When millions have been killed to make the world

A safer place for liberty? Where’s your right

To live and have more honors, be the man

To guide the city, now that telephones,

Gas, railways have been taken by the city?

I meant to kill you just to help the poor

Who go to court. For had I killed you here

My story would be known, no matter if

They buried me in lime, and made my name

A word no man could speak. Now I have failed.

And since you have the pistol, point it at me

And kill me now—for if you tell the world

You killed me in defense of self, the world

Will never doubt you, for the world believes you

And will not doubt your word, whatever it is.”

And Rufus Fox replied: “Your mind is turned

For thinking of your case, when you should know

This country is a place of laws, and law

Must have its way, no matter who is hurt.

Now I must turn you over to the courts,

And let you feel the hard hand of the law.”

Just then the wife of Rufus Fox came in,

And saw her husband with his granite jaws,

And lowering countenance, blood on his shirt,

The pistol in his hand, the scarred Sosnowski,

Facing the lawyer.

Seeing that her husband

Had no wound but a hand clipped of the skin,

And learning what the story was, she saw

It was no time to let Sosnowski’s wrong

Come out to cloud the glory of her husband,

Now that in a new day he had come to stand

With progress, fairer terms of life—to let

The corpse of a dead day be brought beside

The fresh and breathing life of brighter truth.

Quickly she called the butler, gave him charge

Over Sosnowski, who was taken out,

Held in the kitchen, while the two conferred,

The husband and the wife.

To him she said,

They two alone now: “I can see your plan

To turn this fellow over to the law.

It will not do, my dear, it will not do.

For though I have been sharer in your life,

Partaker of its spoils and fruits, I see

This man is just a ghost of a dead day

Of your past life, perhaps, in which I shared.

But that dead life I would not resurrect

In memory even, it has passed us by,

You shall not live it more, no more shall I.

The war has changed the world—the harvest coming

Will have its tares no doubt, but the old tares

Have been cut out and burned, wholly, I trust.

And just to think you used that sharpened talent

For getting money, place, in the old regime,

To place you where to-day? Why, where you must

Use all your talents for the common good.

A barter takes two parties, and the traffic

Whereby the giants of the era gone—

(You are a giant rising on the wreck

Of programs and of plots)—made riches for

Themselves and those they served, is gone as well.

Since gradually no one is left to serve

Or have an interest but the state or city,

The community which is all and should be all.

So here you are at last despite yourself,

Changed not in mind perhaps, but changed in place,

Work, interest, taking pride too in the work;

And speaking with your outer mind, at least

Praise for the day and work.

I am at fault,

And take no virtue to myself—I lived

Your life with you and coveted the things

Your labors brought me. All is changed for me.

I would be poorer than this wretched Pole

Rather than go back to the day that’s dead,

Or reassume the moods I lived them through.

What can we do now to undo the past,

Those days of self-indulgence, ostentation,

False prestige, witless pride, that waste of time,

Money and spirit, haunted by ennui

Insatiable emotion, thirst for change.

At least we can do this: We can set up

The race’s progress and our country’s glory

As standards for our work each day, go on

Perhaps in ignorance, misguided faith;

And let the end approve our poor attempts.

Now to begin, I ask two things of you:

If you or anyone who did your will

Wronged this poor Pole, make good the wrong at once.

And for the sake of bigness let him go.

For your own name’s sake, let the fellow go.

Do you so promise me?”

And Rufus Fox,

Who looked a thunder cloud of wrath and power

Before the mirror tying his white tie,

All this time silent—only spoke these words:

“Go tell the butler to keep guard on him

And hold him till we come from dinner.”

The wife

Looked at the red black face of Rufus Fox

There in the mirror, which like Lao’s mirror

Reflected what his mind was, then went out

Gently to her bidding, found Sosnowski

Laughing and talking with the second maid,

Watched over by the butler, quite himself,

His pent up anger half discharged, his grudge

In part relieved.

There was a garrulous ancient at LeRoy

Who traced all evils to monopoly

In land, all social cures to single tax.

He tried to button-hole the coroner

And tell him what he thought of Elenor Murray.

But Merival escaped. And then this man,

Consider Freeland named, got in a group

And talked his mind out of the case, the land

And what makes poverty and waste in lives:

To Coroner Merival, greetings, but a voice

Dissentient from much that goes the rounds,

Concerning Elenor Murray. Here’s my word:

Give men and women freedom, save the land

From dull theocracy—the theo, what?

A blend of Demos and Jehovah! Say,

Bring back your despots, bring your Louis Fourteenths,

And give them thrones of gold and ivory

From where with leaded sceptres they may whack

King Demos driven forth. You know the face?

The temples are like sea shells, hollows out,

Which narrow close the space for cortex cells.

There would be little brow if hair remained;

But hair is gone, because the dandruff came.

The eyes are close together like a weasel’s;

The jaws are heavy, that is character;

The mouth is thin and wide to gobble chicken;

The paunch is heavy for the chickens eaten.

Throned high upon a soap box Demos rules,

And mumbles decalogues: Thou shalt not read,

Save what I tell you, never books that tell

Of men and women as they live and are.

Thou shalt not see the dramas which portray

The evil passions and satiric moods

Which mock this Christian nation and its hope.

Thou shalt not drink, not even wine or beer.

Thou shalt not play at cards, or see the races.

Thou shalt not be divorced! Thou shalt not play.

Thou shalt not bow to graven images

Of beauty cut in marble, fused in bronze.

Behold my name is Demos, King of Kings,

My name is legion, I am many, come

Out of the sea where many hogs were drowned,

And now the ruler of hogocracy,

Where in the name of freedom hungry snouts

Root up the truffles in your great republic,

And crunch with heavy jaws the legs and arms

Of people who fall over in the pen.

Hierarchies in my name are planted under

Your states political to sprout and take

The new world’s soil,—religious freedom this!—

Thought must be free—unless your thought objects

To such dominion, and to literal faith

In an old book that never had a place

Except beside the Koran, Zarathustra.

