SECOND APRIL

By Edna St. Vincent Millay

TO

MY BELOVED FRIEND
CAROLINE B. DOW

CONTENTS

SECOND APRIL

SPRING

CITY TREES

THE BLUE-FLAG IN THE BOG

JOURNEY

EEL-GRASS

ELEGY BEFORE DEATH

THE BEAN-STALK

WEEDS

PASSER MORTUUS EST

PASTORAL

ASSAULT

TRAVEL

LOW-TIDE

SONG OF A SECOND APRIL

ROSEMARY

THE POET AND HIS BOOK

ALMS

INLAND

TO A POET THAT DIED YOUNG

WRAITH

EBB

ELAINE

BURIAL

MARIPOSA

THE LITTLE HILL

DOUBT NO MORE THAT OBERON

LAMENT

EXILED

THE DEATH OF AUTUMN

ODE TO SILENCE

EPITAPH

PRAYER TO PERSEPHONE

CHORUS

ELEGY

DIRGE

SONNETS

WILD SWANS

SECOND APRIL

SPRING

     To what purpose, April, do you return again?

     Beauty is not enough.

     You can no longer quiet me with the redness

     Of little leaves opening stickily.

     I know what I know.

     The sun is hot on my neck as I observe

     The spikes of the crocus.

     The smell of the earth is good.

     It is apparent that there is no death.

     But what does that signify?

     Not only under ground are the brains of men

     Eaten by maggots,

     Life in itself

     Is nothing,

     An empty cup, a flight of uncarpeted stairs.

     It is not enough that yearly, down this hill,

     April

     Comes like an idiot, babbling and strewing flowers.

CITY TREES

     The trees along this city street,

       Save for the traffic and the trains,

     Would make a sound as thin and sweet

       As trees in country lanes.

     And people standing in their shade

       Out of a shower, undoubtedly

     Would hear such music as is made

       Upon a country tree.

     Oh, little leaves that are so dumb

       Against the shrieking city air,

     I watch you when the wind has come,—

       I know what sound is there.

THE BLUE-FLAG IN THE BOG

     God had called us, and we came;

       Our loved Earth to ashes left;

     Heaven was a neighbor's house,

       Open to us, bereft.

     Gay the lights of Heaven showed,

       And 'twas God who walked ahead;

     Yet I wept along the road,

       Wanting my own house instead.

     Wept unseen, unheeded cried,

       "All you things my eyes have kissed,

     Fare you well!  We meet no more,

       Lovely, lovely tattered mist!

     Weary wings that rise and fall

       All day long above the fire!"—

     Red with heat was every wall,

       Rough with heat was every wire—

     "Fare you well, you little winds

       That the flying embers chase!

     Fare you well, you shuddering day,

       With your hands before your face!

     And, ah, blackened by strange blight,

       Or to a false sun unfurled,

     Now forevermore goodbye,

       All the gardens in the world!

     On the windless hills of Heaven,

       That I have no wish to see,

     White, eternal lilies stand,

       By a lake of ebony.

     But the Earth forevermore

       Is a place where nothing grows,—

     Dawn will come, and no bud break;

       Evening, and no blossom close.

     Spring will come, and wander slow

       Over an indifferent land,

     Stand beside an empty creek,

       Hold a dead seed in her hand."

     God had called us, and we came,

       But the blessed road I trod

     Was a bitter road to me,

       And at heart I questioned God.

     "Though in Heaven," I said, "be all

       That the heart would most desire,

     Held Earth naught save souls of sinners

       Worth the saving from a fire?

     Withered grass,—the wasted growing!

       Aimless ache of laden boughs!"

     Little things God had forgotten

       Called me, from my burning house.

     "Though in Heaven," I said, "be all

       That the eye could ask to see,

     All the things I ever knew

       Are this blaze in back of me."

     "Though in Heaven," I said, "be all

       That the ear could think to lack,

     All the things I ever knew

       Are this roaring at my back."

     It was God who walked ahead,

       Like a shepherd to the fold;

     In his footsteps fared the weak,

       And the weary and the old,

     Glad enough of gladness over,

       Ready for the peace to be,—

     But a thing God had forgotten

       Was the growing bones of me.

     And I drew a bit apart,

       And I lagged a bit behind,

     And I thought on Peace Eternal,

       Lest He look into my mind:

     And I gazed upon the sky,

       And I thought of Heavenly Rest,—

     And I slipped away like water

       Through the fingers of the blest!

     All their eyes were fixed on Glory,

       Not a glance brushed over me;

     "Alleluia!  Alleluia!"

       Up the road,—and I was free.

     And my heart rose like a freshet,

       And it swept me on before,

     Giddy as a whirling stick,

       Till I felt the earth once more.

     All the earth was charred and black,

       Fire had swept from pole to pole;

     And the bottom of the sea

       Was as brittle as a bowl;

     And the timbered mountain-top

       Was as naked as a skull,—

     Nothing left, nothing left,

       Of the Earth so beautiful!

     "Earth," I said, "how can I leave you?"

       "You are all I have," I said;

     "What is left to take my mind up,

       Living always, and you dead?"

     "Speak!" I said, "Oh, tell me something!

       Make a sign that I can see!

     For a keepsake!  To keep always!

       Quick!—before God misses me!"

     And I listened for a voice;—

       But my heart was all I heard;

     Not a screech-owl, not a loon,

       Not a tree-toad said a word.

     And I waited for a sign;—

       Coals and cinders, nothing more;

     And a little cloud of smoke

       Floating on a valley floor.

     And I peered into the smoke

       Till it rotted, like a fog:—

     There, encompassed round by fire,

       Stood a blue-flag in a bog!