So here is your theocracy and here

The land of Boredom. Do you wonder now

That people cry for war? You see that God

Frowns on all games but war. You shall not play

Or kindle spirit with a rapture save

A moral end’s in view. All joy is sin,

Where joy stands for itself alone, nor asks

Consent to be, save for itself. But war

Waged to put down the wrong, it’s always that;

To vindicate God’s truths, all wars are such,

Is game that lets the spirit play, is backed

By God and moral reasons, therefore war,

A game disguised as business, cosmic work

For great millenniums, no less relieves

The boredom of theocracies. But if

Your men and women had the chance to play,

Be free and spend superfluous energies,

In what I call the greatest game, that’s Life,

Have life more freely, deeply, and you say

How would you like a war and lose a leg,

Or come from battle sick for all your years?

You would say no, unless you saw an issue,

Stripped clean of Christian twaddle, as we’ll say

The Greeks beheld the Persians. Well, behold

All honest paganism in such things discarded

For God who comes in glory, trampling presses

Filled up with grapes of wrath.

Now hear me out:

I knew we’d have a war, it wasn’t only

That your hogocracy was grunting war

We’d fight Japan, take Mexico—remember

How dancing flourished madly in the land;

Then think of savages who dance the Ghost Dance,

And cattle lowing, rushing in a panic,

There’s psychic secrets here. But then at last

What can you do with life? You’re well and strong,

Flushed with desire, mad with appetites,

You turn this way and find a sign forbidden,

You turn that way and find the door is closed.

Hogocracy, King Demos say, go back,

Find work, develop character, restrain,

Draw up your belt a little tighter, hunger

And thirst diminish with a tighter belt.

And none to say, take off the belt and eat,

Here’s water for you.

Well, you have a war.

We used to say in foot ball kick their shins,

And gouge their eyes out—when our shins were kicked

We hollered foul and ouch. There was the south

Who called us mud-sills in this freer north,

And mouthed democracy; and as for that

Their churches made of God a battle leader,

An idea come from Palestine; oh, yes,

They soon would wipe us up, they were the people.

But when we slaughtered them they hollered ouch.

And why not? For a gun and uniform,

And bands that play are rapturous enough.

But when you get a bullet through the heart,

The game is not so funny as it was.

That’s why I hated Germany and hate her,

And feel we could not let this German culture

Spread over earth. That culture was but this:

Life must have an expression and a game,

And war’s the game, besides the prize is great

In land and treasure, commerce, let us play,

It lets the people’s passions have a vent

When fires of life burn hot and hotter under

The kettle and the lid is clamped by work,

Dull duty, daily routine, inhibitions.

Before this Elenor Murray woke to life

LeRoy was stirring, but the stir was play.

It was a Gretna Green, and pleasure boats

Ran up and down the river—on the streets

You heard the cry of barkers, in the park

The band was playing, and you heard the ring

Of registers at fountains and buffets.

All this was shabby maybe, but observe

There are those souls who see the wrath of God

As blackest background to the light of soul:

And when the thunder rumbles and the storm

Comes up with lightning then they say to men

Who laugh in bar-rooms, “Have a care, blasphemers,

You may be struck by lightning”—here’s the root

From which this mood ascetic comes to leaf

In all theocracies, and throws a shadow

Upon all freedom.

Look at us to-day.

They say to me, see what a town we have:

The men at work, smoke coming from the chimneys,

The banks full up of money, business good,

The workmen sober, going home at night,

No rowdy barkers and no bands a-playing,

No drinking and no gaming and no vice.

No marriages contracted to be broken.

Look how LeRoy is quiet, sane and clean!

And I reply, you like the stir of work,

But not the stir of play; your chimneys smoke,

Your banks have money. Let me look behind

The door that closes on your man at home,

The wife and children there, what shall I find?

A sick man looks to health as it were all,

But when the fever leaves him and he feels

The store of strength in muscles slumbering

And waiting to be used, then something else

Than health is needful, he must have a way

To voice the life within him, and he wonders

Why health seemed so desirable before,

And all sufficient to him.

Take this girl:

Why do you marvel that she rode at night

With any man who came along? Good God,

If I were born a woman and they put me

In a theocracy, hogocracy,

I’d do the first thing that came in my mind

To give my soul expression. Don’t you think

You’re something of a bully and a coward

To ask such model living from this girl

When you, my grunting hogos, run the land

And bring us scandals like the times of Grant,

And poisoned beef sold to the soldier boys,

When we were warring Spain, and all this stuff

Concerning loot and plunder, malversation,

That riots in your cities, printed daily?

I roll the panoramic story out

To Washington the great—what do I see?

It’s tangle foot, the sticky smear is dry;

But I can find wings, legs and heads, remember

How little flies and big were buzzing once

Of God and duty, country, virtue, faith;

And beating wings, already gummed with sweet,

Until their little bellies touched the glue,

They sought to fill their bellies with—at last

Long silence, which is history, scroll rolled up

And spoken of in sacred whispers.

Well,

I’m glad that Elenor Murray had her fling,

If that be really true. I understand

What drove her to the war. I think she knew

Too much to marry, settle down and live

Under the rule of Demos or of Hogos.

I wish we had a dozen Elenor Murrays

In every village in this land of Demos

To down Theocracy, which is just as bad

As Prussianism, is no different

From Prussianism. And I fear but this

As fruitage of the war: that men and women

Will have burnt on their souls the words ceramic

That war’s the thing, and this theocracy,

Where generous outlets for the soul are stopped

Will keep the words in mind. When boredom comes,

And grows intolerable, you’ll see the land

Go forth to war to get a thrill and live—

Unless we work for freedom, for delight

And self-expression.

————

Dwight Henry is another writer of letters,

Stirred by the Murray inquest; writes a screed

“The House that Jack Built,” read by Merival

To entertain his jury, in these words:

Why don’t they come to me to find the cause

Of Elenor Murray’s death? The house is first;

That is the world, and Jack is God, you know;

The malt is linen, purple, wine and food,

The rats that get the malt are nobles, lords,

Those who had feudal dues and hunting rights,

And privileges, first nights, all the rest.

The cats are your Voltaires, Rousseaus; the dogs,

Your jailers, Louis, Fredericks and such.

And O, you blessed cow, you common people,

Whom maidens all forlorn attend and milk.

Here is your Elenor Murray who gives hands,

Brain, heart and spirit to the task of milking,

And straining milk that other lips may drink,

Revive and flourish, wedding, if she weds,

The tattered man in church, which is your priest

Shaven and shorn, and wakened with the sun

By the cock, theology that keeps the house

Well timed and ruled for honor unto Jack,

Who must have order, rising on the hour,

And ceremony for his house.

If rats

Had never lived, or left the malt alone,

This girl had lived. Let’s trace the story down:

We went to France to fight, we go to France

To get the origin of Elenor’s death.

It’s 1750, say, the malt of France

And Europe, too, is over-run by rats;

The nobles and the clergy own the land,

Exact the taxes, drink the luscious milk

Of the crumpled horns. But cats come slinking by

Called Diderot, Voltaire, Rousseau. Now look!

Cat Diderot goes after war and taxes,

The slave trade, privilege, the merchant stomach.

In England, too, there is a sly grimalkin,

Who poisons rats with most malicious thoughts,

And bears the name of Adam—Adam Smith,

By Jack named Adam just to signify

His sinful nature. But the cat Voltaire

Says Adam never fell, that man is good,

An honest merchant better than a king,

And shaven priests are worse than parasites.

He rubs his glossy coat against the legs

Of Quakers, loving natures, loathes the trade

Of war, and runs with velvet feet across

The whole of Europe, scaring rats to death.

The cat Rousseau is instinct like a cat,

And purrs that man born free is still in chains

Here in this house that Jack built. Consequence?

There is such squeaking, running of the rats,

The cats in North America wake up

And drive the English rats out; then the dogs

Grow cautious of the cats, poor simple Louis

Convokes a French assembly to preserve

The malt against the rats and give the cow

Whose milk is growing blue and thin some malt.

And all at once rats, cats and dogs, the cow,

The shaven priest, the maiden all forlorn,

The tattered man, the cock, are in a hubbub

Of squeaking, caterwauling, barking, lowing,

With cock-a-doodles, curses, prayers and shrieks

Ascending from the melee. In a word,

You have a revolution.

All at once

A mastiff dog appears and barks: “Be still.”

And in a way in France’s room in the house

Brings order for a time. He grabs the fabric

Of the Holy Roman Empire, tears it up,

Sends for the shaven priest from Rome and bites

His shrunken calves; trots off to Jena where

He whips the Prussian dogs, but wakes them too

To breed and multiply, grow strong to fight

All other dogs in Jack’s house, bite to death

The maidens all forlorn, like Elenor Murray.

This mastiff, otherwise Napoleon called,

Is downed at last by dogs from everywhere.

They’re rid of him—but still the house of Jack

Is better than it was, the rats are thick,

But cats grow more abundant, malt is served

More generously to the cow. The Prussian dogs

Discover malt’s the thing, also the cow

Must have her malt, or else the milk gives out.

But all the while the Prussian dogs grow strong,

Well taught and angered by Napoleon.

And some of them would set the house in order

After the manner of America.

But many wish to fight, get larger rooms,

Then set the whole in order. At Sadowa

They whip the Austrian dogs, and once again

A mastiff comes, a Bismarck, builds a suite

From north to south, and forces Austria

To huddle in the kitchen, use the outhouse

Where Huns and Magyars, Bulgars and the rest

Keep Babel under Jack who split their tongues

To make them hate each other and suspect,

Not understanding what the other says.

This very Babel was the cause of death

Of Elenor Murray, if I chose to stop

And go no further with the story.

Next

Our mastiff Bismarck thinks of Luneville,

And would avenge it, grabs the throat of France,

And downs her; at Versailles growls and carries

An emperor of Germany to the throne.

Then pants and wags his tail, and little dreams

A dachshund in an early day to come

Will drive him from the kennel and the bone

He loves to crunch and suck.

This dachshund is

In one foot crippled, rabies from his sires

Lies dormant in him, in a day of heat

Froth from his mouth will break, his eyes will roll

Like buttons made of pearl with glints of green.

Already he feels envy of the dogs

Who wear brass collars, bay the moon of Jack,

And roam at will about the house of Jack,

The English, plainer said. This envy takes

The form of zeal for country, so he trots

About the house, gets secrets for reforms

For Germany, would have his lesser dogs

All merchants, traders sleek and prosperous,

Achieve a noble breed to rule the house.

And so he puts his rooms in order, while

The other dogs look on with much concern

And growing fear.

The business of the house

In every room is over malt; the cow

Must be well fed for milk. And if you have

No feudal dues, outlandish taxes, still

The game of old goes on, has only changed

Its dominant form. Grimalkin, Adam Smith

Spied all the rats, and all the tricks of rats,

Saw in his day the rats crawl hawser ropes

And get on ships, embark for Indias,

And get the malt; and now the merchant ships

For China bound, for Africa, for the Isles

Of farthest seas take rats, who slip aboard

And eat their fill before the patient cow,

Milked daily as before can lick her tongue

Against a mouthful of the precious stuff.

You have your eastern question, and your Congo.

France wants Morocco, gives to Germany

Possessions in the Congo for Morocco.

The dogs jump into China, even we

Take part and put the Boxers down, lay hands

Upon the Philippines, and Egypt falls

To England, all are building battle ships.

The dachshund barking he is crowded out,

Encircled, as he says, builds up the army,

And patriot cocks are crowing everywhere,

Until the house of Jack with snarls and growls,

The fuff, fuff, fuff of cats seems on the eve

Of pandemonium. The Germans think

The Slavs want Europe, and the Slavs are sure

The Germans want it, and it’s all for malt.

Meantime the Balkan Babel leads to war.

The Slavic peoples do not like the rule

Of Austro-Hungary, but the latter found

No way except to rule the Slavs and rule

Southeastern Europe, being crowded out

By mastiff Bismarck. And again there’s Jack

Who made confusion of the Balkan tongues.

And so the house awaits events that look

As if Jack willed them, anyway a thing

That may be put on Jack. It comes at last.