     Little flames came wading out,

       Straining, straining towards its stem,

     But it was so blue and tall

       That it scorned to think of them!

     Red and thirsty were their tongues,

       As the tongues of wolves must be,

     But it was so blue and tall—

       Oh, I laughed, I cried, to see!

     All my heart became a tear,

       All my soul became a tower,

     Never loved I anything

       As I loved that tall blue flower!

     It was all the little boats

       That had ever sailed the sea,

     It was all the little books

       That had gone to school with me;

     On its roots like iron claws

       Rearing up so blue and tall,—

     It was all the gallant Earth

       With its back against a wall!

     In a breath, ere I had breathed,—

       Oh, I laughed, I cried, to see!—

     I was kneeling at its side,

       And it leaned its head on me!

     Crumbling stones and sliding sand

       Is the road to Heaven now;

     Icy at my straining knees

       Drags the awful under-tow;

     Soon but stepping-stones of dust

       Will the road to Heaven be,—

     Father, Son and Holy Ghost,

       Reach a hand and rescue me!

     "There—there, my blue-flag flower;

       Hush—hush—go to sleep;

     That is only God you hear,

       Counting up His folded sheep!

     Lullabye—lullabye—

       That is only God that calls,

     Missing me, seeking me,

       Ere the road to nothing falls!

     He will set His mighty feet

       Firmly on the sliding sand;

     Like a little frightened bird

       I will creep into His hand;

     I will tell Him all my grief,

       I will tell Him all my sin;

     He will give me half His robe

       For a cloak to wrap you in.

     Lullabye—lullabye—"

       Rocks the burnt-out planet free!—

     Father, Son and Holy Ghost,

       Reach a hand and rescue me!

     Ah, the voice of love at last!

       Lo, at last the face of light!

     And the whole of His white robe

       For a cloak against the night!

     And upon my heart asleep

       All the things I ever knew!—

     "Holds Heaven not some cranny, Lord,

       For a flower so tall and blue?"

     All's well and all's well!

       Gay the lights of Heaven show!

     In some moist and Heavenly place

       We will set it out to grow.

JOURNEY

     Ah, could I lay me down in this long grass

     And close my eyes, and let the quiet wind

     Blow over me—I am so tired, so tired

     Of passing pleasant places!  All my life,

     Following Care along the dusty road,

     Have I looked back at loveliness and sighed;

     Yet at my hand an unrelenting hand

     Tugged ever, and I passed.  All my life long

     Over my shoulder have I looked at peace;

     And now I fain would lie in this long grass

     And close my eyes.

                        Yet onward!

                                    Cat birds call

     Through the long afternoon, and creeks at dusk

     Are guttural.  Whip-poor-wills wake and cry,

     Drawing the twilight close about their throats.

     Only my heart makes answer.  Eager vines

     Go up the rocks and wait; flushed apple-trees

     Pause in their dance and break the ring for me;

     Dim, shady wood-roads, redolent of fern

     And bayberry, that through sweet bevies thread

     Of round-faced roses, pink and petulant,

     Look back and beckon ere they disappear.

     Only my heart, only my heart responds.

     Yet, ah, my path is sweet on either side

     All through the dragging day,—sharp underfoot

     And hot, and like dead mist the dry dust hangs—

     But far, oh, far as passionate eye can reach,

     And long, ah, long as rapturous eye can cling,

     The world is mine: blue hill, still silver lake,

     Broad field, bright flower, and the long white road

     A gateless garden, and an open path:

     My feet to follow, and my heart to hold.

EEL-GRASS

     No matter what I say,

       All that I really love

     Is the rain that flattens on the bay,

       And the eel-grass in the cove;

     The jingle-shells that lie and bleach

       At the tide-line, and the trace

     Of higher tides along the beach:

       Nothing in this place.

ELEGY BEFORE DEATH

     There will be rose and rhododendron

       When you are dead and under ground;

     Still will be heard from white syringas

       Heavy with bees, a sunny sound;

     Still will the tamaracks be raining

       After the rain has ceased, and still

     Will there be robins in the stubble,

       Brown sheep upon the warm green hill.

     Spring will not ail nor autumn falter;

       Nothing will know that you are gone,

     Saving alone some sullen plough-land

       None but yourself sets foot upon;

     Saving the may-weed and the pig-weed

       Nothing will know that you are dead,—

     These, and perhaps a useless wagon

       Standing beside some tumbled shed.

     Oh, there will pass with your great passing

       Little of beauty not your own,—

     Only the light from common water,

       Only the grace from simple stone!

THE BEAN-STALK

     Ho, Giant!  This is I!

     I have built me a bean-stalk into your sky!

     La,—but it's lovely, up so high!

     This is how I came,—I put

     Here my knee, there my foot,

     Up and up, from shoot to shoot—

     And the blessed bean-stalk thinning

     Like the mischief all the time,

     Till it took me rocking, spinning,

     In a dizzy, sunny circle,

     Making angles with the root,

     Far and out above the cackle

     Of the city I was born in,

     Till the little dirty city

     In the light so sheer and sunny

     Shone as dazzling bright and pretty

     As the money that you find

     In a dream of finding money—

     What a wind!  What a morning!—

     Till the tiny, shiny city,

     When I shot a glance below,

     Shaken with a giddy laughter,

     Sick and blissfully afraid,

     Was a dew-drop on a blade,

     And a pair of moments after

     Was the whirling guess I made,—

     And the wind was like a whip

     Cracking past my icy ears,

     And my hair stood out behind,

     And my eyes were full of tears,

     Wide-open and cold,

     More tears than they could hold,

     The wind was blowing so,

     And my teeth were in a row,

     Dry and grinning,

     And I felt my foot slip,

     And I scratched the wind and whined,

     And I clutched the stalk and jabbered,

     With my eyes shut blind,—

     What a wind!  What a wind!