All have been armed for malt. A crazy man

Has armed himself and shoots a king to be,

The Archduke Francis, on the Serbian soil,

Then Austria moves on Serbia, Russia moves

To succor Serbia, France is pledged to help

The Russians, but our dachshund has a bond

With Austria and rushes to her aid.

Then England must protect the channel, yes,

France must be saved—and here you have your war.

And now for Elenor Murray. Top of brain

Where ideals float like clouds, we owed to France

A debt, but had we paid it, if the dog,

The dachshund, mad at last, had left our ships

To freedom of the seas? Say what you will,

This England is the smartest thing in time,

Can never fall, be conquered while she keeps

That mind of hers, those eyes that see all things,

Spies or no spies, knows every secret hatched

In every corner of the house of Jack.

And with one language spoken by more souls

Than any tongue, leads minds by written words;

Writes treaties, compacts which forstall the sword,

And makes it futile when it’s drawn against her....

You cuff your enemy at school or make

A naso-digital gesture, coming home

You fear your enemy, so walk beside

The gentle teacher; if your enemy

Throws clods at you, he hits the teacher. Well,

’Twas wise to hide munitions back of skirts,

And frocks of little children, most unwise

For Dachshund William to destroy the skirts

And frocks to sink munitions, since the wearers

Happened to be Americans. William fell

Jumping about his room and spilled the clock,

Raked off the mantel; broke his billikens,

His images of Jack by doing this.

For, seeing this, we rise; ten million youths

Take guns for war, and many Elenor Murrays

Swept out of placid places by the ripples

Cross seas to serve.

This girl was French in part,

In spirit was American. Look back

Do you not see Voltaire lay hold of her,

Hands out of tombs and spirits, from the skies

Lead her to Europe? Trace the causes back

To Adam, or the dwellers of the lakes,

It is enough to see the souls that stirred

The Revolution of the French which drove

The ancient evils from the house of Jack.

It is enough to hope that from this war

The vestiges of feudal wrongs shall lie

In Jack’s great dust-pan, swept therein and thrown

In garbage cans by maidens all forlorn,

The Fates we’ll call them now, lame goddesses,

Hags halt, far sighted, seeing distant things,

Near things but poorly—this is much to hope!

But if we get a freedom that is free

For Elenor Murrays, maidens all forlorn,

And tattered men, and so prevent the wars,

Already budding in this pact of peace,

This war is good, and Elenor Murray’s life

Not waste, but gain.

Now for a final mood,

As it were second sight. I open the door,

Walk from the house of Jack, look at the roof,

The chimneys, over them see depths of blue.

Jack’s house becomes a little ark that sails,

Tosses and bobbles in an infinite sea.

And all events of evil, war and strife,

The pain and folly, test of this and that,

The groping from one thing to something else,

Old systems turned to new, old eras dead,

New eras rising, these are ripples all

Moving from some place in the eternal sea

Where Jack is throwing stones,—these ripples lap

Against the house of Jack, or toss it so

The occupants go reeling here and there,

Laugh, scowl, grow sick, tread on each other’s toes.

While all the time the sea is most concerned

With tides and currents, little with the house,

Ignore this Elenor Murray or Voltaire,

Who living and who dying reproduce

Ripples upon the pools of time and place,

That knew them; and so on where neither eye

Nor mind can trace the ripples vanishing

In ether, realms of spirit, what you choose!

————

Now on a day when Merival was talking

More evidence at the inquest, he is brought

The card of Mary Black, associate

Of Elenor Murray in the hospital

Of France, and asks the coroner to hear

What Elenor Murray suffered in the war.

And Merival consents and has her sworn;

She testifies as follows to the jury:

Poor girl, she had an end! She seems to me

A torch stuck in a bank of clay, snuffed out,

Her warmth and splendor wasted. Never girl

Had such an ordeal and a fate before.

She was the lucky one at first, and then

Evils and enemies flocked down upon her,

And beat her to the earth.

But when we sailed

You never saw so radiant a soul,

While most of us were troubled, for you know

Some were in gloom, had quarreled with their beaux,

Who did not say farewell. And there were some

Who talked for weeks ahead of seeing beaux

And having dinners with them who missed out.

We were a tearful, a deserted lot.

And some were apprehensive—well you know!

But Elenor, she had a beau devoted

Who sent her off with messages and love,

And comforts for her service in the war.

And so her face was lighted, she was gay,

And said to us: “How wonderful it is

To serve, to nurse, to play our little part

For country, for democracy.” And to me

She said: “My heart is brimming over with love.

Now I can work and nurse, now use my hands

To soothe and heal, which burn to finger tips,

With flame for service.”

Oh she had the will,

The courage, resolution; but at last

They broke her down. And this is how it was:

Her love for someone gave her zeal and grace

For watching, working, caring for the sick.

Her heart was in the cause too—but this love

Gave beauty, passion to it. All her men

Stretched out to kiss her hands. It may be true

The wounded soldier is a grateful soul.

But in her case they felt a warmer flame,

A greater tenderness. So she won her spurs,

And honors, was beloved, she had a brain,

A fine intelligence. Then at the height

Of her success, she disobeyed a doctor—

He was a pigmy—Elenor knew more

Than he did, but you know the discipline:

War looses all the hatreds, meanest traits

Together with the noblest, so she crumpled,

Was disciplined for this. About this time

A letter to the head nurse came—there was

A Miriam Fay, who by some wretched fate

Was always after Elenor—it was she

Who wrote the letter, and the letter said

To keep a watch on Elenor, lest she snag

Some officer or soldier. Elenor,

Who had no caution, venturesome and brave,

Wrote letters more than frank to one she loved

Whose tenor leaked out through the censorship.

Her lover sent her telegrams, all opened,

And read first by the head nurse. So at last

Too much was known, and Elenor was eyed,

And whispers ran around. Those ugly girls,

Who never had a man, were wagging tongues,

And still her service was so radiant,

So generous and skillful she survived,

Helped by the officers, the leading doctors,

Who liked her and defended her, perhaps

In hopes of winning her—you know the game!

It was through them she went to Nice; but when

She came back to her duty all was ready

To catch her and destroy her—envy played

Its part, as you can see.

Our unit broke,

And some of us were sent to Germany,

And some of us to other places—all

Went with some chum, associate. But Elenor,

Who was cut off from every one she knew,

And shipped out like an animal to be

With strangers, nurses, doctors, wholly strange.

The head nurse passed the word along to watch her.

And thus it was her spirit, once aflame

For service and for country, fed and brightened

By love for someone, thus was left to burn

In darkness and in filth.

The hospital

Was cold, the rain poured, and the mud was frightful—

Poor Elenor was writing me—the food

Was hardly fit to eat. To make it worse

They put her on night duty for a month.

Smallpox broke out and they were quarantined.

A nurse she chose to be her friend was stricken

With smallpox, died and left her all alone.

One rainy morning she heard guns and knew

A soldier had been stood against the wall.

He was a boy from Texas, driven mad

By horror and by drink, had killed a Frenchman.

She had the case of crazy men at night,

And one of them got loose and knocked her down,

And would have killed her, had an orderly

Not come in time. And she was cold at night,

Sat bundled up so much she scarce could walk

There in that ward on duty. Everywhere

They thwarted her and crossed her, she was nagged,

Brow-beaten, driven, hunted and besought

For favors, for the word was well around

She was the kind who could be captured—false,

The girl was good whatever she had done.

All this she suffered, and her lover now

Had cast her off, it seems, had ceased to write,

Had gone back to America—even then

They did not wholly break her.

But I ask

What soldier or what nurse retained his faith,

The splendor of his flame? I wish to God

They’d pass a law and make it death to write

Or speak of war as glory, or as good.

What good can come of hatred, greed and murder?

War licenses these passions, legalizes

All infamies. They talk of cruelties—

We shot the German captives—and I nursed

A boy who shot a German, with two others

Rushed on the fallen fellow, ran him through,

Through eyes and throat with bayonets. The world

Is better, is it? And if Indians scalped

Our women for the British, and if Sherman

Cut through the south with sword and flame, to-day

Such terrors should not be, we are improved!

Yes, hate and lust have changed, and maniac rage,

And rum has lost its potency to fire

A nerve that sickens at the bloody work

Where men are butchered as you shoot and slash

An animal for food!

Well, now suppose

The preachers who preach Jesus meek and mild,

But fulminate for slaughter, when the game

Of money turns its thumbs down; if your statesmen

With hardened arteries and hardened hearts,

Who make a cult of patriotism, gain

Their offices and livelihood thereby;

Your emperors and kings and chancellors,

Who glorify themselves and win sometimes

Lands for their people; and your editors

Who whip the mob to fury, bellies fat,

Grown cynical, and rich, who cannot lose,

No matter what we suffer—if we nurses,

And soldiers fail; your patriotic shouters

Of murder and of madness, von Bernhardis,

Treitschkes, making pawns of human life

To shape a destiny they can’t control—

Your bankers and your merchants—all the gang

Who shout for war and pay the orators,

Arrange the music—if I say—this crowd

Finds us, the nurses and the soldiers, cold,

Our fire of youth and faith beyond command,

Too wise to be enlisted or enslaved,

What will they do who shout for war so much?

And haven’t we, the nurses and the soldiers

Written some million stories for the eyes

Of boys and girls to read these fifty years?

And if they read and understand, no war

Can come again. They can’t have war without

The spirit of your Elenor Murrays—no!

————

So Mary Black went on, and Merival

Gave liberty to her to talk her mind.

The jury smiled or looked intense for words

So graphic of the horrors of the war.

Then David Barrow asked: “Who is the man

That used to write to Elenor, went away?”

And Mary Black replied, “We do not know;

I do not know a girl who ever knew.

I only know that Elenor wept and grieved,

And did her duty like a little soldier.

It was some man who came to France, because

The word went round he had gone back, and left

The service, or the service there in France

Had left. Some said he’d gone to England, some

America. He must have been an American,

Or rather in America when she sailed,

Because she went off happy. In New York

Saw much of him before we sailed.”

And then

The Reverend Maiworm juryman spoke up—

This Mary Black had left the witness chair—

And asked if Gregory Wenner went to France.

The coroner thought not, but would inquire.

————

Jane Fisher was a friend of Elenor Murray’s

And held the secret of a pack of letters

Which Elenor Murray left. And on a day

She talks with Susan Hamilton, a friend.

Jane Fisher has composed a letter to

A lawyer in New York, who has the letters—

At least it seems so—and to get the letters,

And so fulfill the trust which Elenor

Had left to Jane. Meantime the coroner

Had heard somehow about the letters, or

That Jane knows something—she is anxious now,

And in a flurry, does not wish to go

Down to LeRoy and tell her story. So

She talks with Susan Hamilton like this:

Jane Fisher says to Susan Hamilton,

That Coroner has no excuse to bring

You, me before him. There are many too

Who could throw light on Elenor Murray’s life

Besides the witnesses he calls to tell

The cause of death: could he call us and hear

About the traits we know, he should have us.

What do we know of Elenor Murray’s death?

Why, not a thing, unless her death began

With Simeon Strong and Gregory Wenner—then

I could say something, for she told me much

About her plan to marry Simeon Strong,

And could have done so but for Gregory Wenner,

Whose fault of life combined with fault of hers

To break the faith of Simeon Strong in her.

And so what have we? Gregory Wenner’s love

Poisons the love of Simeon Strong, from that

Poor Elenor Murray falls into decline;

From that, re-acts to nursing and religion,

Which leads her to the war; and from the war

Some other causes come, I know not what;

I wish I knew. And Elenor Murray dies,

Is killed or has a normal end of life.

But, Susan, Elenor Murray feasted richly

While life was with her, spite of all the pain.

If you could choose, be Elenor Murray or

Our schoolmate, Mary Marsh, which would you be?

Elenor Murray had imagination,

And courage to sustain it; Mary Marsh

Had no imagination, was afraid,

Could not envision life in Europe, married

And living there in England, threw her chance

Away to live in England, was content,

And otherwise not happy but to lift

Her habitation from the west of town

And settle on the south side, wed a man

Whose steadiness and business sense made sure

A prosperous uniformity of life.