     Your broad sky, Giant,

     Is the shelf of a cupboard;

     I make bean-stalks, I'm

     A builder, like yourself,

     But bean-stalks is my trade,

     I couldn't make a shelf,

     Don't know how they're made,

     Now, a bean-stalk is more pliant—

     La, what a climb!

WEEDS

     White with daisies and red with sorrel

       And empty, empty under the sky!—

     Life is a quest and love a quarrel—

       Here is a place for me to lie.

     Daisies spring from damned seeds,

       And this red fire that here I see

     Is a worthless crop of crimson weeds,

       Cursed by farmers thriftily.

     But here, unhated for an hour,

       The sorrel runs in ragged flame,

     The daisy stands, a bastard flower,

       Like flowers that bear an honest name.

     And here a while, where no wind brings

       The baying of a pack athirst,

     May sleep the sleep of blessed things,

       The blood too bright, the brow accurst.

PASSER MORTUUS EST

     Death devours all lovely things;

       Lesbia with her sparrow

     Shares the darkness,—presently

       Every bed is narrow.

     Unremembered as old rain

       Dries the sheer libation,

     And the little petulant hand

       Is an annotation.

     After all, my erstwhile dear,

       My no longer cherished,

     Need we say it was not love,

       Now that love is perished?

PASTORAL

     If it were only still!—

     With far away the shrill

     Crying of a cock;

     Or the shaken bell

     From a cow's throat

     Moving through the bushes;

     Or the soft shock

     Of wizened apples falling

     From an old tree

     In a forgotten orchard

     Upon the hilly rock!

     Oh, grey hill,

     Where the grazing herd

     Licks the purple blossom,

     Crops the spiky weed!

     Oh, stony pasture,

     Where the tall mullein

     Stands up so sturdy

     On its little seed!

ASSAULT

     I

     I had forgotten how the frogs must sound

     After a year of silence, else I think

     I should not so have ventured forth alone

     At dusk upon this unfrequented road.

     II

     I am waylaid by Beauty.  Who will walk

     Between me and the crying of the frogs?

     Oh, savage Beauty, suffer me to pass,

     That am a timid woman, on her way

     From one house to another!

TRAVEL

     The railroad track is miles away,

       And the day is loud with voices speaking,

     Yet there isn't a train goes by all day

       But I hear its whistle shrieking.

     All night there isn't a train goes by,

       Though the night is still for sleep and dreaming

     But I see its cinders red on the sky,

       And hear its engine steaming.

     My heart is warm with the friends I make,

       And better friends I'll not be knowing,

     Yet there isn't a train I wouldn't take,

       No matter where it's going.

LOW-TIDE

     These wet rocks where the tide has been,

       Barnacled white and weeded brown

     And slimed beneath to a beautiful green,

       These wet rocks where the tide went down

     Will show again when the tide is high

       Faint and perilous, far from shore,

     No place to dream, but a place to die,—

       The bottom of the sea once more.

     There was a child that wandered through

       A giant's empty house all day,—

     House full of wonderful things and new,

       But no fit place for a child to play.

SONG OF A SECOND APRIL

     April this year, not otherwise

       Than April of a year ago,

     Is full of whispers, full of sighs,

       Of dazzling mud and dingy snow;

       Hepaticas that pleased you so

     Are here again, and butterflies.

     There rings a hammering all day,

       And shingles lie about the doors;

     In orchards near and far away

       The grey wood-pecker taps and bores;

       The men are merry at their chores,

     And children earnest at their play.

     The larger streams run still and deep,

       Noisy and swift the small brooks run

     Among the mullein stalks the sheep

       Go up the hillside in the sun,

       Pensively,—only you are gone,

     You that alone I cared to keep.

ROSEMARY

     For the sake of some things

       That be now no more

     I will strew rushes

       On my chamber-floor,

     I will plant bergamot

       At my kitchen-door.

     For the sake of dim things

       That were once so plain

     I will set a barrel

       Out to catch the rain,

     I will hang an iron pot

       On an iron crane.

     Many things be dead and gone

       That were brave and gay;

     For the sake of these things

       I will learn to say,

     "An it please you, gentle sirs,"

       "Alack!" and "Well-a-day!"

THE POET AND HIS BOOK

     Down, you mongrel, Death!

       Back into your kennel!

     I have stolen breath

       In a stalk of fennel!

     You shall scratch and you shall whine

       Many a night, and you shall worry

       Many a bone, before you bury

     One sweet bone of mine!

     When shall I be dead?

       When my flesh is withered,

     And above my head

       Yellow pollen gathered

     All the empty afternoon?

       When sweet lovers pause and wonder

       Who am I that lie thereunder,

     Hidden from the moon?

     This my personal death?—

       That lungs be failing

     To inhale the breath

       Others are exhaling?

     This my subtle spirit's end?—

       Ah, when the thawed winter splashes

       Over these chance dust and ashes,

     Weep not me, my friend!

     Me, by no means dead

       In that hour, but surely

     When this book, unread,

       Rots to earth obscurely,

     And no more to any breast,

       Close against the clamorous swelling

       Of the thing there is no telling,

     Are these pages pressed!

     When this book is mould,

       And a book of many

     Waiting to be sold

       For a casual penny,

     In a little open case,

       In a street unclean and cluttered,

       Where a heavy mud is spattered

     From the passing drays,

     Stranger, pause and look;

       From the dust of ages

     Lift this little book,

       Turn the tattered pages,

     Read me, do not let me die!

       Search the fading letters, finding

       Steadfast in the broken binding

     All that once was I!