Life does not enter at your door and seek you,

And pour her gifts into your lap. She drops

The chances and the riches here and there.

They find them who fly forth, as faring birds

Know northern marshes, rice fields in the south;

While the dull turtle waddles in his mud.

The bird is slain perhaps, the turtle lives,

But which has known the thrills?

Well, on a time

Elenor Murray, Janet Stearns, myself

Thought we would see Seattle and Vancouver,

We had saved money teaching school that year—

The plan was Elenor Murray’s. So we sailed

To ’Frisco from Los Angeles, saw ’Frisco

By daylight, but to see the town by night

Was Elenor Murray’s wish, and up to now

We had no men, had found none. Elenor said,

“Let’s go to Palo Alto, find some men.”

We landed in a blinding sun, and walked

About the desolate campus, but no men.

And Janet and myself were tired and hot;

But Elenor, who never knew fatigue,

Went searching here and there, and left us sitting

Under a palm tree waiting. Hours went by,

Two hours, I think, when she came down the walk

A man on either side. She brought them up

And introduced them. They were gay and young,

Students with money. Then the fun began:

We wished to see the place, must hurry back

To keep engagements in the city—whew!

How Elenor Murray baited hooks for us

With words about the city and our plans;

What fun we three had had already there!

Until at last these fellows begged to come,

Return with us to ’Frisco, be allowed

To join our party. “Could we manage it?”

Asked Elenor Murray, “do you think we can?”

We fell into the play and talked it over,

Considered this and that, resolved the thing,

And said at last to come, and come they did....

Well, such a time in ’Frisco. For you see

Our money had been figured down to cents

For what we planned to do. These fellows helped,

We scarcely had seen ’Frisco but for them.

They bought our dinners, paid our way about

Through China Town and so forth, but we kept

Our staterooms on the boat, slept on the boat.

And after three days’ feasting sailed away

With bouquets for each one of us.

But this girl

Could never get enough, must on and on

See more, have more sensations, never tired.

And when we saw Vancouver then the dream

Of going to Alaska entered her.

I had no money, Janet had no money

To help her out, and Elenor was short.

We begged her not to try it—what a will!

She set her jaw and said she meant to go.

And when we missed her for a day, behold

We find her, she’s a cashier in a store,

And earning money there to take the trip.

Our boat was going back, we left her there.

I see her next when school commences, ruling

Her room of pupils at Los Angeles.

The summer after this she wandered east,

Was now engaged to Simeon Strong, but writing

To Gregory Wenner, saw him in Chicago.

She traveled to New York, he followed her.

She was a girl who had to live her life,

Could not live through another, found no man

Whose life sufficed for hers, must live herself,

Be individual.

And en route for France

She wrote me from New York, was seeing much

Of Margery, an aunt—I never knew her,

But sensed an evil in her, and a mind

That used the will of Elenor Murray—how

Or why, I knew not. But she wrote to me

This Margery had brought her lawyer in,

There in New York to draw a document,

And put some letters in a safety box.

Whose letters? Gregory Wenner’s? I don’t know.

She told me much of secrets, but of letters

That needed for their preciousness a box,

A lawyer to arrange the matter, nothing.

For if there was another man, she felt

Too shamed, no doubt, to tell me:—“This is he,

The love I sought, the great reality,”

When she had said as much of Gregory Wenner.

But now a deeper matter: with this letter

She sent a formal writing giving me

Charge of these letters, if she died to give

The letters to the writer. I’m to know

The identity of the writer, so she planned

When I obtain them. How about this lawyer,

And Margery the aunt? What shall I do?

Write to this lawyer what my duty is

Appointed me of her, go to New York?

I must do something, for this lawyer has,

As I believe, no knowledge of my place

In this affair. Who has the box’s key?

This lawyer, or the aunt—I have no key—

And if they have the key, or one of them,

And enter, take the letters, look! our friend

Gets stains upon her memory; or the man

Who wrote the letters finds embarrassment.

Somehow, I think, these letters hold a secret,

The deepest of her life and cruelest,

And figured in her death. My dearest friend,

What if they brought me to the coroner,

If I should get these letters, and they learned

I had them, this relation to our Elenor!

Yet how can I neglect to write this lawyer

And tell him Elenor Murray gave to me

This power of disposition?

Come what may

I must write to this lawyer. Here I write

To get the letters, and obey the wish

Of our dear friend. Our friend who never could

Carry her ventures to success, but always

Just at the prosperous moment wrecked her hope.

She really wished to marry Simeon Strong.

Then why imperil such a wish by keeping

This Gregory Wenner friendship living, go

About with Gregory Wenner, fill the heart

Of Simeon Strong with doubt?

Oh well, my friend,

We wonder at each other, I at you,

And you at me, for doing this or that.

And yet I think no man or woman acts

Without a certain logic in the act

Of nature or of circumstance.

Look here,

This letter to the lawyer. Will it do?

I think so. If it brings the letters—well!

If not, I’ll get them somehow, it must be,

I loved her, faults and all, and so did you....

So while Jane Fisher pondered on her duty,

But didn’t write the letter to the lawyer,

Who had the charge of Elenor Murray’s letters,

The lawyer, Henry Baker, in New York

Finds great perplexity. Sometimes a case

Walks in a lawyer’s office, makes his future,

Or wrecks his health, or brings him face to face

With some one rising from the mass of things,

Faces and circumstance, that ends his life.

So Henry Baker took such chances, taking

The custody of these letters.

James Rex Hunter

Is partner of this Baker, sees at last

Merival and tells him how it was

With Baker at the last; he died because

Of Elenor Murray’s letters, Hunter told

The coroner at the Waldorf. Dramatized

His talk with Lawyer Baker in these words:—

One partner may consult another—James,

Here is a matter you must help me with,

It’s coming to a head.

Well, to be plain,

And to begin at the beginning first,

I knew a woman up on Sixty-third,

Have known her since I got her a divorce,

Married, divorced, before—last night we quarreled,

I must do something, hear me and advise.