     When these veins are weeds,

       When these hollowed sockets

     Watch the rooty seeds

       Bursting down like rockets,

     And surmise the spring again,

       Or, remote in that black cupboard,

       Watch the pink worms writhing upward

     At the smell of rain,

     Boys and girls that lie

       Whispering in the hedges,

     Do not let me die,

       Mix me with your pledges;

     Boys and girls that slowly walk

       In the woods, and weep, and quarrel,

       Staring past the pink wild laurel,

     Mix me with your talk,

     Do not let me die!

       Farmers at your raking,

     When the sun is high,

       While the hay is making,

     When, along the stubble strewn,

       Withering on their stalks uneaten,

       Strawberries turn dark and sweeten

     In the lapse of noon;

     Shepherds on the hills,

       In the pastures, drowsing

     To the tinkling bells

       Of the brown sheep browsing;

     Sailors crying through the storm;

       Scholars at your study; hunters

       Lost amid the whirling winter's

     Whiteness uniform;

     Men that long for sleep;

       Men that wake and revel;—

     If an old song leap

       To your senses' level

     At such moments, may it be

       Sometimes, though a moment only,

       Some forgotten, quaint and homely

     Vehicle of me!

     Women at your toil,

       Women at your leisure

     Till the kettle boil,

       Snatch of me your pleasure,

     Where the broom-straw marks the leaf;

       Women quiet with your weeping

       Lest you wake a workman sleeping,

     Mix me with your grief!

     Boys and girls that steal

       From the shocking laughter

     Of the old, to kneel

       By a dripping rafter

     Under the discolored eaves,

       Out of trunks with hingeless covers

       Lifting tales of saints and lovers,

     Travelers, goblins, thieves,

     Suns that shine by night,

       Mountains made from valleys,—

     Bear me to the light,

       Flat upon your bellies

     By the webby window lie,

       Where the little flies are crawling,—

       Read me, margin me with scrawling,

     Do not let me die!

     Sexton, ply your trade!

       In a shower of gravel

     Stamp upon your spade!

       Many a rose shall ravel,

     Many a metal wreath shall rust

       In the rain, and I go singing

       Through the lots where you are flinging

     Yellow clay on dust!

ALMS

     My heart is what it was before,

       A house where people come and go;

     But it is winter with your love,

       The sashes are beset with snow.

     I light the lamp and lay the cloth,

       I blow the coals to blaze again;

     But it is winter with your love,

       The frost is thick upon the pane.

     I know a winter when it comes:

       The leaves are listless on the boughs;

     I watched your love a little while,

       And brought my plants into the house.

     I water them and turn them south,

       I snap the dead brown from the stem;

     But it is winter with your love,—

       I only tend and water them.

     There was a time I stood and watched

       The small, ill-natured sparrows' fray;

     I loved the beggar that I fed,

       I cared for what he had to say,

     I stood and watched him out of sight;

       Today I reach around the door

     And set a bowl upon the step;

       My heart is what it was before,

     But it is winter with your love;

       I scatter crumbs upon the sill,

     And close the window,—and the birds

       May take or leave them, as they will.

INLAND

     People that build their houses inland,

       People that buy a plot of ground

     Shaped like a house, and build a house there,

       Far from the sea-board, far from the sound

     Of water sucking the hollow ledges,

       Tons of water striking the shore,—

     What do they long for, as I long for

       One salt smell of the sea once more?

     People the waves have not awakened,

       Spanking the boats at the harbor's head,

     What do they long for, as I long for,—

       Starting up in my inland bed,

     Beating the narrow walls, and finding

       Neither a window nor a door,

     Screaming to God for death by drowning,—

       One salt taste of the sea once more?

TO A POET THAT DIED YOUNG

     Minstrel, what have you to do

     With this man that, after you,

     Sharing not your happy fate,

     Sat as England's Laureate?

     Vainly, in these iron days,

     Strives the poet in your praise,

     Minstrel, by whose singing side

     Beauty walked, until you died.

     Still, though none should hark again,

     Drones the blue-fly in the pane,

     Thickly crusts the blackest moss,

     Blows the rose its musk across,

     Floats the boat that is forgot

     None the less to Camelot.

     Many a bard's untimely death

     Lends unto his verses breath;

     Here's a song was never sung:

     Growing old is dying young.

     Minstrel, what is this to you:

     That a man you never knew,

     When your grave was far and green,

     Sat and gossipped with a queen?

     Thalia knows how rare a thing

     Is it, to grow old and sing;

     When a brown and tepid tide

     Closes in on every side.

     Who shall say if Shelley's gold

     Had withstood it to grow old?

WRAITH

     "Thin Rain, whom are you haunting,

       That you haunt my door?"

     —Surely it is not I she's wanting;

       Someone living here before—

     "Nobody's in the house but me:

     You may come in if you like and see."

     Thin as thread, with exquisite fingers,—

       Have you seen her, any of you?—

     Grey shawl, and leaning on the wind,

       And the garden showing through?

     Glimmering eyes,—and silent, mostly,

       Sort of a whisper, sort of a purr,

     Asking something, asking it over,

       If you get a sound from her.—

     Ever see her, any of you?—

       Strangest thing I've ever known,—

     Every night since I moved in,

       And I came to be alone.

     "Thin Rain, hush with your knocking!

       You may not come in!

     This is I that you hear rocking;

       Nobody's with me, nor has been!"

     Curious, how she tried the window,—

       Odd, the way she tries the door,—

     Wonder just what sort of people

       Could have had this house before . . .

EBB

     I know what my heart is like

       Since your love died:

     It is like a hollow ledge

     Holding a little pool

       Left there by the tide,

       A little tepid pool,

     Drying inward from the edge.

ELAINE

     OH, come again to Astolat!

       I will not ask you to be kind.

     And you may go when you will go,

       And I will stay behind.

     I will not say how dear you are,

       Or ask you if you hold me dear,

     Or trouble you with things for you

       The way I did last year.

     So still the orchard, Lancelot,

       So very still the lake shall be,

     You could not guess—though you should guess—

       What is become of me.

     So wide shall be the garden-walk,

       The garden-seat so very wide,

     You needs must think—if you should think—

       The lily maid had died.

     Save that, a little way away,

       I'd watch you for a little while,

     To see you speak, the way you speak,

       And smile,—if you should smile.

BURIAL

     Mine is a body that should die at sea!

       And have for a grave, instead of a grave

     Six feet deep and the length of me,

       All the water that is under the wave!

     And terrible fishes to seize my flesh,

       Such as a living man might fear,

     And eat me while I am firm and fresh,—

       Not wait till I've been dead for a year!

MARIPOSA

     Butterflies are white and blue

     In this field we wander through.

     Suffer me to take your hand.

     Death comes in a day or two.

     All the things we ever knew

     Will be ashes in that hour,

     Mark the transient butterfly,

     How he hangs upon the flower.

     Suffer me to take your hand.

     Suffer me to cherish you

     Till the dawn is in the sky.

     Whether I be false or true,

     Death comes in a day or two.

THE LITTLE HILL

     OH, here the air is sweet and still,

       And soft's the grass to lie on;

     And far away's the little hill

       They took for Christ to die on.

     And there's a hill across the brook,

       And down the brook's another;

     But, oh, the little hill they took,—

       I think I am its mother!

     The moon that saw Gethsemane,

       I watch it rise and set:

     It has so many things to see,

       They help it to forget.

     But little hills that sit at home

       So many hundred years,

     Remember Greece, remember Rome,

       Remember Mary's tears.

     And far away in Palestine,

       Sadder than any other,

     Grieves still the hill that I call mine,—

       I think I am its mother!

DOUBT NO MORE THAT OBERON

     Doubt no more that Oberon—

     Never doubt that Pan

     Lived, and played a reed, and ran

     After nymphs in a dark forest,

     In the merry, credulous days,—

     Lived, and led a fairy band

     Over the indulgent land!

     Ah, for in this dourest, sorest

     Age man's eye has looked upon,

     Death to fauns and death to fays,

     Still the dog-wood dares to raise—

     Healthy tree, with trunk and root—

     Ivory bowls that bear no fruit,

     And the starlings and the jays—

     Birds that cannot even sing—

     Dare to come again in spring!

LAMENT

     Listen, children:

     Your father is dead.

     From his old coats

     I'll make you little jackets;

     I'll make you little trousers

     From his old pants.

     There'll be in his pockets

     Things he used to put there,

     Keys and pennies

     Covered with tobacco;

     Dan shall have the pennies

     To save in his bank;

     Anne shall have the keys

     To make a pretty noise with.

     Life must go on,

     And the dead be forgotten;

     Life must go on,

     Though good men die;

     Anne, eat your breakfast;

     Dan, take your medicine;

     Life must go on;

     I forget just why.

EXILED

     Searching my heart for its true sorrow,

       This is the thing I find to be:

     That I am weary of words and people,

       Sick of the city, wanting the sea;

     Wanting the sticky, salty sweetness

       Of the strong wind and shattered spray;

     Wanting the loud sound and the soft sound

       Of the big surf that breaks all day.

     Always before about my dooryard,

       Marking the reach of the winter sea,

     Rooted in sand and dragging drift-wood,

       Straggled the purple wild sweet-pea;

     Always I climbed the wave at morning,

       Shook the sand from my shoes at night,

     That now am caught beneath great buildings,

       Stricken with noise, confused with light.

     If I could hear the green piles groaning

       Under the windy wooden piers,

     See once again the bobbing barrels,

       And the black sticks that fence the weirs,

     If I could see the weedy mussels

       Crusting the wrecked and rotting hulls,

     Hear once again the hungry crying

       Overhead, of the wheeling gulls,

     Feel once again the shanty straining

       Under the turning of the tide,

     Fear once again the rising freshet,

       Dread the bell in the fog outside,—

     I should be happy,—that was happy

       All day long on the coast of Maine!

     I have a need to hold and handle

       Shells and anchors and ships again!

     I should be happy, that am happy

       Never at all since I came here.

     I am too long away from water.

       I have a need of water near.

THE DEATH OF AUTUMN

     When reeds are dead and a straw to thatch the marshes,

     And feathered pampas-grass rides into the wind

     Like aged warriors westward, tragic, thinned

     Of half their tribe, and over the flattened rushes,

     Stripped of its secret, open, stark and bleak,

     Blackens afar the half-forgotten creek,—

     Then leans on me the weight of the year, and crushes

     My heart.  I know that Beauty must ail and die,

     And will be born again,—but ah, to see

     Beauty stiffened, staring up at the sky!

     Oh, Autumn!  Autumn!—What is the Spring to me?

ODE TO SILENCE

       Aye, but she?

       Your other sister and my other soul

       Grave Silence, lovelier

       Than the three loveliest maidens, what of her?

       Clio, not you,

       Not you, Calliope,

       Nor all your wanton line,

       Not Beauty's perfect self shall comfort me

       For Silence once departed,

       For her the cool-tongued, her the tranquil-hearted,

       Whom evermore I follow wistfully,

     Wandering Heaven and Earth and Hell and the four seasons through;

     Thalia, not you,

     Not you, Melpomene,

     Not your incomparable feet, O thin Terpsichore,

     I seek in this great hall,

     But one more pale, more pensive, most beloved of you all.