She is a woman notable for eyes

Bright for their oblong lights in them; they seem

Like crockery vases, rookwood, where the light

Shows spectrally almost in squares and circles.

Her skin is fair, nose hooked, of amorous flesh,

A feaster and a liver, thinks and plans

Of money, how to get it. And this husband

Whom she divorced last summer went away,

And left her to get on as best she could.

All legal matters settled, we went driving—

This story can be skipped.

Last night we dined,

Afterward went to her apartment. First

She told me at the dinner that her niece

Named Elenor Murray died some days ago.

I sensed what she was after—here’s the point:—

She followed up the theme when we returned

To her apartment, where we quarreled. You see

I would not do her bidding, left her mad,

In silent wrath after some bitter words.

I managed her divorce as I have said,

Then I stepped in as lover, months had passed.

When Elenor Murray came here to New York,

I met her at the apartment of the aunt

Whose name is Margery Camp. Before, she said

Her niece was here, was happy and in love

But sorrowful for leaving, just the talk

That has no meaning till you see the subject

Or afterwards, perhaps; it passes in

One ear and out the other. Then at last

One afternoon I met this Elenor Murray

When I go up to call on Margery Camp.

The staging of the matter is like this:

The niece looks fagged, is sitting on the couch,

Has loosed her collar for her throat to feel

The air about it, for the day is hot.

And Margery Camp goes out, brings in a pitcher

Of absinthe cocktails, so we drink. I sit,

Begin to study what is done, and look

This Elenor Murray over, get the thought

That somehow Margery Camp has taken Elenor

In her control for something, has begun

To use her, manage her, is coiling her

With dominant will or cunning. Then I look,

See Margery Camp observing Elenor Murray,

Who drinks the absinthe, and in Margery’s eyes

I see these parallelograms of light

Just like a vase of crockery, there she stands,

Her face like ivory, and laughs and shows

Her marvelous teeth, smooths with her shapely hands

The skirt upon her hips. Somehow I feel

She is a soul who watches passion work.

Then Elenor Murray rouses, gets her spirits

Out of the absinthe, rises and exclaims:

“I’m better now;” and Margery Camp speaks up,

Poor child, in intonation like a doll

That speaks from reeds of steel, no sympathy

Or meaning in the words. The interview

Seems spooky to me, cold and sinister.

We drink again and then we drink again.

And what with her fatigue and lowered spirits,

This Elenor Murray drifts in talk and mood

With so much drink. At last this Margery Camp

Says suddenly: “You’ll have to help my niece,

There is a matter you must manage for her,

We’ve talked it over; in a day or two

Before she goes away, we’ll come to you.”

I took them out to dinner, after dinner

Drove Margery Camp to her apartment, then

Went down with Elenor Murray to her place.

Then in a day or two, one afternoon

Margery Camp and Elenor Murray came

Here to my office with a bundle, which

This Margery Camp was carrying, rather large.

And Margery Camp was bright and keen as winter.

But Elenor Murray seemed a little dull,

Abstracted as of drink, or thought perhaps.

After the greeting and preliminaries,

Margery said to Elenor: “Better tell

What we have come for, get it done and go.”

Then Elenor Murray said: “Here are some letters,

I’ve tied them in this package, and I wish

To put them in a safety box, give you

One key and keep the other, leave with you

A sealed instruction, which, in case I die,

While over-seas, you may break open, read

And follow, if you will.” She handed me

A writing signed by her which merely read

What I have told you—here it is—you see:

“When legal proof is furnished I am dead,

Break open the sealed letter which will give

Instruction for you.” So I took the trust,

Went with these women to a vault and placed

The letters in the box, gave her a key,

Kept one myself. They left. At dinner time

I joined them, saw more evidence of the will

Of Margery Camp controlling Elenor’s.

Which seemed in part an older woman’s power

Against a younger woman’s, and in part

Something less innocent. We ate and drank,

I took them to their places as before,

And didn’t see this Elenor again.

But now last night when I see Margery

She says at once, “My niece is dead;” goes on

To say, no other than herself has care

Or interest in her, was estranged from father,

And mother too, herself the closest heart

In all the world, and therefore she must look

After the memory of the niece, and adds:

“She came to you through me, I picked you out

To do this business.” So she went along

With this and that, advancing and retreating

To catch me, bind me. Well, I saw her game,

Sat non-committal, sipping wine, but keeping

The wits she hoped I’d lose, as I could see.

After the dinner we went to her place

And there she said these letters might contain

Something to smudge the memory of her niece,

She wished she had insisted on the plan

Of having one of the keys, the sealed instruction

Made out and left with her; being her aunt,

The closest heart in the world to Elenor Murray,

That would have been the right way. But she said

Her niece was willful and secretive, too,

Not over wise, but now that she was dead

It was her duty to reform the plan,

Do what was best, and take control herself.

So working to the point by devious ways

She said at last: “You must give me the key,

The sealed instruction: I’ll go to the box,

And get the letters, do with them as Elenor

Directed in the letter; for I think,

Cannot believe it different, that my niece

Has left these letters with me, so directs

In that sealed letter.” “Then if that be true,

Why give the key to me, the letter?—no

This is a trust, a lawyer would betray,

A sacred trust to do what you request.”

I saw her growing angry. Then I added:

“I have no proof your niece is dead:” “My word

Is good enough,” she answered, “we are friends,

You are my lover, as I thought; my word

Should be sufficient.” And she kept at me

Until I said: “I can’t give you the key,

And if I did they would not let you in,

You are not registered as a deputy

To use the key.” She did not understand,

Did not believe me, but she tacked about,

And said: “You can do this, take me along

When you go to the vault and open the box,

And break the letter open which she gave.”

I only answered: “If I find your niece

Has given these letters to you, you shall have

The letters, but I think the letters go

Back to the writer, and if that’s the case,

I’ll send them to the writer.”

Here at last

She lost control, took off her mask and stormed:

“We’ll see about it. You will scarcely care

To have the matter aired in court. I’ll see

A lawyer, bring a suit and try it out,

And see if I, the aunt, am not entitled

To have my niece’s letters and effects,

Whatever’s in the package. I am tired

And cannot see you longer. Take five days

To think the matter over. If you come

And do what I request, no suit, but if

You still refuse, the courts can settle it.”