     I seek her from afar,

     I come from temples where her altars are,

     From groves that bear her name,

     Noisy with stricken victims now and sacrificial flame,

     And cymbals struck on high and strident faces

     Obstreperous in her praise

     They neither love nor know,

     A goddess of gone days,

     Departed long ago,

     Abandoning the invaded shrines and fanes

     Of her old sanctuary,

     A deity obscure and legendary,

     Of whom there now remains,

     For sages to decipher and priests to garble,

     Only and for a little while her letters wedged in marble,

     Which even now, behold, the friendly mumbling rain erases,

     And the inarticulate snow,

     Leaving at last of her least signs and traces

     None whatsoever, nor whither she is vanished from these places.

     "She will love well," I said,

     "If love be of that heart inhabiter,

     The flowers of the dead;

     The red anemone that with no sound

     Moves in the wind, and from another wound

     That sprang, the heavily-sweet blue hyacinth,

     That blossoms underground,

     And sallow poppies, will be dear to her.

     And will not Silence know

     In the black shade of what obsidian steep

     Stiffens the white narcissus numb with sleep?

     (Seed which Demeter's daughter bore from home,

     Uptorn by desperate fingers long ago,

     Reluctant even as she,

     Undone Persephone,

     And even as she set out again to grow

     In twilight, in perdition's lean and inauspicious loam).

     She will love well," I said,

     "The flowers of the dead;

     Where dark Persephone the winter round,

     Uncomforted for home, uncomforted,

     Lacking a sunny southern slope in northern Sicily,

     With sullen pupils focussed on a dream,

     Stares on the stagnant stream

     That moats the unequivocable battlements of Hell,

     There, there will she be found,

     She that is Beauty veiled from men and Music in a swound."

     "I long for Silence as they long for breath

     Whose helpless nostrils drink the bitter sea;

     What thing can be

     So stout, what so redoubtable, in Death

     What fury, what considerable rage, if only she,

     Upon whose icy breast,

     Unquestioned, uncaressed,

     One time I lay,

     And whom always I lack,

     Even to this day,

     Being by no means from that frigid bosom weaned away,

     If only she therewith be given me back?"

     I sought her down that dolorous labyrinth,

     Wherein no shaft of sunlight ever fell,

     And in among the bloodless everywhere

     I sought her, but the air,

     Breathed many times and spent,

     Was fretful with a whispering discontent,

     And questioning me, importuning me to tell

     Some slightest tidings of the light of day they know no more,

     Plucking my sleeve, the eager shades were with me where I went.

     I paused at every grievous door,

     And harked a moment, holding up my hand,—and for a space

     A hush was on them, while they watched my face;

     And then they fell a-whispering as before;

     So that I smiled at them and left them, seeing she was not there.

     I sought her, too,

     Among the upper gods, although I knew

     She was not like to be where feasting is,

     Nor near to Heaven's lord,

     Being a thing abhorred

     And shunned of him, although a child of his,

     (Not yours, not yours; to you she owes not breath,

     Mother of Song, being sown of Zeus upon a dream of Death).

     Fearing to pass unvisited some place

     And later learn, too late, how all the while,

     With her still face,

     She had been standing there and seen me pass, without a smile,

     I sought her even to the sagging board whereat

     The stout immortals sat;

     But such a laughter shook the mighty hall

     No one could hear me say:

     Had she been seen upon the Hill that day?

     And no one knew at all

     How long I stood, or when at last I sighed and went away.

     There is a garden lying in a lull

     Between the mountains and the mountainous sea,

     I know not where, but which a dream diurnal

     Paints on my lids a moment till the hull

     Be lifted from the kernel

     And Slumber fed to me.

     Your foot-print is not there, Mnemosene,

     Though it would seem a ruined place and after

     Your lichenous heart, being full

     Of broken columns, caryatides

     Thrown to the earth and fallen forward on their jointless knees,

     And urns funereal altered into dust

     Minuter than the ashes of the dead,

     And Psyche's lamp out of the earth up-thrust,

     Dripping itself in marble wax on what was once the bed

     Of Love, and his young body asleep, but now is dust instead.

     There twists the bitter-sweet, the white wisteria

     Fastens its fingers in the strangling wall,

     And the wide crannies quicken with bright weeds;

     There dumbly like a worm all day the still white orchid feeds;

     But never an echo of your daughters' laughter

     Is there, nor any sign of you at all

     Swells fungous from the rotten bough, grey mother of Pieria!

     Only her shadow once upon a stone

     I saw,—and, lo, the shadow and the garden, too, were gone.

     I tell you you have done her body an ill,

     You chatterers, you noisy crew!

     She is not anywhere!

     I sought her in deep Hell;

     And through the world as well;

     I thought of Heaven and I sought her there;

     Above nor under ground

     Is Silence to be found,

     That was the very warp and woof of you,

     Lovely before your songs began and after they were through!

     Oh, say if on this hill

     Somewhere your sister's body lies in death,

     So I may follow there, and make a wreath

     Of my locked hands, that on her quiet breast

     Shall lie till age has withered them!

                             (Ah, sweetly from the rest

     I see

     Turn and consider me

     Compassionate Euterpe!)

     "There is a gate beyond the gate of Death,

     Beyond the gate of everlasting Life,

     Beyond the gates of Heaven and Hell," she saith,

     "Whereon but to believe is horror!

     Whereon to meditate engendereth

     Even in deathless spirits such as I

     A tumult in the breath,

     A chilling of the inexhaustible blood

     Even in my veins that never will be dry,

     And in the austere, divine monotony

     That is my being, the madness of an unaccustomed mood.

     This is her province whom you lack and seek;

     And seek her not elsewhere.

     Hell is a thoroughfare

     For pilgrims,—Herakles,

     And he that loved Euridice too well,

     Have walked therein; and many more than these;

     And witnessed the desire and the despair

     Of souls that passed reluctantly and sicken for the air;

     You, too, have entered Hell,

     And issued thence; but thence whereof I speak

     None has returned;—for thither fury brings

     Only the driven ghosts of them that flee before all things.

     Oblivion is the name of this abode: and she is there."

     Oh, radiant Song!  Oh, gracious Memory!

     Be long upon this height

     I shall not climb again!

     I know the way you mean,—the little night,

     And the long empty day,—never to see

     Again the angry light,

     Or hear the hungry noises cry my brain!

     Ah, but she,

     Your other sister and my other soul,

     She shall again be mine;

     And I shall drink her from a silver bowl,

     A chilly thin green wine,

     Not bitter to the taste,

     Not sweet,

     Not of your press, oh, restless, clamorous nine,—

     To foam beneath the frantic hoofs of mirth—

     But savoring faintly of the acid earth,

     And trod by pensive feet

     From perfect clusters ripened without haste

     Out of the urgent heat

     In some clear glimmering vaulted twilight under the odorous vine.

     Lift up your lyres!  Sing on!

     But as for me, I seek your sister whither she is gone.

MEMORIAL TO D. C.

     [VASSAR COLLEGE, 1918]

     Oh, loveliest throat of all sweet throats,

       Where now no more the music is,

     With hands that wrote you little notes

       I write you little elegies!

EPITAPH

     Heap not on this mound

       Roses that she loved so well;

     Why bewilder her with roses,

       That she cannot see or smell?

     She is happy where she lies

       With the dust upon her eyes.

PRAYER TO PERSEPHONE

     Be to her, Persephone,

     All the things I might not be;

     Take her head upon your knee.

     She that was so proud and wild,

     Flippant, arrogant and free,

     She that had no need of me,

     Is a little lonely child

     Lost in Hell,—Persephone,

     Take her head upon your knee;

     Say to her, "My dear, my dear,

     It is not so dreadful here."

CHORUS

     Give away her gowns,

     Give away her shoes;

     She has no more use

     For her fragrant gowns;

     Take them all down,

     Blue, green, blue,

     Lilac, pink, blue,

     From their padded hangers;

     She will dance no more

     In her narrow shoes;

     Sweep her narrow shoes

     From the closet floor.

ELEGY

     Let them bury your big eyes

     In the secret earth securely,

     Your thin fingers, and your fair,

     Soft, indefinite-colored hair,—

     All of these in some way, surely,

     From the secret earth shall rise;

     Not for these I sit and stare,

     Broken and bereft completely;

     Your young flesh that sat so neatly

     On your little bones will sweetly

     Blossom in the air.

     But your voice,—never the rushing

     Of a river underground,

     Not the rising of the wind

     In the trees before the rain,

     Not the woodcock's watery call,

     Not the note the white-throat utters,

     Not the feet of children pushing

     Yellow leaves along the gutters

     In the blue and bitter fall,

     Shall content my musing mind

     For the beauty of that sound

     That in no new way at all

     Ever will be heard again.

     Sweetly through the sappy stalk

     Of the vigorous weed,

     Holding all it held before,

     Cherished by the faithful sun,

     On and on eternally

     Shall your altered fluid run,

     Bud and bloom and go to seed;

     But your singing days are done;

     But the music of your talk

     Never shall the chemistry

     Of the secret earth restore.

     All your lovely words are spoken.

     Once the ivory box is broken,

     Beats the golden bird no more.

DIRGE

     Boys and girls that held her dear,

       Do your weeping now;

     All you loved of her lies here.

     Brought to earth the arrogant brow,

       And the withering tongue

     Chastened; do your weeping now.

     Sing whatever songs are sung,

       Wind whatever wreath,

     For a playmate perished young,

     For a spirit spent in death.

     Boys and girls that held her dear,

     All you loved of her lies here.

SONNETS

     I

     We talk of taxes, and I call you friend;

     Well, such you are,—but well enough we know

     How thick about us root, how rankly grow

     Those subtle weeds no man has need to tend,

     That flourish through neglect, and soon must send

     Perfume too sweet upon us and overthrow

     Our steady senses; how such matters go

     We are aware, and how such matters end.

     Yet shall be told no meagre passion here;

     With lovers such as we forevermore

     Isolde drinks the draught, and Guinevere

     Receives the Table's ruin through her door,

     Francesca, with the loud surf at her ear,

     Lets fall the colored book upon the floor.

     II

     Into the golden vessel of great song

     Let us pour all our passion; breast to breast

     Let other lovers lie, in love and rest;

     Not we,—articulate, so, but with the tongue

     Of all the world: the churning blood, the long

     Shuddering quiet, the desperate hot palms pressed

     Sharply together upon the escaping guest,

     The common soul, unguarded, and grown strong.

     Longing alone is singer to the lute;

     Let still on nettles in the open sigh

     The minstrel, that in slumber is as mute

     As any man, and love be far and high,

     That else forsakes the topmost branch, a fruit

     Found on the ground by every passer-by.

     III

     Not with libations, but with shouts and laughter

     We drenched the altars of Love's sacred grove,

     Shaking to earth green fruits, impatient after

     The launching of the colored moths of Love.

     Love's proper myrtle and his mother's zone

     We bound about our irreligious brows,

     And fettered him with garlands of our own,

     And spread a banquet in his frugal house.

     Not yet the god has spoken; but I fear

     Though we should break our bodies in his flame,

     And pour our blood upon his altar, here

     Henceforward is a grove without a name,

     A pasture to the shaggy goats of Pan,

     Whence flee forever a woman and a man.

     IV

     Only until this cigarette is ended,

     A little moment at the end of all,

     While on the floor the quiet ashes fall,

     And in the firelight to a lance extended,

     Bizarrely with the jazzing music blended,

     The broken shadow dances on the wall,

     I will permit my memory to recall

     The vision of you, by all my dreams attended.

     And then adieu,—farewell!—the dream is done.

     Yours is a face of which I can forget

     The color and the features, every one,

     The words not ever, and the smiles not yet;

     But in your day this moment is the sun

     Upon a hill, after the sun has set.

     V

     Once more into my arid days like dew,

     Like wind from an oasis, or the sound

     Of cold sweet water bubbling underground,

     A treacherous messenger, the thought of you

     Comes to destroy me; once more I renew

     Firm faith in your abundance, whom I found

     Long since to be but just one other mound

     Of sand, whereon no green thing ever grew.

     And once again, and wiser in no wise,

     I chase your colored phantom on the air,

     And sob and curse and fall and weep and rise

     And stumble pitifully on to where,

     Miserable and lost, with stinging eyes,

     Once more I clasp,—and there is nothing there.

     VI

     No rose that in a garden ever grew,

     In Homer's or in Omar's or in mine,

     Though buried under centuries of fine

     Dead dust of roses, shut from sun and dew

     Forever, and forever lost from view,

     But must again in fragrance rich as wine

     The grey aisles of the air incarnadine

     When the old summers surge into a new.

     Thus when I swear, "I love with all my heart,"

     'Tis with the heart of Lilith that I swear,

     'Tis with the love of Lesbia and Lucrece;

     And thus as well my love must lose some part

     Of what it is, had Helen been less fair,

     Or perished young, or stayed at home in Greece.

     VII

     When I too long have looked upon your face,

     Wherein for me a brightness unobscured

     Save by the mists of brightness has its place,

     And terrible beauty not to be endured,

     I turn away reluctant from your light,

     And stand irresolute, a mind undone,

     A silly, dazzled thing deprived of sight

     From having looked too long upon the sun.

     Then is my daily life a narrow room

     In which a little while, uncertainly,

     Surrounded by impenetrable gloom,

     Among familiar things grown strange to me

     Making my way, I pause, and feel, and hark,

     Till I become accustomed to the dark.

     VIII

     And you as well must die, beloved dust,

     And all your beauty stand you in no stead;

     This flawless, vital hand, this perfect head,

     This body of flame and steel, before the gust

     Of Death, or under his autumnal frost,

     Shall be as any leaf, be no less dead

     Than the first leaf that fell,—this wonder fled.

     Altered, estranged, disintegrated, lost.

     Nor shall my love avail you in your hour.

     In spite of all my love, you will arise

     Upon that day and wander down the air

     Obscurely as the unattended flower,

     It mattering not how beautiful you were,

     Or how beloved above all else that dies.

     IX

     Let you not say of me when I am old,

     In pretty worship of my withered hands

     Forgetting who I am, and how the sands

     Of such a life as mine run red and gold

     Even to the ultimate sifting dust, "Behold,

     Here walketh passionless age!"—for there expands

     A curious superstition in these lands,

     And by its leave some weightless tales are told.

     In me no lenten wicks watch out the night;

     I am the booth where Folly holds her fair;

     Impious no less in ruin than in strength,

     When I lie crumbled to the earth at length,

     Let you not say, "Upon this reverend site

     The righteous groaned and beat their breasts in prayer."

     X

     Oh, my beloved, have you thought of this:

     How in the years to come unscrupulous Time,

     More cruel than Death, will tear you from my kiss,

     And make you old, and leave me in my prime?

     How you and I, who scale together yet

     A little while the sweet, immortal height

     No pilgrim may remember or forget,

     As sure as the world turns, some granite night

     Shall lie awake and know the gracious flame

     Gone out forever on the mutual stone;

     And call to mind that on the day you came

     I was a child, and you a hero grown?—

     And the night pass, and the strange morning break

     Upon our anguish for each other's sake!

     XI

     As to some lovely temple, tenantless

     Long since, that once was sweet with shivering brass,

     Knowing well its altars ruined and the grass

     Grown up between the stones, yet from excess

     Of grief hard driven, or great loneliness,

     The worshiper returns, and those who pass

     Marvel him crying on a name that was,—

     So is it now with me in my distress.

     Your body was a temple to Delight;

     Cold are its ashes whence the breath is fled,

     Yet here one time your spirit was wont to move;

     Here might I hope to find you day or night,

     And here I come to look for you, my love,

     Even now, foolishly, knowing you are dead.

     XII

     Cherish you then the hope I shall forget

     At length, my lord, Pieria?—put away

     For your so passing sake, this mouth of clay

     These mortal bones against my body set,

     For all the puny fever and frail sweat

     Of human love,—renounce for these, I say,

     The Singing Mountain's memory, and betray

     The silent lyre that hangs upon me yet?

     Ah, but indeed, some day shall you awake,

     Rather, from dreams of me, that at your side

     So many nights, a lover and a bride,

     But stern in my soul's chastity, have lain,

     To walk the world forever for my sake,

     And in each chamber find me gone again!

WILD SWANS

     I looked in my heart while the wild swans went over.

     And what did I see I had not seen before?

     Only a question less or a question more;

     Nothing to match the flight of wild birds flying.

     Tiresome heart, forever living and dying,

     House without air, I leave you and lock your door.

     Wild swans, come over the town, come over

     The town again, trailing your legs and crying!