And so I left her.

In a day or two

I read of Elenor Murray’s death. It seems

The coroner investigates her death.

She died mysteriously. Well, then I break

The sealed instruction, look! I am to send

The package to Jane Fisher, in Chicago.

We know, of course, Jane Fisher did not write

The letters, that the letters are a man’s.

What is the inference? Why, that Elenor Murray

Pretended to comply, obey her aunt,

Yet slipped between her fingers, did not wish

The aunt or me to know who wrote the letters.

Feigned full submission, frankness with the aunt,

Yet hid her secret, hid it from the aunt

Beyond her finding out, if I observe

The trust imposed, keep hands of Margery Camp

From getting at the letters.

Now two things:

Suppose the writer of the letters killed

This Elenor Murray, is somehow involved

In Elenor Murray’s death? If that’s the case,

Should not these letters reach the coroner?

To help enforce the law is higher trust

Than doing what a client has commanded.

And secondly, if Margery Camp should sue,

My wife will learn the secret, bring divorce.

Three days remain before the woman’s threat

Is ripe to execute. Think over this.

We’ll talk again—I really need advice....

————

So Hunter told the coroner. Then resumed

The matter was a simple thing: I said

To telegraph the coroner. You are right:

Those letters give a clue perhaps, your trust

Is first to see the law enforced. And yet

I saw he was confused and drinking too,

For fear his wife would learn of Margery Camp.

I added, for that matter open the box,

Take out the letters, find who wrote them, send

A telegram to the coroner giving the name

Of the writer of the letters. Well, he nodded,

Seemed to consent to anything I said.

And Hunter left me, leaving me in doubt

What he would do. And what is next? Next day

He’s in the hospital and has pneumonia.

I take a cab to see him, but I find

He is too sick to see, is out of mind.

In three days he is dead. His wife comes in

And tells me worry killed him—knows the truth

About this Margery Camp, oh, so she said.

Had sent a lawyer to her husband asking

For certain letters of an Elenor Murray.

And that her husband stood between the fire

Of some exposure by this Margery Camp,

Or suffering these letters to be used

By Margery Camp against the writer for

A bit of money. This was Mrs. Hunter’s

Interpretation. Well, the fact is clear

That Hunter feared this Margery Camp—was scared

About his wife who in some way had learned

just at this time of Margery Camp—I think

Was called up, written to. Between it all

Poor Hunter’s worry, far too fast a life,

He broke and died. And now you know it all.

I’ve learned no client enters at your door

And nothing casual happens in the day

That may not change your life, or bring you death.

And Hunter in a liaison with Margery

Is brought within the scope of Elenor’s

Life and takes his mortal hurt and dies.

————

So much for riffles in New York. We turn

Back to LeRoy and see the riffles there,

See all of them together. Loveridge Chase

Receives a letter from a New York friend,

A secret service man who trails and spies

On Henry Baker, knows about the letters,

And writes to Loveridge Chase and says to him:

“That Elenor Murray dying near LeRoy

Left letters in New York. I trailed the aunt

Of Elenor Murray, Margery Camp. Also

A lawyer, Henry Baker, who controls

A box with letters left by Elenor Murray—

So for the story. Why not join with me

And get these letters? There is money in it,

Perhaps, who knows? I work for Mrs. Hunter—

She wants the letters placed where they belong,

And wants the man who killed this Elenor Murray

Punished as he should be. Go see the coroner

And get the work of bringing back the letters.”

And Chase came to the coroner and spoke:

Here is the secret of the death of Elenor,

From what I learn of her, from what I know

In living, knowing women, I am clear

About this Elenor Murray. Give me power

To get the letters, power to give a bond

To indemnify the company, for you know

Letters belong to him who writes the letters;

And if the company is given bond

It will surrender them, and then you’ll know

What man she loved, this Gregory Wenner or

Some other man, and if some other man,

Whether he caused her death.

The coroner

And Loveridge Chase sat in the coroner’s office

And talked the matter over. And the coroner,

Who knew this Loveridge Chase, was wondering

Why Loveridge Chase had taken up the work

Of secret service, followed it, and asked,

“How did you come to give your brains to this,

Who could do other things?” And Loveridge said:

“A woman made me, I went round the world

As jackie once, was brought into this world

By a mother good and wise, but took from her,

My father, someone, sense of chivalry

Too noble for this world, a pity too,

Abused too much by women. I came back,

Was hired in a bank; had I gone on

By this time had been up in banking circles,

But something happened. You can guess, I think

It was a woman, was my wife Leone.

It matters nothing here, except I knew

This Elenor Murray through my wife. These two

Were schoolmates, even chums. I’ll get these letters

If you commission me. The fact is this:

I think this Elenor Murray and Leone

Were kindred spirits, and it does me good

Now that I’m living thus without a wife

To ferret out this matter of Elenor Murray,

Perhaps this way, or somewhere on the way,

Find news of my Leone; what life she lives,

And where she is. I’m curious still, you see.”

Then Coroner Merival, who had not heard

Of Elenor Murray’s letters in New York

Before this talk of Loveridge Chase, who heard

This story and analysis of Leone

Mixed in with other talk, and got a light

On Elenor Murray, said: “I know your work,

Know you as well, have confidence in you,

Make ready to go, and bring the letters back.”

And on the day that Loveridge Chase departs

To get the letters in New York, Bernard,

A veteran of Belleau, married that day

To Amy Whidden, on a lofty dune

At Millers, Indiana, with his bride—

Long quiet, tells her something of the war.

These soldiers cannot speak what they have lived.

But Elenor Murray helps him; for the talk

Of Elenor Murray runs the rounds, so many

Stations whence the talk is sent:—the men

Or women who had known her, came in touch

Somehow with her. These newly wedded two

Go out to see blue water, yellow sand,

And watch the white caps pat the sky, and hear

The intermittent whispers of the waves.

And here Bernard, the soldier, tells his bride

Of Elenor Murray and their days at Nice: